my Rapist my Lover

My Rapist My Lover 16

If I said my week was fun I would be lying it was far from that it was sad to be exact, if it was not Monde calling every now and then it was the boss sending me up and down as if I was his personal assistant he was what you call "a boss from hell" I tell you.

It was a Friday evening Simphiwe and I were going shopping thanks to Mall of Africa for opening 24/7, I remembered the first time I ever set my foot it was with the man at that time I thought was the one for me, a man I loved wholeheartedly. Why does love hurt so much? I shook my head trying to think of something else yeah choosing an outfit that's what I was doing before I got interrupted by these thoughts I couldn't help but wonder if the wife is going to be Monde's date at the party I mean intimate party meant close friends and family right so she was going to be there. The awkwardness I wasn't looking forward to.

The theme of the party was all white Miss Party would hear none of it when I suggested she chooses another colour instead of white but hey what miss party wants miss party get. I must admit though it looked exquisite now that I was here they had the most stunning mansion which had a pool inside. You could see people outside taking pictures some admiring the place that's one thing about their place you can never get enough of it no matter how many times you've been there.

I felt him before I could see him, I could feel the hair on the back of my neck standing still that's the effect he still had on me. I could feel his eyes gawking at me but I didn't turn I didn't trust myself in case I do something like running over to him to give him a hug. He stood there for quite some time not saying anything I was in a balcony, the party was about to start so I wanted to collect myself before the party. I had spent the night over at their house. He cleared his throat making me aware of his presence i turned slowly oh boy was he got I looked him at him for a while drinking him all in. When I finally looked at him in his eyes I found him also staring like he was in deep thoughts.

"Hi" I said awkwardly.

"Hi" he replied searching my eyes. He looked tired I'm glad that I wasn't the only one having troubles in sleeping. He took one step coming closer to me, closing the gap that was between us the tension that was in that balcony was so thick you could cut it with a knife.

"Don't" I said when he was about to kiss me.

"I am sorry" he said taking a step back.

"I know, please excuse me" I said going back to my room well the room I slept in and he followed me I wanted to get ready i already had my makeup on.

"I want to wear my clothes Monde" he chuckled.

"Well I've seen every part of your body even you would need a mirror to see" he smirked.

"Mxm whatever"

I took out the dress I was going to wear, it was figure hugging just below the knees dress I was going to wear it with heels, hey it wasn't my party so surely, I wasn't expected to look like I just stepped out of a fashion magazine. Me and lace underwear are bestfriends nothing makes a girl feel sexy like a lace sexy underwear just in general. He groaned as I put it on slowly intentionally.

"And then?" I said turning to him and giving him a full view of my body.

"How am I expected to focus when you look this sexy" I suppressed a smile hey I was flattered okay.

Aren't you supposed to be somewhere entertaining your wife" I asked shifting the attention on me.

"Wow you are such a mood spoiler you know I will meet you downstairs" I laughed as he left. I missed him though. I quickly got ready I don't want to get there when the event had started. Luckily, I was right on time. Monde was standing on a table with his brothers I quickly looked away I didn't want to be caught staring again. Simphiwe quickly came to me and ushered me to their table, she looked stunning in her lady suit.

Everyone had gathered around when Musa clicked his glass with a spoon grabbing our attention Simphiwe was by his side. Monde came and stood right next to me he just couldn't keep away.

"You look stunning" he whispered to me.

"Not bad yourself, now keep your hands to yourself" I said taking his hands off my waist.

"Is my hand affecting you?" I turned to look at him and he was smirking.

"Don't flatter yourself Monde and you are disturbing me I am trying to listen" he kept quiet but did not take his hand off me.

I never thought Musa was a hopeless romantic, his speech really touched me it's true when they say when you find some you love you should hold onto them for dear life because true love only comes once in life. I didn't know they had been through so much in their marriage from miscarriages to break ups they had survived a lot I wondered if there was still a possibility of this with Monde this true love thing but who was I fooling here he said it himself that he was in love with his wife and didn't see himself divorcing her and I wasn't prepared to be the second best. I was such an emotional person why was I crying now I needed to truly get my act together. Monde hugged me now I was going ruin his crispy white shirt with my makeup.

"I'm fine" he looked all concerned. Yes, you should be concerned this is all your doing.

"NO, you're not" he gave me a tissue to wipe my face.

"I need a bathroom" he followed me he was seriously trying to get on my nerves today.

I fixed my face with him looking at me he was probably wondering why I was crying and to be honest with you I didn't know either emotions got better of me.

"I don't like seeing you like this Mini" he said empathetically.

I don't like seeing myself like this too" I shrugged.

"I am sorry if there was any other way of taking all this pain you are feeling now, I would bear it all for you" yes blame yourself prick.

"Well you can't Monde"

"I will never stop loving you Mini" he said sincerely.

"Love alone is never enough I can't have you and that's that you should just leave me alone and stop making this hard for both of us" I snapped.

That's because you are not will to compromise Minenhle I gave you an option but nooo you just had to be selfish about it" what?

"Oh, so I'm being selfish now for not wanting to share you with anyone for loving that is selfish in your vocab oh wow you just never cease to amaze me" the nerve.

"I grew up in a polygamous homestead and I don't see anything wrong with polygamy. Ungumzulu you should understand this better that I fuckin love you and I want to wife you"

"Woah hold your horses Mr you know what actually I want to go and enjoy the party OK please don't be up in my business annoying me" I snapped and left. Who does this guy think he is and the nerve of calling me selfish wow this was interesting so he expects me to accept the fact that he has a wife and dance to his guitar whatever he says goes because I love him. Monde is one selfish person, he has too much ego he thinks the world revolves around him really. I didn't even know he grew up in a polygamous marriage but that doesn't mean he should shove it down my throat.

I didn't even get to enjoy the rest of the party but I tried to mingle with Simphiwe's friends and family she had such a beautiful family, they were all really welcoming and loving. I had to spend yet another night at their place because Simphiwe's fiancè had planned lunch at Sandton for everyone before they departure.

We slept late everyone was out of it, I can sure pull a party maybe I should be called the mother of all parties lol alcohol was provided for everyone. I was drunk but I remember Simphiwe saying something about me being her maid of honour now that made me sober within a minute. All her friends and family were there but she chose me I felt special really, I knew the girl had a thing for me but I really didn't know she loved me so much and yes, I cried again my emotions were really getting better of me. I had just woken up but it still felt surreal because I never really had friends this flattered me.