From a Different Angle

Dear Sweet Boy

Nothing truly made sense anymore, this morning I woke up believing that I was gonna simply remain another pawn in a game of chess for Scarlet and Elizabeth but then I was met with the two kindest people I have met. A man named Lucifer who treated me as if I was his own son the moment he met me, and a man named Gabriel who treated me as if I was his little brother. I could not comprehend how or why they would go as far as to risk their lives for me when I did nothing to prove myself worthy of even the slightest amount of kindness from them. I was walking without any real purpose when we were pinned down by the guards and as they all spoke to each other. I was always told to remain quiet and not do anything while the adults talk, after we were thrown off into the abyss I believed that I could at least be used for cushioning so they could survive the fall. Without realizing it Gabriel had grabbed me and Lucifer was getting hurt as he tried to save us from dying, plunging what I believed was his own arm into the hill and saving us from certain death. Inside my own mind and heart I wept a thousand tears, no one would ever even look at me with a smile and yet they were here risking everything they had to keep me safe. It did not make sense for me, I could not put any pieces of the puzzle together without breaking down inside and thinking that I am being a burden to them. That's why when I had the chance I ran for the arm that was still stuck in the wall and brought it back, maybe wherever we were going they could fix it and I could pay back for the kindness that they showed me. That was my only hope, to be able to pay back for everything they have done for me.

Then I was hit with another opportunity, as we walked down the strange new place I smelled someone near us. He did not seem too nice, I could sense his intent to kill us but Lucifer and Gabriel did not see him until he began to attack us. I tried to throw myself at what he threw to protect them but Gabriel grabbed me and kept me safe from harm as Lucifer dealt with the attacker. Even with just one arm he was able to take him down with ease, the way he moved around and attacked made me feel this odd safety around him. As if even in the worst situations I could count on him despite knowing him for such short amount of time. Gabriel kept me close and safe, I felt so safe and just protected in those brief moment in battle. I did not even care who attacked us, I was more worried about the arm being damaged but luckily it went without any damage done to it. After some talking the guy became nice and he started leading us elsewhere, I decided to stick close to Lucifer because he would keep me safe I knew he would keep me safe. When we finally got to the place we were met with this tall and really scary guy who talked a lot to us as he showed us this big map with some flags on it. He said something that made Gabriel speak loud and clear with confidence as he looked at him. The man grew a smile and they talked more, deciding on doing something with all of us together.

Then I was finally taken to the place where I gave a guy Lucifer's arm, it lit up with a bunch of lights when he began to work on it and as they talked. I was intrigued by every little movement that it made, I was also very happy that I was able to help fix the arm somehow. As we were walking out the man spoke asking for my blade, I looked over to Lucifer for reassurance and he told me that it was okay. I gave the blade to the man without hesitation because Lucifer said that it was okay. After that we began to walk away from the house the man worked in then went into the other areas. I could smell the faint scent of some food being made nearby, I was never really allowed to eat any proper food but the smell always put me in a spell. I always imagined that whatever food I was eating would be the same one I could smell everyone else eating. It made it bearable when I was given bad food that I needed to eat to stay alive but the trick would only go so far before I began to gag and almost throw up. I did not know what to expect to be honest, just as easily as Lucifer saved me he could have had been able to throw me aside for his own benefit. Although my heart told me that I could trust him, inside my own mind I could not help but believe otherwise. Small fragments of my memories with Elizabeth came crashing down, the way I was thrown around and used for her entertainment. My feelings must have had slipped and showed as Lucifer turned and took notice, his face became filled with worry and fear as I jumped back a bit. I tried to speak but nails slowly burying themselves into my jaw could not allow it. My eyes became teary as I covered my face, awaiting to be struck for not being the way I was expected to be. I was instead met with a kind and soft touch to my cheek, followed by the same sweet voice I began to feel comfort towards

"Hey kid, its okay. You did nothing wrong I promise, come on I gotta get you something to eat. We both have to eat something"

He said as I looked up at him with a sniff, my mind slowly erasing all the bad memories inside and letting myself realize that everything would be okay. I nodded a yes towards him, slowly standing back up as I got close once more and hid behind him. I felt this new feeling in my chest, I thought I was getting sick but it felt good and nice. I kept following him as the smell of food became a lot stronger until my mouth was watering a from it. We went inside another building as some people sat around some tables eating happily even though a lot of them looked wounded. Like they were really close and cared for each other a lot.

"Sit here kid I'll go get us some food okay?"

He said to me, gently petting my head before leaving to the front where he grabbed a tray and began to fill it with all sorts of delicious food. I could not name what was on the tray itself, I was not around real food enough to know names or tastes at that. I just stared in awe as my mouth began to water as I attempted to keep myself from drooling as he came back around and set the tray down in front of me along with a pretty blue plastic cup with a straw.

"There isn't too much but I got what looked the easiest for you to eat along with some water, the straw should make drinking the water a lot easier."

Maybe staring at the food with such intent made him realize that I was not a picky eater at all, and that the food he brought me was the most finest of meals I ever had. He gave me a simple gentle smile as he looked at me

"You sure you can eat well with that on your mouth, Grim?"

I slowly nodded a yes as I went to grab what I believed was a piece of meat but was quickly stopped as Lucifer pointed to the utensils that came along with the tray

"You aren't an animal Grim, I refuse to treat you however that woman seemed to treat you. Here, I know this isn't what you are use to so let me show you how to use these properly"

He sat down next to me and began to guide my hands to show me how to eat with a spoon, as the spoon began to be lifted and raised to my mouth I opened it just enough for the food to go through but had to remain in a still manner otherwise I would end up with blood all around me. I took the food in and began to chew carefully as the flavors exploded in my mouth, I could not help but experience an entire new pallette of tastes with every single bite. I took my time to chew every single piece of food then swallow with a smile as I went to get more, Lucifer kept helping me for the first few times then he stopped as I began to do it all on my own. As I took a sip of nice cold water through the thin straw I noticed that Lucifer did not have any food at all, he must have forgotten to get himself a tray. I began to feel guilt crawl beneath my skin as I noticed it, I gently slid my tray towards him and with my hands made a gesture for him to eat.

"No Grim, I promise I am alright. I am not that Hungry really, you go ahead and eat it all."

He responded back to me but I was stubborn and made a small noise to insist on it, it must have been the very first time I had done any rebellious act against someone above me because as soon as I realized the way I acted I became worried of punishment but was instead met with a small chuckle as he grabbed a small piece of food that was there then began to eat it with a smile.

"Happy? Now go on. Eat the rest"

I nodded a bit fast then went back to finishing what was left on the tray, with pure Joy filling my mind and mouth I finished what was left in there rapidly then looked over at Lucifer for a moment as he seemed lost in thought looking elsewhere. I wanted to thank him for everything he did for me, from the very moment he met me he has done nothing but help me and attempt to understand me and I knew that and could not say anything back to properly thank him for everything. My entire mind drowned in the idea to at least say thank you to him now but my body stopped me as I realized how quickly it would go wrong thanks to the muzzle I wear. I felt this deep sense of guilt that I could not handle for a moment ending up in a small stream of tears leaving my eyes and onto the table. Lucifer quickly took notice and approached me, out of reflex I flinched awaiting to be hit like always only to be met with a kind and gentle touch that wiped away my tears.

"There there, Grim. It's okay I promise. I won't allow anything bad to happen to you, not if I am around. Everything will be okay alright?"

He said in this hushed tone that made all my fears and worries leave my mind, I scooted closer to him leaning my head agaisnt his chest to find further comfort as I let out a sniff followed by a small yawn. Lucifer began to run his hands through my hair as I felt my eyes close and my mind finally quiet down for the first time in my life.