Love Kush - Beginnin'

EARLY LIFE

Early life in my birthplace Kanker was really simple and easy as my father had a stable business, I was young, wild and free of responsibilities, It was a really small town where from my infant age all I did was explore businesses of my families and the small little town rich with natural beauty. Almost everybody in the city knew me well as I won first prize in a state wise fancy dress competition where I was dressed up as Lord Krishna and the most intriguing thing I did was eat cream from a big pot and that was all I was attentive to, Also as I was born a restless stroller and I was 10 kgs in weight in my age 1, My mother always needed someone to take me strolling in the neighborhood but due to my weight nobody could hold me long enough so I was always switching arms, Those things made me a famous kid but the more fame that I got, also brought so much envy towards me and my family; Envious eyes bring evil hexes along too. Thus I often had fever but my mother knew ways to break such curses. 

        Growing ahead of my infant age I was still a restless stroller so when I was put in a school, I couldn't be bound to the strict regulations of school where I had to sit and spend hours in consistency so I finally figured out a way to escape in the middle of my school sessions and I ran to my cousin's place and played games instead. It ain't that I wasn't interested in what the pre-primary school had to teach me but I already had learnt what they had to teach in my kindergarten times and I also couldn't bear my aching ankles while sitting on a mat in the ground thus I always figured out a way to skip attending classes in "Saraswati shishu mandir"; At  one point in time my father put up one of his staff on duty for supervising whether the infant Ankit is attending his class or crying to blackmail his teachers into relieving him from classes. Then when I was allowed to leave the boy in duty would bring me home straight instead of letting me go out of his sight.

                    As for me I'm such an escapist since my childhood that I never liked people knowing my whereabouts ever. I like to feel free as for wherever I want to be, I don't always want to be reachable to people cause I've known & loved my freedom of choice since I was very little no matter if it cost my parents being worried sick about my whereabouts, as I grew up to ride a bicycle nobody knew what I would be capable of then, As Kanker was a very little town and was surrounded by all that nature mainly consists I became a consistent explorer along with my classmates, I'd ride off to nearing villages, fields, farms, forests, gardens and whatnot. Being such an explorer I learnt many things when I was little such as climbing trees, catching chickens in farms, escaping snakes, stealing fruits, climbing walls, running from a chasing guard and making excuses to skip punishments. Now that I've grown up to be the better explorer I learnt to love each and every experience I've ever had to embrace them and live life in the present that I have no regrets about any exposure that wasn't pleasant. I believe what pleases you and what doesn't is merely a process of thought that can be moulded in any way, and I always choose it to be pleasant.

       When I grew up to be merely 9 year old, I had possibly everything that appeals a kid to stay home, Toys, PSP, I-pod, Television, DVD player, Nintendo, Lots of music CDs of pop artists such as Michael Jackson, Akon & a whole DVD store to choose my CDs from; It was probably enough to keep anyone Home. But I'd still run off to somewhere as soon as I got the chance for my love of natural beauty that surrounded my little town, My parents tried each and every trick in their playbook to keep me from being a stubborn stroller but I always found me loopholes. And then when I finally turned ten my parents bought me a Nokia mobile phone all for myself. I was to stick to that phone as any other average kid ties a belt in its waist to keep his jeans from going down. It was stressing to be responsible for that phone as it was like a tracking tool for my parents to know my whereabouts, Couldn't ditch the phone as it made me the coolest kid of all, had games and music in it for entertainment and many kids older than me used to seek it. Yet again it couldn't shake my freedom of choice as I couldn't go too far but there was a hill nearing my friend's house so I learnt to make an excuse about spending time in his house doing my Home work and as soon as we were done with the homework we used to spend rest of our evening on top of the hill feeding bananas to the monkeys.

            Since my early days in that little town I was a cheery, curious kid and my presence was cherished everywhere. There are so many questions still left unasked and unanswered since my very childhood till now; But I'd ask a fresh one right away which regards the phrase "We should learn from our past experiences" I think why do we only have to learn from it, Why don't we also learn from each and every little occurrence, why do we only have to learn from it when we can even cherish each and every past memory and learn to be wiser from it as each little memory was either a good memory or bad either way it was a blessing & a lesson too. We shouldn't just try to embrace all memories but also learn to enhance our lives keeping past hurtful happenings from happening.

       As I was growing more in the town which was considered a hub of dark magic, Naxal shadow, intoxicating teenagers & Gambling elders; my family finally pursued their impulsive plan of Migrating to capital city for the sake of me and my little sister's bright future. But that had it's downsides with a very few benefits, like a struggle for financial stability was begun at the very first day of migration, tried so many different businesses along with the previous that we used to do in our old town. No business that my father chose turned out to be successive enough to entirely rely upon it so I used to have my share of progressive ideas for the new era of business, such as writing or forming an organisation that does multiple businesses by the company of different minds.

        After migration while I was moving towards end of year 2015, making way to A New year had me take a decision to keep living at  my cousin’s place as I was disinherited again by father for disagreeing to him; We didn't really had a great relationship as he had his ideals and mine differed. Meanwhile that was the longest span I had spent wandering & wondering if I’d pursued writing my memoir as my journey's being thrilling since forever & also my dreams of building a huge company that people would invest into. While I lived my best life at southern dunes of Chhattisgarh, Bastar amongst wild forests, where all  fertility flows & falls in Chitrakoot waterfalls on The Indravati River, which  is a stream of the river Godavari. Its starts from the Ghats of Kalahandi, Odisha where amalgamation of three streams form The mighty river GODAVARI. Due to threesome of streams, the river flows sideways, opposing the ocean & then, it enters Jagdalpur in the state of Chhattisgarh. The river moves from southern route, before eventually uniting with the Godavari at the borders of three states. They are the states of Chhattisgarh, Maharashtra and Telangana.

        Declaration of what I'd do with my life was done around those hills, those rivers and that wild greenery made me want to explore the deepest cores of it. that was when I told myself  I’ll write, it had me push my potentials of impulse & void towards a light where people can see what all I mean. On the 31st night of 2015 my throat and body went totally fertile with lots of  beer & bubbles of THC were to be blown before the new year began. I finally understood that I not only aim to attain exploration of every mysticity of nature but also my unexplored potentials in order to do whatever it takes to merge myself entirely to the beautiful mother nature.

            I'm not even sure if I were really thinking about what I would do for a living when I was settled at my mom's kin. My aunt is a complete sweetheart, my personal Psychiatrist, my other mother & the lady I’d want my fiance around just so she learns all tricks to have me under her authority. Her mere life taught me to be dynamic, with a thought of grinding for my family's lives and desires; She motivated me a lot, without even she saying a word. I saw her smiling at me while they were in the situation of ebb and flow. I had to grow up, I touched the milestone of adulthood, when everyone else begun to work their ass off I was up to just Love & Mary Jane, But the realization was real.