Hold Me Closer, Hate Me Harder: He Loves My Mate

Chapter Six

The room had decreased after most of everyone was finished eating. The kids had gone to play video games and almost all of the cousins were outside. John, Jake, David, the twins, Brienne (Who had also came in late) and I were sitting around talking about going to the Fair grounds tonight. I started tuning into my dad's conversation when I heard the word school as he talked to Dom. "Things are going great. The students have exams coming up so its a busy time." He paused to take another bite of his food. "It's a shame though, since Amabell is going to miss a few weeks of school she might have to repeat my class."

I shot my head up to glare at him but he wasn't looking at me. He was acting as if I wasn't even there and this was a normal conversation between him and my parents. Knowing Dom it probably was since he enjoyed getting me in trouble. Dad stared between Dom and me. "Missing a few weeks?" Before I could open my mouth to speak Dom butted in.

"Yeah something about a trip with a couple boys. I'm not sure I just over hear things when people come barging into my classroom." This time he looked up at me with a blank expression. I narrowed my eyes at him. I hated him so much right now.

"You most certainly are not missing school!" Mom shouted at me.

"Mom, I-"

"Where do you think you were going to go with these boys?" Dad glared at me.

"I-I- We were just making plans. I wasn't actually sure if I was going." I tried to explain. Mom gasped to herself and pushed from the table.

"Please deal with her!" She told dad and walked from the room.

"Dad I wasn't actually sure about goi--"

"I can tell you you are not going! You have school to finish and there is no way I'm letting you leave by yourself with some boys!" Everyone got up from the table, giving me a good-luck look and went into the kitchen, leaving dad, Dom, and I sitting there. Dom took a drink from his glass, acting as if he didn't do anything wrong.

"What were you thinking?" Dad leaned back in his seat.

"That I wanted to have some fun too! What is wrong with me taking a little trip with some friends?"

"You're missing school when you can't afford to!" I sat there with my mouth hung open thinking of something to argue about when I caught Dom's eye.

"He's doing this on purpose! He's always trying to get me in trouble because I don't want him!" I yelled at dad but not taking my eyes off Dom. A small sign of hurt floated over his face and he stood up, grabbing his plate.

"Sorry sir," he said before entering the kitchen. I let out a girly gasp and sat back in my chair.

"He is doing this for your own good because he cares! Now I hoped you have packed your things because you are not leaving this house tonight and this weekend you will work in the field with John." He too stood up and walked out. The field was the last thing you wanted to do on a weekend mostly because dad put you there if you piss him off. John worked it almost every weekend and thinking about spending my whole weekend with John instead of my friends made me want to barf up my dinner. Anger built up so fast that I darted for the kitchen, where everyone was chatting in a circle. I spotted Dom in the corner away from everyone washing his dishes. "You’re an ass!” I charged at him, picking up a large spoon off the counter. Before I could reach him Brienne's arms were around my waist.

"I hate you, Dominic!" I kept shouting. Dom didn't turn around or even speak to me. It was like he wasn't hearing any of this.

"Nell, as much as I would love you to spoon our professor to death, I really need to pass his class which means he has to be there to teach me." Brienne said. I dropped the spoon to the floor and took a dep breath, letting it out slowly through my mouth. My on lookers all seemed amused by my hatred towards my teacher now, all but Jake who was the only one who knew about me and Dom. I sighed and grabbed a chocolate covered strawberry off of a plate.

"Try not to kill anyone when I'm gone," Jake begged. "I want to show David something." David walked past me and smiled then followed Jake out. All I could do now was sit on the bench with my back to Dom and angrily eat this strawberry.

"So Nellie." Jenelle jumped closer to me. "We hear you found your mate. What does he look like?" I looked up into Jenelle's excited yellow eyes. This was the last thing I wanted to talk about after what just happened. My eyes dropped from hers and fell to the floor as I took another sweet bite from the strawberry.

"Eh, he could look better," I said, knowing Dom was listening. Dominic was probably the hottest professor I’ve ever had but she didn't need to know how I really felt or with who.

"I hear when you first meet your mate its like magic! All you want to do is lay in his arms forever." She sighed and stared up at the ceiling. Her sister cleared her throat. "Sorry, her arms." Jackie had found her mate before her sister and it so happened to be their long term friend from when they were kids. Jenelle always told everyone John was her mate even though we all knew he wasn’t. She was infatuated with him but he didn’t seem to notice her. His eyes were currently glued to me. I could feel his cold stare.

"That's not the case with me. My mate is...gone," I lied.

"Awe!" Jenelle wrapped her arms around me and sniffed. Was this girl really crying? "That is so sad! Did he die?" I shook my head. I wish, I thought. There was a loud bang behind us. Dom had dropped something in the middle of listening to our conversation. It caused Jenelle to jump up and look around. I sighed and reached up for another strawberry. As I took a bite the chocolate dripped down my lips and before I could wipe it away John had glided over to me, placing his hand under my chin. His eyes were full of hunger and they got closer to me as he leaned in. His lips were so close to mine that felt every breath he took. His tongue crossed my lips first then he sucked the chocolate from my bottom lip. I sat there unsure of what to do as I stared, wide eyed. "You had a little chocolate on your lips," he said, winking. The screeching of metal bending cut me off before I could say something and everyone in the room covered their ears. I jumped to my feet and turned to see my mom's good pot twisted in Dom's hand. His dark eyes glared at John and I was sure he was about to jump over the counter and tear him to pieces.

*

Since my father wouldn't let me out of the house tonight, I was stuck in my old room staring up at the dark ceiling. Anger kept me awake and I couldn't help but imagine punching Dom as hard as I could in the face. He ruined all my plans and now that my parents know about the trip, there was no way I was sneaking out with everyone keeping an eye on me. All I wanted was to have a little fun and now I'm not so sure I wanted to see Dom's face ever again. Though, my love for him was deep so how could I ignore him forever? Sooner or later I was going to give in to his good looks and charm because after all, he was my mate. I didn't want to be away from him forever but for now, I could go a few years.

There was a light tap at my window, making me sit up in bed. The moon shined bright, high in the sky and was the only light that led my way through my bedroom to the window. There was nothing out there. I shrugged, thinking it was just the wind and turned my back. I stood there in my night shirt and undies and stretched my arms high above my head, yawning loudly. I wanted so bad to go out and join my friends at whatever they were doing or at least take a walk through the house. My parents would be in bed right now so I decided to do just that. I held my arms out in front of me as I searched for my door. The sound of the window flying open made me scream and trip over something. Someone was climbing into my room. I kept screaming and tried to crawl to my door but when I get my hand on the door handle I was pulled back by my ankles. "Nell, shut the hell up!" A man's voice came from above me. Recognizing the voice right away, I stopped and stared up through the dark.

"Dom? What are you doing here?" I kicked him off me and sat up.

"I wanted to see you.” I snorted and got up on my bed. I felt the bed sink in as he sat next to me, his hand sliding over mine.

"To find more dirt on me so you can run to my parents again?" I snapped. He sighed and squeezed my hand. I snatched it from his.

"I'm sorry Bell, you know I didn't mea-"

"Save it, Dominic! We both know why you did it!" I interrupted. His weight shifted on the bed closer to me. I didn't want to talk about this right now. "Please exit back through my window so I can get some sleep."

"No," he said bluntly. My eyes went wide and my jaw fell open. I couldn't seem to get any words out. "I want to be with you, Nellie." I snapped my jaw shut and rolled my eyes through the dark. I wished he could see how annoyed I was with his presence.

"Dom-" I was cut short by his lips. How he found my face through the dark was surprising because I couldn't make out his facial features even with the moon shining in my room. My heart skipped a few beats. We have never kissed before. Usually when two mates meet that's the first step to becoming soul mates. The second; kissing. He knew this but he respected my wishes on living life first and his lips on mine angered me as well as drew me closer to him. I pressed my hands on his chest and pushed. I couldn't even speak. I just sat there and closed my eyes. What ever love I had buried deep down was suddenly coming up and all I wanted to do was feel his lips to mine again. The feeling was so overwhelming that I had to stand up and back away from him before I attacked him. My breathing started picking up. "Why did you do that?"

"I want to make sure you love me." His footsteps neared me and I couldn't help but wonder how he seen my every move.

"How are you doing that? Seeing me?" I asked, still backing away.

"We're wolves...we can see in the dark." He replied, obviously annoyed at the change of subject. I closed my eyes and felt a light pinch behind my lids. Hmm, I never knew that. When I opened them I could see everything despite the cold darkness that surrounded me. I now seen how anxious he was to touch me too. "Please, Nella." He outstretched his hand to me.

"Dom, I told you I loved you but I wanted to wait." I had backed up against the wall. Now there was no where to go as he pinned me there. He didn't take time to close the small space between us. The moment his lips touched mine again everything around me tuned out and all I could hear was out hearts beating together. His hands trailed down my hips, sending goosebumps all over my body. I turned my head to catch a breath.

"I couldn't wait anymore.” I pulled away from him and went to sit on my bed.

"Please Dom, leave! You've done enough damage for today." I was on my back with Dom hovering over me before I realized it. I started getting irritated at his inability to listen. He lightly touched his fingertips to the inside of my thigh. The urge to complete the process ached against his touch. "No, you have to go!" But he didn't move.

"I just want you to be mine." His lips trailed my neck. My hands quickly touched his back and I hadn’t realized he was shirtless. His skin was smooth under my hand.

"Not right now! Please, Dominic!" As much as I begged him to stop, my body had different ideas. It ached for his touch. He stopped moving his fingertips on my thigh and stared down into my eyes. Sadness swept through his hypnotizing eyes and he climbed off of me. I sat up and rubbed my head. "I'm sorry. I love you, I truly do but you promised not to do this me I was ready." Dominic didn't answer. I stared at him but felt like he wasn't even listening. He just walked back to the window, sticking one leg out before turning back to me. I slowly walked over to him, rubbing my left arm. An evil smirk crossed his face. I was confused. He leaned in one more time and kissed me again. The damage was done, so I kissed him back. He seemed to enjoy my positive reaction and pulled back with that same smirk. After that he jumped out the window, landing on his feet and started off into the woods. "This doesn't change anything!" I yelled after him.

When he was out of sight I slammed the window shut and fell backwards onto my bed.