Love like a Calm Wind

Unveiled Truth

I love her so much...

IT DIDN'T hit me that my father is at his weak state right now.He seems sad and after seven years he showed this emotion.

"You are very like your mother.You easily judge those who seems bad.You don't need the whole story.You can come up with your own."

I admit it that I am taken aback by his sudden confession.He' nothing but troubled-looking man.Ngayon ko lang napansin na matanda na siyang tingnan.Kita na ang buto sa mukha at marami ng puting buhok.Ngayon ko lang napansin dahil kahit kailan hindi ako lumapit sa kaniya.

"Your mother believed that I am an addict.She reckoned I spend the money for my drugs.She loves money so much.And when I cannot afford to gave her enough,she look for another man."

My mother...I can't believe what I'm hearing.This is not my mother!

"She's not like that!"I argued.

"Yes,she is.But I accepted her.I married her.Even when I knew I was only her second option.They were bestfriends.And so as we...we three were bestfriends.But she never put my photo on that album.Only her and her first love.Pathetic.I was always there when she cried because of that man.I listened to her whims.When she's hurt ,I am hurting too.I love her secretly."

I cried when I realize what he's talking about.He's telling me their story.And I can't believe I trust my father for this.

"That man got married first.She was so broken.She ran to me.I console her.We became close.She lived in Manila for years.When she came back, nothing change,I still like her.She did the first move and I just love her completely to ignore her.I married her and have you.We were happy.I became a mayor.I made money.I provided a lot of effort to build this house because I don't want to disappoint her."

I realized how much he loved my mother.I feel like I never really know what my mother i How's she like.Her past.And everything.I just thought she's a loving mother to me.

"When I started to lack off she tormented me everyday.I never understand why she loves money so much.I provided enough for her and for you.Minsan sobra pa nga.That's when I learned she got another child.She—"

My eyes widened and my breath almost hitch.Napatayo ako bigla dahil sa sobrang gulat.Habang ang ama ay nakatingin lang sa akin at malungkot na nakangiti.

"W-what?Pl-lease don't l-lie to me!"I shakingly uttered.My heart thumped so loud.Nothing's more shocking than this.

"See,you mother hid so many secrets."He paused for a while and continued."She even brought the kid here.Inside my house.I made friends with them.Not knowing who they are."

Who?

NO!That's absurd!

"Nakahanap siya ng paraan para maalagaan ang dalawa niyang anak.When I confronted her,she cried and beg for me to let his son be live happily.And I did.I did her biddings.Her whims.She asked for a big amount and I failed to gave her that.We always fight."He sighed.

My mind got haywired.I couldn't think straight.It keeps replaying on that certain part.I have a brother.And the probability that it could be him make me want to cry.

"That night..."then he look at me.I listened eagerly."I ask her about that man.Alam kong isang taon na mula nang nagsimula siyang umutang ng pera.Nakipagkasundo siya.Rumors spread in the town.Everyone named her as the governor's mistress.It hurts till now that she did that to get divorced with me.She wanted to get away.She got a dark past you see.But I aaccepted her,nothing can change my love.That night I got so mad.I ask her not to.I promised her I would do anything.Just not leaving me.She was delirious.She's mentally unstable.She screamed when I tried to touch her.I beg her coutless times. I even shouted at her not to.But instead...she drove away with the money.She wanted to gave it back to that man.But he insisted not to.His wife found out.His wife announced that she's the mistress of his husband.She was defamed.She was devastated and things happened."

Now that I think of Arthur.Alam ba ng mga magulang niya na may relasyon kami?Siguro ay sa ngayon alam na nila.At alam kong hindi nila ako magugustuhan.Ngayong naisip ko iyon ay parang tuluyan akong nanghina.Paano na...kami?

"She hit the car on a big three intentionally"and with that he broke down.The old and the man I hate broke down.He is so weak at this point.

"She didn't even think of you when she did it.Or even me.Or even her son.She...didn't."tears keep flowing my eyes as I saw the most cruel man I know in tears.Devastated because of his wife's death.

Mom...why did you do that?

"I love her...so much..."

He keeps on crying and I did too.We are cryibg our hearts out.Someone out there...please hear our pain.Heal our wounds.Help us get through this.

I wanted to say sorry to my dad.I accused him.But it might not be the right time for it.I should give him time.All along I thought it was him.My young mind concluded right away.And start to hate him.

Maybe he's right I'm just like my mom.