– J O S H U A –
It's the start of winter break, two weeks since Casey and I kissed. We've been kissing a lot and my panic attacks aren't as regular as before and I'm honestly really happy.
Genuinely happy.
I told myself that this may be the start of my new life but there's still one thing that's burning at the back of my mind.
The fact that I still feel like I'm betraying Lis for liking Casey.
I never really promised her anything, but even the fact that I'm friends with Casey makes me feel guilty. Lis has been my best friend for as long as I can remember. Even when she's talking to other people hurts me, thinking that she might leave me for them.
And it scares me that I don't know how she feels about me being friends with Casey.
"Hey, I'll hang around by your house later at night af
