The Fate of the Unknown

Chapter 58: oh Sam

The way he is looking at me is making me squirm. I quickly jump up and go around him and his little fans.

“Wait.” He shouts as I was headed to the door.

“No. I can see you are more than busy, I’ll see you around Sam.” I say feeling more hurt than I should and head out the door. I can hear him and Caitlyn yelling after me, but I just don’t care. I turn up my music and just run straight home.

Once I get home I head straight to the shower and cry. Who was that? That could NOT have been Sam. That man had lust filled eyes and had a flock of girls swarming him. Sam hated attention like that. He also was like me and wanted to wait for the right person. It was one of the first things that connected us when we got older. Once I was done showering I wrapped myself with a towel and went and laid in my bed.

I knew some things would have changed with us gone, but seeing Sam so completely different.. I wasn’t expecting that. This makes me beyond anxious to see our other friends… I don’t think I can take much more change.

“You’ve changed too you know. You aren’t this shy and timid little girl. You are strong and fierce. You aren’t as held back as you were before. You run your mouth and protect yourself. Everyone changes. Especially as you grow older. I know you had a crush on him so you probably expected him to just pine over you while you were gone. You knew deep down, that wasn’t going to happen.” Nala states, trying to make me feel better. She is right though.

“Ugh! I know. I just was shocked. He went from a guy who was holding out for the right girl, to probably sleeping with the whole town. I doubt he’ll even care I’m here. I just threw him off while we were there. That’s it.” I state shrugging and sitting up.

“I’m not so sure about that.” She replies with her all knowing tone. I wish she’d stop keeping stuff from me.

SAM’S POV::

Over the last few months I’ve been trying everything I can to forget about her. I try to not even think or say her name. The first month was the hardest. After that I just started letting the girls who always wanted my attention, get it. I’ve slept with 10 girls in the last 2 months. I thought at least one of them would get me past my little crush on Ale.. her, but it never did. I started working out more to keep my mind distracted. Nope.

Every single time I feel like I’m starting to forget her, I see something that reminds me of her, or I smell lavender or strawberries and instantly she’s back in my mind.

I’ve gone and sat on her porch bench just to feel close to her. It has began to feel like she never existed. I’ve seen her friends, but none of them really click with me. Saige is always mean to me. Penny is nice but so shy. And Leilah.. well Leilah honestly just scares me. So I have no one to talk to about her. No one else here was close with her. A few guys went on a date or two with her, but that was it. Which I was always glad it wasn’t more. I’ve liked her ever since we were little kids. I just was always too nervous to say or show her how I felt.

Eventually I was able to convince Penny to let me help her take care of their house. She agreed but only that I could help her clean it. I was more than happy. She would take care of the plants, and I would clean. One time she let me have the key. I cleaned, dusting the rooms, mopping, cleaning the windows. I couldn’t help myself and I climbed into her bed. Wrapping myself in her comfortable that still had a hint of her scent left. I ended up taking a couple hour nap. Woke up confused at first. Then made her bed, and left.. Her scent was just so comforting to me. A few times recently I ended up doing a deep clean of one room at a time. 3 different days, one room each time. I didn’t want to disturb too much in their bedrooms. But figured the kitchen, living room, and bathroom could use it. I wanted it to look and smell great for whenever they could come home. Which I kept hoping it would be soon, but it never was.

That is when I started to push myself more in my studies and working out. I wanted to strengthen my body and my brain.

My studies would help me keep my mind distracted enough to not think of her. I started taking a few advanced classes this semester after they were suggested to me by both my teachers and the guidance counselor. I wasn’t sure about it, but figured extra work would help distract me. But all it made me want to do was tell her so I could hear her say how amazing it was and how proud of me she was of me. With her sweet smile and her eyes full of pride. But I couldn’t tell her. I tried texting and calling off and on the first month. But after 2 weeks the number was disconnected. Why wouldn’t she give me her new number? Maybe she didn’t feel the same about me as I did for her?

Fuck.

How could I get so hung up on one girl?

I have tried to f**k my way through girls to forget her, but none of them compared.

Today I woke up early feeling weird, something was off today. I’m not sure what. But I decided to go work out and work off this odd feeling. I had hoped none of the annoying girls would be following me since it was so early, I’m not in the mood for them today. I got to the gym and was disappointed. At least 5-6 girls instantly swarmed me. Ugh. I’m just not in the mood for them today. I just tried my best to ignore them.

After an hour I started to notice a shift in the energy in the room. At this point I just started using the free weight. I tried to look around the girls by me, barely got a glimpse of 3 people by a machine on the other side of the room. Looked like 2 girls and a guy. I shrugged and went back to working out. I adjusted the weight two times just to try to get a glimpse at the girls. The guy I definitely have never seen before, but something about the two girls seemed familiar. But they are still on the other side of the room. A little while later I start to notice a very distinct smell. I stop my set and just lay there. No. This can’t be. Do I smell lavender and strawberry??? It isn’t possible. It can’t be. I sit up to look, and make direct eye contact with her.

Alexis!

She looks like Alexis but she looks so much stronger, fierce, and beautiful. She has a confident aura that is surrounding her. I am now fully engulfed with her. She looks away and I quickly make my way to her. Caitlyn tries to stand in the way, but I just go right around her. I stand directly in front of her and watch her finish her set. She looks beyond sexy in her tiny black shorts and black sports bra. She never used to show this much skin.. Watching her use her newly formed strength and seeing how beautiful she looks, I instantly can feel myself grow hard. I don’t even try to hide it. She makes direct eye contact and I can feel her gaze melting me. But then she stands up directly in front of me, almost touching me, and runs off.

“Wait!” I yell, desperate to be near her and talk to her, but she was not having it.

“No. I can see you are more than busy, I’ll see you around Sam.” The way she said my name was like a dagger to my heart. I notice Caitlyn and the guy they were with run out after her. That’s when I noticed the girls all touching me and clearly noticing I was hard. That is what she meant. I was too busy with all of these girls, that I couldn’t make time for her. But she is wrong. These girls mean absolutely nothing to me. They were all just a stupid outlet to try to get over her.

I need to talk to her. I also need to get these girls away from me. She’ll never listen or talk to me while they are here.