my Rapist my Lover

My Rapist My Lover 10

I've got good news for you" I could do with some good news

"Whatsup?"

"I got a job offer for you since you don't want to work for me"

"Oh, you do?"

"Can you sound a bit excited please" I laughed

"I am, I am elated, where?"

"At this publishing company, you will be working as their editor"

"Editing? You know I'm not qualified for that"

"Just go to the interview then you will see"

"When?" I asked panicking

"Next week Monday, that will give you time to prepare"

"Thank you Sandile this really means a lot to me although I doubt I will get the job"

"Have some positivity please woman" I missed him and loved that he was totally over me, thank heavens for that. It was now 8PM and the person who is supposed to be my boyfriend was still not back from wherever he was at. I didn't want to dish without him so I called him but it rang unanswered I tried again and no I still couldn't reach him. I decided to dish out for myself.

I waited for him watching t.v while a thrower was wrapped around me it was cold.

I woke up to find the bedside empty now I was really worried I was tempted to call the bubbly one but I didn't want her knowing about my relationship problems she might trust me but I don't trust her. I called him again this time he answered with a "ngingena egatin" and dropped the call. God intervene.

He got in wearing the clothes he was in yesterday but you could tell that he drank the night away, okay we quarelled but it wasn't that big such that you could drown yourself on alcohol. Did this mean everytime we have an argument he is gonna go and drink, I wanted to apologise earlier but now I wasn't so sure. He got in and went to take a bath I decided to go back to sleep I wasn't about to waste my sleep on him.

I was drifting to sleep when he came back and he mumbled that he was hungry and that annoyed me to the core I got up out of the bed kicking the blankets furiously and went to warm his food. The time was 3:00am, I tapped my foot in impatience while the microwave took forever. He got in wearing pyjamas, I gave him his food on a tray and he asked for a juice the nerve of this guy, he was really testing my patience.

"Here"

He took it and gulped on one go I was about to turn the corner when he said

"Aren't you going to stay with me?"

I looked at him annoyed

"Oh, I forgot I am suffocating you" I sighed oh dramatic much.

I sat on one of the high chairs and looked at him

"Look, Monde I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that it was uncalled for"

"But?"

It just feels like this is a one way relationship like you make all the decisions even decisions that involve me, if you want this to work you need to meet me halfway I am not your child I am your girlfriend, talk to me include me in decision making and most of all love me.

Treat me like an adult that I am" he took my hands and kissed my knuckles while looking at me straight in my eyes.

"I am sorry too, I thought I was looking out for you"

"Yes, you were but you about it in a wrong way"

"I know baby I know, I am sorry okay" I smiled see that wasn't so bad (my inner voice scolded me)

"Come here, come to daddy"

I got up almost immediately I had missed him the few hours he wasn't talking to me, I stood in front of him and he put his hands around me pulling me closer.

"So, we are fine?" he asked sincerely

"Yes, I don't like it when we fight"

"I don't like it either"

"But promise me one thing" I pointed out to him

I'm listening"

"Don't go out drinking every time we fight, don't walk out on me"

"But I must assure you I wasn't in a club or anything like that, I went to Musa's place"

"Talking about that Simphiwe called me"

"The bubbly one" he smirked, I laughed.

"I want to stop calling her that anyway she asked me for lunch tomorrow"

"Today" oh yeah " So are you going?"

"Yeah, she said she has something to talk to me about, I didn't know I was that special to her"

"She likes you" I gave him a yeah right look "seriously people like you Min and you don't see it I don't know why"

"Uuuh no"

"Have you seen how people look at you emall especially males it's so annoying"

"Lol jealous baby" I said kissing him "let's go to bed"

When I woke up the sun was already up and Monde was already up working in his study, I went to wash my face, brush my teeth the norm then went to prepare breakfast for Monde. It bothered me that I acted like his wife already he wouldn't see the need to marry me when he has it delivered on a silver platter. I wondered when he was going back Durban because that is where he worked formally, he owned properties this side so he didn't need to be here always because his brother took care of that and he was only called for important matter but ever since I came to live this side he's been around frequently at least that's what the bubbly one told me.

I was standing in front of the mirror thinking of joining the gym but I was just so lazy, Monde was obviously against the idea according to him I had the meat in all the right places but no I was not feeling it. I was wearing a high waisted denim skirt with an off the shoulder top and sandals I mean we are going out for lunch not a wedding I don't need to dress all out. I was putting my makeup on when Monde got in.

"You know you don't need all of that. I love you just the way you are"

"And I appreciate you baby but a girl gotta do what a girl gotta do" I said smiling. He just shook his head and sat on the bed.

"So how do I look" I said standing up

"Isn't that skirt a bit too tight" I smirked

"Uuh no not really"

Oh, I'm joking my love you look good"

I took my handbag and call Simphiwe telling her I was done

"I am taking you where are you meeting" said Monde getting up from the bed and taking his keys.

"Mandela Square"

I found her already sitting down sipping cocktail Monde dropped me off and left.

"Giiirl" she said standing up to give me a hug she was all about giving me love.

So, dear what's happening?" I said after we had both placed our orders.

She took a long sigh I could tell this was stressing her out. Just then the big brother's wife got in they called her Manxumalo I didn't know her name.

"Asisatshelwa when it's girls day out" okay this is awkward.

"There is always a room for one, join us" I said trying to kill the awkwardness

"No, I don't want to intrude I will see you around" well I tried. She then left

"Oh, she is so dramatic, I don't know how Masande got involved with her" I laughed

"You are so mean, that is your sister"

"She is just a bully she thinks just because she is married she owns everyone" okay I choose not to involve myself in family politics.

"So how long have you been with Musa" I said trying to change the topic.

"Eight years" what? My pupils were all out literally

"Wow" that's all I could say. You know there is waiting and there is insanity, how can you be with someone for eight years and not get married. When you have met the one you just know but then again, we don't have the same intellectual capacity.

"I know and I can see he is changing"

"Changing how?"

He is not the same Musa that I fall in love with it's like the spark is not there anymore and he is hardly ever home nowadays even yesterday he did not come back home" wait, I thought they were together with Monde at her place but I decided to let that slide maybe it was just my paranoia playing tricks on my mind.

So, you think he is cheating maybe you are just reading too much into things hey"

"He suddenly has a password on his phone, he takes his calls outside and this one time I found lipstick stain on his collar"

"Wow and did you ask him about it?"

"He just denied everything and pinned this whole thing about how I don't trust him blah blah blah" No! when men do that they are guilty of what you are accusing them of.

"Maybe you are reading too much into this I mean you haven't caught him red-handed right?" I honestly didn't have anything to say.

My friend I really don't know what to do?" what does one say in such situation, I was saved by the waiter which brought me much time to think.

"I think you need to talk to him openly as they say communication is key hey"

We talked some more before paying the bill.

"I really don't know what I would do if Monde could cheat on me" I said as we headed outside, she looked at me like she was going to speak but decided against it. Monde was already waiting outside.