Love Kush - Beginnin'

Born Again

Usually, Parents part their kid and send them to bigger cities for better education but have you ever thought of parents migrating along to big city to let you study better with the comfort of a house. Yeah, just like that; that's what happened with my family. My father brought us all to Raipur city with family of four, and left behind our legacy, the previous precipitated business, recognition, goodwill & owned property to get barren, which was leading us to liabilities.

Undoubtedly, He got me literate enough to write this & also to enumerate the amount of impotent businesses we were stuck into, but what could I even add to that, besides writing it off. The day I got to Raipur & accustomed to surroundings was the day I was literally 'Born Again'. It’ll be hard to believe how casually the things have been taken through for my previous studies in my childhood as I was a straight A student back in my city but as I relocated I fell off the ranks rolling down as from a spiral staircase straight to a failure. I wasn't aware of the major differences in the standard of studies in the big city, while in my past I used to study in a class of 10 students where I was also the class monitor, I was the one who led the pack of those 10 little kids, I used to score in merits till I got here, I've been one that’s studying in a fortunate atmosphere where my class teacher's also my home tutor and gets me well practiced to all the important stuff that's going to be on the examinations. Well that was cheating, I knew that later in Raipur where I started to fail.

The very first FA’s of my life in a CBSE school that I had in Raipur taught me, I ain't supposed to be in the merits, Cause I've grown in an unorganized & casual way, I've been a dumb kid acing  and being a backbencher is a way rewarding tactic to life, better than that, My first FA's got me Resulting in a way that was really shameful even for me, I got ashamed in front of my very first crush in my new school, I got sad and depressed after my marks got announced in front of 60 students in the Class, that I barely even knew, And while I scored just '2 out of 25' in my mathematics assessment, while I thought I've done just fine in that test, But almighty said not to worry my friend, Score she had wasn't better anyway, Everybody scored poorly. I looked at her with pity & a sad face when my marks were dictated and I smiled at her when her poor marks were told and guess what; she smiled back, I was like hell yeah, I am your companion in failing duh. I felt happy and I realized that the math teacher’s got a dominating way to get students a better quality of studies in the class as almost everyone scored poorly.

It was getting hard for me to study in the very new atmosphere and I was even shy to clear my doubts and a very common yet a really new thing for me was communicating in English at all times as it was a mandate of my new school. It was difficult for me in the beginning, I barely had conversations with anyone, but then I made friends & talked to them in my suited tongue; Hindi. That's what made me a chatterbox later. By the time teachers knew me as the noisiest and the naughtiest guy like I was the goddamn Shinchan, The alpha in naught of the school in a way I always used and liked to talk to senior girls and they be talking to me like I'm their only cute and attractive kid in the whole school, that had gotten me distinguished from all other students. Then I began to grow just fine, seniors kept me around and taught me mathematics & what not, my historic habit of surrounding myself with smarter and elder people always had me to grow better

                  But isn't this fact letting you wander that the boy who's already been growing fine with maturity and owns knowledge that's essential, will only be used in the town you attained it in. It's just a frequent distinguishing between a Village, a Town, a City, And a Metro. Bigger the Economy, bigger and intelligent retrieval makes you eligible to survive in the city. It's never been a trouble for a kid like me to adjust myself with conditions I'm thrown in, I'll be happy to deal with everything that'd grow me and make me smarter.

My crush was a 4chan user (4chan is an English-language image board website. Where users generally post anonymously) and she read a quote from it and said to me "You're a kind of a boy that would be thrown to the pack of wolves and you'll get back leading the pack" She ambled how easily I made the most badass people of my class of 60 turned out to be my first mates in the school. Little kids always do have holy features & eyes on them, which helps them to attain to any mold of conditions just like water, transparent & adaptable.

                      The trouble rises when the same situation rises for a man who spent his whole curious days of his life being in a village while struggling for studies till midday, and then pushing limits of grind in a business for the rest of the day. Then that village turned to a town later in the year 2000 when finally Chhattisgarh was separated from Madhya Pradesh for sake of economy in both the states. Kanker is still an ingrown economy where people are envious to other people's success; my father had dealt with various sort of s**t elsewhere & then in business. And when finally brought up to a city he still is stuck into the same rat race stage or dribble burning the investments. Just like my father, even I was involved in the business since my childhood and dealing with a man that never even tries hard enough to understand the aid that anybody tried to give him, in the business he owned; He'd just do what he feels right and always made the wrong choice.

                                         Sometimes I felt so clasped and uncomfortable to be involved in something where you're smart enough to make better decisions but they don't let you cause your age makes you eligible to just play, Is this a f*****g 'Age 40+ Football championship' or a business. These situations made me so angry that I lost control over what I said sometimes, I thought of letting him realize with saying that "It ain't Kanker, You're shifted to The Capital of Chhattisgarh" then I thought it ain't my age to warp or teach a man elder than me, I could just advice. But when all the advices and requests to a better way of dealing with business by me left unheard, it made me revolt and find another way. It made me feel hurt that I stood against my father and left him alone because he wouldn't have understood that how it feels to start living upwards in a better life and then being dragged downwards to a life that's sicker. I couldn't wait for my dad to get it all collapsed with his stubbornness of being the smartest.

                     Stubbornness is the biggest symptom of being hexed for all life, like if someone ever trying to explain there's a difference in your way of thinking and that won't work here, I have an aid for our business that would let it grow better and it would lessen your worries as well. But the man would still be a wayward and won't even want to hear the advice once, and say you're too small to teach me what's better. It's obviously not the way, that's what made me to part our ways. Who would want to stay in a place where all they do is make you feel useless, rather stand strong, do better and prove them wrong.