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My head was leaning against the car window. Looking out the window I couldn't stop thinking everything was replaying back in my head. I couldn't shake it off, what am I supposed to do? Just shake it off and pretend that everything is ok? Am I just supposed to forget about everything that happened to me and be this brave girl? Who has so much fear in her. I could feel the anger building up inside of me. The self control was leaving me. I put up with too much s**t. I could feel the hate raising up in my heart. I won't let this b***h hurt me too. I thought to myself, she pretending to be nice just like everyone else then turn around and abuse later treating me like a piece s**t. But I won't let it happen again not this time around. I'll protect my heart at all cost. I start looking at the the tree as we passed by. Then we passed by a dirt road and more woods. My heart begun to pound as my body begun to shake. I was scared for my life. Oh God I thought to myself, this woman is going to kill me. After awhile I felt a hand touch my shoulder. You don't have to be afraid Janet said to me. Her soft voice pull me away from my train of thought.

I looked towards her as she smiled at me. Still her smile was angelic, but still I had to keep my guard up. I didn't know this lady like that or what she was capable of doing to me. I kept looking at her as the tears roll down my cheeks. I tried so hard to let my tear's show but it didn't work. Next thing I knew Janet had pulled over to a complete stop. I felt as my body begun to shake. I was even more than before. Lots of s**t was going through my head. If she stopped here kill me then burn my body with no trace of evidence. After more tears leaked from my eyes.

I could see Janet looking at me.

Just before I could say something. She grabbed my hand and smiled at me.

Everything will be ok, I'm here for now and I want you to know that Sonia. I'm your protector now. Don't fear anymore. I listened to her sweet voice as she talked me. Then I saw her getting out the car. What the hell was going on now? I thought to myself. We the middle of nowhere and she wants to get out this f*****g car. Janet open the door to the side I was sitting on. She pulled me gentle out the car as she held onto me and not letting me fall. Do you trust me?

I looked at Janet wondering if I did or not. I don't trust anybody I said to her. One thing for sure why you got me out in the middle of nowhere? Janet just smiled at me. "We not" I heard her said to me. Where are we? Janet looked at me again with those lovely eyes of her. This is my land I own it. No one can't come through here without my permission. Guards are everywhere around here. You Just don't see them. And no one can't get passed here without getting shot down first. Janet continue to talk as she walked slowly with me through the trail. It was beautiful everything about this was amazing. It seem so calming till I screamed. My heart beating fast in fear as I saw a lion ran pass. My body was shaking in fear. Calm down Sonia it's ok, that's my pet lion El Tigre she's still a kitten Sonia. This place is filled with different types of animals. So don't worry they won't hurt you. I looked at her as if she was crazy. Wild Animals shouldn't be lose like this. It's dangerous. Janet turn me around making face her. These isn't dangerous animals. They are endangered to human society and being killed every day. Something you must learn Sonia.

God didn't make these animals to kill people. I looked at Janet trying understand what she meant by that. So I just kept listening as she sat me next to her under a tree. People forced animals to kill people out of protection sweetheart. A long time ago animals was at peace with humans. They weren't afraid to be around the humans. I looked up as I saw that same lion walking up towards us. So I moved closer to Janet out of fear. The lion stop ready to defend it self. But I noticed Janet wasn't afraid at all she just kept telling me the story as the lion got closer.

If human didn't tear down these animals home or burned to the ground to build more s**t for themselves. These poor animals would be in their own environment running free just the way God made them to be. Have you ever felt an animal pain Sonia? I shook my head. I didn't know animals go through pains. The lion came closer and laid in Janet lap. I watched her as she pat this thing. It seems so calm around her. You know each of these animals go through pain and suffering the same way as human do. Have you ever walked footstep in an animal body to feel their pain to see what they see each and

every day. Protecting there babies and love ones. The same way as human does. I watched Janet she held the lion in her arms. This baby lion here doesn't have a mother or dad. She's too young to survive on her own now. I was shocked to hear this, I was wondering how Janet knew this. So I decided to ask her. How do you know so much about that beast you hold? Janet glares at me for a second. This isn't a beast she has a name. And I was there when her mom and dad was killed. It was so terrifying that I did everything I could to stop those humans. The lion was only protecting her baby. I was attacked also too. Did the Lions attacked you Ms. Jackson? I started at Sonia and shook my head. No they didn't attack me, it was the humans that attacked me after I try protecting the animals. The humans pull a gun out on me as the held the baby lion shielding it away from harm. They pulled trigger back ready to shoot me at any cost. The next I knew the mom lion jumped in front of the bulliet to protect me. The daddy lion grabbed me along with his baby as I landed his back. I held onto the daddy lion as I felt the tears flow from his eyes. He was in pain he didn't wanna leave

his mate that was laying there dead. But he had other choice but to. The hunters was tracing after us. The lion sped up faster throw the baby lion over the cliff. We landed on the other side of the cliff. There was nothing I could do to save this lion. Tear's flow down my cheeks as I held his baby in my arms. The lion fall off Cliff as the hunters shot him as he fall into the stream of the water. I saw that lion cried as he looked at me. The hunters was still shooting they wanted the baby lion. I ran with the baby lion Sonia as the bulliets was flying towards us. I managed to get away. I held the baby lion close to me showing her love. She knew I had her back. And I would sit here and talk to El Tigre and tell her how parents was a hero and they save our lives. Those animals fought like a warrior Sonia. They didn't die in vein. They died a hero. But that's story how this baby lion became in my care Sonia. Understand this Sonia. Animals is not our enemies kid people are the enemies to these animals with no care in they heart. This world is a very cold place to live in. My heart ached after Ms. Jackson told me this story. I never knew animals have this much problems in

their lives. I felt a tear of sorrow flow through my eyes. I felt speechless, I didn't know what to say or how to say it. At that moment I felt speechless, heart broken. No animal shouldn't die a horrible death. I looked back up to see Ms. Jackson running and playing with this baby lion. I never seen a human and animal get alone so well. I watched as they played around for hours. But still my heart wonders. What if this animal one day turn on her sending her straight to her dooms? I thought to myself. As I looked around I saw a deer running by then a horse. I also saw a tiger and a cheetah. This just was all too much to take in. From left to right I saw animals running by and having fun. They seem to be happy with Janet around. Each of these animals must've had a story to tell.

After I saw Janet feeding each animal here. They seem to respect her in so many ways. It was so amazing to me. A beautiful thing to see. I actually enjoy watching this. The way she Care and talked to each and everyone of the animals. I then saw Janet walking back towards me. She had a smile on her face again. Are you ready to go see our house now? All I could do was just nod my head.

Janet helped me up as she walked me back to the car slowly. After I was in the car Janet got back into the driver seat. Driving down the dirt road slowly. About another good 15 minutes rides I saw this huge house. With horses jumping the gates. It was amazing, I have never seen a horse so up close to together. It was beautiful as if I was in a fairy tale dream. If this was a dream I didn't wanna wake up. How do you like the place Sonia? You asking me how I like it? I said back to Ms. Jackson. Well let's just start off by saying I love it here already. I never seen nothing like this before. I could tell that Janet liked my reaction the way she smiled. She helped me out the car again. Taking me to the front door of the house. As soon as she was about to open the door. It flang open so fast. It scared me, Janet had already pull me close to her so I wouldn't get hit by the door. And there I saw him an ugly as man standing there just staring at me. He seemed like a mean guy but put on a nice attitude when new people comes around. I could see right through him. I looked back at Janet and saw that fake ass smile. Who was she kidding? I could see the pain and sadness deep down in

her soul. Her heart screaming out for help. But no words coming out her mouth. I held onto Ms. Jackson arms trying to keep my balance I felt legs getting weak and tired. With all the pain going through my body. Janet held me up tightly making sure I didn't fall. She walked passed her husband carrying me up the stairs. I looked back at him and noticed he was pissed off. He didn't say nothing at all he didn't even acknowledge that I was there. He just stood at the front door with his arms crossed.

I came up to Sonia new room I wanted her to be happy here. I wanted to give her the life she had always needed. I wanted her to be proud. She deserves the happiness. Well unlike me. But I don't complain about it. Because that's the way life goes sometimes. This will be your room for now Sonia. I watched her open the door. The look on her face brought tears to her eyes. She hugged me slowly telling me thank you so much. I know Sonia will love her new home. Well at least I hope does. I mean what more could a girl ask for? I thought to myself as I went back down to my husband almana.