I had to put that last condition in there. It only took the time it took for Ash to look into my eyes, unwinding me from within for me to realise that I won’t be able to do it.
I’ll be able to play his girlfriend. I’ll kiss him, hold his hand and laugh at his jokes with ease.
It’s the switching off and treating this purely as a job for cash that I’m going to find impossible. How do you switch off that burning, instinctive tension? The heat that seizes every other thought. The one that makes thighs clench, n*****s harden and laughs erupt out of nowhere.
Professionalism is for professionals. I’m just a girl who fancies the hell out of a guy who keeps finding ways to give me money.
So I put in that extra rule.
We part. We will never see each other again. I pay off Matt, use the rest of
