You can never forget that many of the things you experience were part of what you once asked for, of what you once dreamed of with vehemence, and that by twists of fate, for some it takes longer than for others to arrive. It is the thought that settles in my mind when I reason that I am in Paris, for the first time in my life. And that I should be enjoying it. I take a deep breath and soak in the harmony of the place, as an involuntary act I caress my belly, my baby clings to life, after so many encounters, threats, different emotions and a lot of anxiety and tension, he is still striving to be well? And I should do the same, for him. I watch Anthony arrive, his face looks contracted, for him the situation he is going through with his mother is not being easy... I know the guilt must be

