Anthony and I haven't talked since last night... Having told him that I'm in Colombia, that I'm fine, that I'm with my family, has taken a weight off my shoulders. I know we got married a short time ago, but my feelings for him right now are clearer than ever, I love him... I miss being in his arms, I miss his body, his warmth... The beautiful words that are uniquely part of him and our little peculiar story.
I was afraid the moment I made the decision to come, from the moment I learned that Anthony once tried to take his own life, I confirmed one of my worst fears, his past has been sadder and more soliciting than I could have imagined, and that does not make things easy for me when I am in the position to choose. What happened with that Faten woman, made me distrust him, but the way he
