Love Kush - Beginnin'

Trouble Taught

Troubles over my head got me figure out a way to not depend on anybody anyway. Always be the best of yourself, be sure of yourself and find answers to questions such as "What can you do with the life you have?" Be so curious enthusiastic towards the questions of life that they may never be left unanswered, Learn to have that curiosity and you'll surely get to learn many things.

Suppose, if you ever be jobless and your father ran you out his house so you’re also homeless at just the age of 17, running here and there homeless like the wax runs down through the candle; because I also had to find a way to not get back home again. Running away from the same stressing days when I had to live, work with my father & his ego which burnt me in anger from the insides. Rather than expressing to anyone else about what I’ve been dealing with, I used to compress it all inside me. Due to my silence it was never even considered to be the mental torture that it was.

According to anybody else, maybe I’m just an invalid guy, Maybe all the discord was just something to not speak about, Perhaps all that mental pressure that got me Migraine & mental illness, Or it was all just a catalyst in the form of pressure to finally make me do something on my own & quit on my father entirely. Mostly, nobody else was there to take a stand for me, instead I saw people faking at being there for me while stressing me more; they let me take a stand and do something that benefits both of us, but the fake support would demotivate you and kill your faith over them for all time.

I've been brought up to a place where a high school graduated kid can't get a professional job, Even if he’s more than eligible. Recruitment without the qualification had me dealing with people giving me false hope of getting me a job, and as I relied on recruitment agencies, they get to have the money That I Borrowed as a loan from my own mother to pay as my registration fee for the hiring where I got nothing but a pamphlet of walk inn interview for direct recruitment which was bogus. Ain't nobody left a chance to fool me with the false hopes, it was a lesson to not fall for what people have been trying to sell as it could all be a lie.

                             Giving false hopes and fooling people all around has been made a business already, well they realized they can fool people so easily so that they can even shape their canny greed in a money making way, It only happens when people all around would lack information of ways to make money.

                                           Instead of giving me good vibes regarding my search for a job when I was merely 18 & writing this, people made fun of me taunting & questioning if I’m still useless. I used to be like Come on man, I'm just 18. (Well that was just an excuse) okay I'd find a job. But am I allowed to keep a wish regarding what I wanna do. Everybody deserves to be doing what they’re sincerely concentrated at. Being sincere to any sort of work is a privilege that I had, but it was unfair to cage a progressive brain that I had behind the bars of slavery that my father built for me.

              But I can't even see no shooting stars neither falling eyelashes to make a wish of financial freedom with. All I could do was to revolt against my family and run to do better. With whatsoever I'm getting to do to escape and earn for my living, and I'm even ready to deal with any sort of torturing work, but know that in my father’s business I heard things like; "That work is too cheap for you to do!", “You can do better” sort of statements. It got me wondering about "What'd be the standard of a jobless willing to do that?"

I understood that what people thought shouldn’t really matter; all I wanted to do is to bring my mind to complete ease, where I could really make way to express gratitude towards my life; that I got to deal with things which were all expressive and while learning & tutoring new people, I learned to not stress myself with any sorts of ups and downs, they come and go as you breathe inn, you live more and when you breathe out; worries should disperse as it’s all ups and downs, even in human pulse when stability comes in life it kicks upwards & downwards simultaneously or it’s just a flat line without it, like you’re no longer alive.

It shouldn’t be said like that cause criticism’s worth more than complements but people who didn't even had a personal identity besides their family, such a-holes that never knew how to wash their ass off properly, that never learned to earn enough for his own spends each day; were trying to pity me & act sympathetic around me. It got way too stressing than you thought it could be. Something even more weirder was what happens with a very few people, I was opinionated for everyone; worst was to deal with an elder, who's never actually known the situation & wasn’t man enough to understand my situation and feelings, A Man that’s just pretentious to be an elderly & never actually faced enough to deal with the stressing & miserable scenarios that life shits in your way in a smart, convenient and reliable way, but is always choosing the stressful and worrying path of completion as an only option. Missing out to pick what's not right, every time. No opinions were accepted by the elder; but he does deserve to sit back as an owner of the business who he’s not capable to run & ain't even willing to look up and see what's really happening around him.

                      I'd rather be home than being a useless boss who lacks compassion, in business we may never surround ourselves with what makes us feel depended. Place yourself where your brain can grow, surround yourself with colleagues who have gratitude for their life. Gratitude is the key to real brainstorming cause when you have gratitude you think of a better future & not regret the bad past. It's an acknowledged fact that your happy brain produces more happy and useful thoughts that make you feel better. Instead of simply regretting about your bad life, why don't you start to have gratitude for you being just alive; Instead of crying for something you don't have, have gratitude that you can still have something better than that, never lose hope; it's all about that strength in your hope that would let your destiny bow down ahead of you.

It's a ‘peccadillo’ to be in negative thoughts or bad mood. A sin is a sin and there's no harm to pretend there's always a deity looking through every sin you do, it will only make you better for life. Unfortunately none of your sin's left unseen, Even if that sin is to maintain calamity in the linked lives, to eradicate negative feelings or betterment in relationships or brotherhood.

                              There are many sins associated with negativity and is unforgiving to the sins of another. Instead be involved in angelic practices such as forgiving every time. To make things better and making someone's life a bit better, talk to people who don't have gratitude for anything in their life share your problems when it's your move, But with a smile on your face that shows an inspiration in you & shows that you're not giving up, Then your smile might just be the reason why someone else is smiling or holding on. They see the inspiration in you that might bring the change in people's lives.

                  That smile is the first move to play along with your life and fate, There's always something pleasurable to win through the feelings. Power of giving love through forgiving and letting realize how good does it feels in forgiving and sacrificing for sake of a relationship and to maintain love and peace.

                             Make people realize that regretting is the way we accept our forfeit against fate but when we smile, it's a way to have gratitude to realize it's a game & we got to play it, and appreciation for your better attempt to win against fate every time. Better be in a game against your fate where it brings you nothing but just disguise and what you have to do is to kill that vibe and get better with a happier belief. You'll be better every time it comes back. You being victorious might make it never come back, but you still have to be stronger. Keep preparing for your victory and be vigorous for everything that comes to challenge your gratitude, fall down but get up and smile that you're still living more while breathing every next breathe.

With every time you're happy to deal with the weirdest or worst s**t that comes along your path of life, You're victorious and you're stronger and a stronger brain might spy on your feelings like there's something going wrong about it, It'd better be braced and find a way to fix it. It grows better Ideas for fixing things. And if you regret it once make sure there's no way crying again for the same reason, Reminiscing about you survived so nice that you're in a better place today. Learn to love yourself more than anything else.

Six Useful Formulas

1•When you are Alone, Mind your Thoughts.

2•When you are with Friends, Mind your Tongue.

3•When you are Angry, Mind your Temper.

4•When you are with a Group, Mind your Behavior.

5•When you are in Trouble, Mind your Emotions.

6•When God starts blessing you, Mind your Ego.

**Your Ego is The Flame that Burns You Slowly**

Ego is another name to stubbornness,   unforgiving and negativity. If only you have a wish to be better, to be more knowledgeable, to be smarter to deal with any sort of sticky wicket that comes in your life. Yes, just like cricket. Hit the balls of blunder to the boundaries of conclusions and thunder to the sticky wicket’s ass. An over in cricket has 6 balls or you can say opportunities to prove yourself stronger over the baller, Baller in the game would always be wishing to allow joy to batsman trying to play against his balls with an only selfish intention to not to let opposing batsman to hit boundaries or score that make him victorious. But the batsman had to play for victory while hoping that six negative feelings might get hit with the bat accepting the positive feelings that might oppose the ball like you have negative feelings to oppose.

                     Be 'interested' towards the game and don't 'panic'. Have 'hopes' that you'll play good without any 'fear', have 'gratitude' to accept the 'joy', and have 'patience' to let go the 'grief. , have 'pride' remembering who you are without any 'audacity', have 'benefaction' to your victory over another's loss, give 'love' and 'sympathy' not 'hatred' and 'cruelty'.