That's not who I am!

Chapter 14

JANE'S POV

"I'm so proud of you today" Aaron says and I look up to meet his eyes confused. "I didn't do anything to be proud of" I say

"I'm going to tell you what I told my dear Cara all them years ago. What you did today is you asked for help that's the hardest thing you couod of done. The easiest thing you could of done was hide it from everyone and then act on it. Instead you went into fight mode over flight mode. Your fighting for yourself and that's why I'm so proud of you. Me and Cara could see it coming. Your still in it I can see it in your eyes. But I'm proud. Your be proud of this one day not right now. Right now I know your mad at yourself and that's okay" Aaron says

"I know I'm not from the Mafia life, I know I don't fit into it. I don't ask questions but I need to know something" I say

"You want to know if we have the men who did this to you. The answer is yes" Aaron says "How did you know?" I ask.

"Because Cara asked me the same question before. I lied to Cara and that didn't end to good. But your like Cara. I know you won't want details. But you want to feel a little safer as well. The police didn't catch them and you need to know at least the ones brave enough to come after you are not roaming free to do it again. There not. Your safe from them" Aaron says.

"I can live with that answer. Your right I don't want to know the details I do hope you gave them a pounding headache though" I say and that I really do mean because this headache is a killer.

Aaron smiles and says "oh that can be arranged for everyday you have this headache if you want" So I know there still alive.

"I'm not a violent person and I don't condone such actions. Bit they did try to kill me and it only seems fair. I'm not telling you to have it arranged and I don't want to know if that will happen but that makes me feel a little better knowing it could happen" I say

"Okay, then I won't tell that it will likely happen then" Aaron says smiling

"You just did" I say "Oh well if thats how you want to take it I can live with that knowing it makes you feel a little better. Anyway, they definitely deserve it they hurt you. You know since that night I found you crying because you missed your parents we became close. I miss my poker buddie Jane. Your definitely the daughter I always wanted and you know it. So keep fighting for me. Keep asking for help in the bad days I won't judge you okay" Aaron says.

"It's still a bad day, every day is a bad day right now. I just couldn't fake it anymore. I really don't feel like I can fake anything right now" I say

"I know it sucks right now. But on a serious note I need you to start pulling it together not only do I need my poker buddie back to lose a round so I can have you do my Christmas shopping for me. I need my Christmas shopping buddie as well" Aaron says "Oh, I should of guessed you had a motive... looks like we're online shopping this year though unless you can get me a new look" I say

"Now that we can do" Aaron says then he gives me a hug before she says I know your all outside I can smell the pizza"

"You better of gotten me the chicken one" I say "Of course chicken, sweetcorn, peppers and extra cheese just how you like it" Aaron says and I smile as I say "Thankyou"

"Anytime" Aaron says standing up to go get the door.

"What did you do buy to feed a army?" I ask seeing half a dozen boxes. "I didn't know what Dr Vanguard and Lizzie like" Aaron says shrugging.

"Talking of which after food I'm doing your observation" Lizzie says "And I need to talk to you about the mental health team coming on board. But first how's the headache? I've altered the medications again in hope that helps" Dr Vanguard says

"Still there but I think it's more stress headache I hope anyway" I say

"Would make sense but I don't want to take any chances. Will sort a few scans on the down low at the hospital before I go" Dr Vanguard says as everyone piles in.

"Hey sorry to intrude but Aaron insisted I come for dinner. How you holding up?" Chase asks being the last to come in.

Luke clips him around the head as he says "What did we say! just say hi!"

"It's alright. I'm breathing and alive Chase gow have you been?" I say.

"Busy but good thanks" Chase says taking a seat on the floor next to Luke.

LIAM'S POV

The next few days flew past really quickly. Jane needed some scans because Dr Vanguard was worried still. They came back all good much to everyone relief. They think where Jane is in recovery still but highly stressed and depressed it's just making tge headaches awful. The mental health team came on board and more medication have been given. Janes now allowed out of bed but still needs plenty of rest. And keeping all this a secret from the media was highly challenging. Janes still on the quiter side, Lukes gone Christmas mad decorating the house. My parents seem as stressed as I am. Layla went back to work yesterday bit then quit because it was that or lose her job because she beat the s**t out of a porter for daring to speak badly about Jane. Luke lost his s**t as well and is on the war path with the hospital directors.

"It's not okay Layla, you lost your job because of me. I feel awful your a damn good midwife" Jane says as I walk I to the lounge but I feel I should turn around as Layla says "I don't care your worth it"

"I'm not Layla" Jane says which stops me in my tracks before I have a chance to say anything Layla beats me to it saying "You are! hell luke will build us a hospital if I so desire. I don't care about the job I care about you. I'm only good because you didn't let me quit when I struggled in uni and stayed up late at night to help me.. Your the one who is good you just taught me to be as good as you".

"You still shouldn't of beat that porter so hard" Jane says "I barely hit him. He deserved worse he annoys all the female staff. So don't feel sorry for him" Layla says

"Sounds like Layla did the world a favour. By the way if Luke doesn't build you a hospital I will" I say then I go to leave but Jane says "You can't just build a hospital because of me. Layla can't just hit people because of me. Whatever next a shopping center, a village? A grocery store? There's always going to be dinlos around who hate me. We can't be beating them all and then just rebuilding places. It's my battle support me yes, but let me battle it. I can't bare anyone else getting caught in the cross fire"

"Okay, I'll ring and ask if I can beat people next time" Layla says "Thankyou, and what about you Liam you going to check or be like Layla and throw your fists around?" Jane asks. I look her in the eyes and say "I'll try to ask but I can't promise and I won't lie about that either".

"I can respect you won't lie about it" Jane says then picks up her Vape and starts vaping away. As the days go on I noticed she tapes more and more. Espically when she is stressing or over thinking. I sigh before saying "Layla give us a moment please and I make my way to go sit next to Jane.

"Of course" Layla says leaving.

"Your hair looks good baby girl" I say "Thanks, layla did a good Jon didn't she?" Jane says as I run my fingers through it whilst looking into my baby girl's eyes.

"She did, now tell me if such a situation arises around me. How do you want me to handle it. Tell me what's bothering you" I say

"Liam, I was raped because of that monster. A girl died because of him. I nearly died because of him. I don't want voilence. That leaves room for the army of pitch forks to have amo to keep coming at me. I hate it" Jane says.

"Okay, then I won't use violence unless it's a last resort. There's plenty of ways to get even with people without violence" I say

"I can live with that" Jane says "Good now give me a hug" I say wrapping my girl until my arms and she hugs me.

I go to move away from the hug not wanting to over step boundaries but my baby girl surpises me as and she clings on a little tighter and she says "Wait, can we just stay like this a little while longer. Your hugs always help. When I'm spiraling mentally they stop me spiralling and calmess just overcomes me.. and I'm spiralling right now". I hug my baby girl back to me as I say "We can stay like this as long as you need baby girl. I'm not going anywhere".

"You say that now, but when we're stuck here still in a couple weeks time you may get bored" Jane says and I laugh as I say "Well other than toilet and bathroom breaks I definitely won't even if its a few years time". "Ooo, very good point and meals but I suppose that can be done cuddling to. yeah bathroom breaks will be a issue" Jane says followed by laughing and I laugh again as I say "Were figure it out baby girl don't worry"

"Okay but can we at least get comfortable?" Jane says "Sure" I say moving us so we're both laying on our side on the sofa facing each other. I then grab the thick blanket that is becoming a permentment fixture on the sofa for when my baby girl is down here and cover is with it. "That better?"

"Perfect" Jane says and I say "It sure is perfect" I say as my phone starts to ring. I dig it out of my pocket and Jane asks "Who's ringing?" "It's Chase" I say going to answer it buy Jane says let me answer it. So I let Jane answer it.

"Chase is someone dieing?" Jane asks answering the phone and I can't help chuckling because in my world that's a real possibility and if he so dares says anything remotely like that I may have to kill him to I think. But I hear him say "No, is Liam there Jane?"

"Yes, but he is unavailable right now. Your ruining a perfect moment where I wasn't spiralling but your now invading it do you see the issue I have right now Chase?" Jane says and I rub Jane's back as I know it helps calms her down.

"It's fine I'll ring Luke. Go back to your perfect moment. I'm sorry I disturbed you Jane" Chase says and I can't help laughing.

"It's fine but you have two minutes and don't think about stealing Liam away just yet I'm. lt ready ready this moment to end" Jane says and I hear Chase say "Oh no, it's really fine I'll ring Luke" "Do that, I'm off the clock for the rest of day inform Luke of that as well" I say with that Chase and Jane say bye to each other then Jane gives me back my phone