Ivy's P.OV.
I've been rushing to do my activities and I think I got to just stay here. I want to just rest for a while just a breath of fresh air. Readin so many books and memorizing different scientific names and medical terms are eating me alive, I don't even know if I am barely passing or if am I still doing great for this course I have just chosen. Only if I could turn back time. But no! I am not Ivy for nothing, No retreat no surrender, that was always been the goal. I hate being pressured but why am I pressuring myself tonight and the latter?
I scratch my nose when I was about to sleep. I am have been rushing this project, I forgot about it, well, my fault, it just came ou of my mind, I have been pre-occupied of the things that has been happening around. I get my katinko and put a little piece of it on my forehead to lessen my need to dozed off, if I did not stay awake for tonight I may not able to pass this paper tomorrow this is going to give me a hard time again. If my teacher will give us a tone of s**t head activities again. f**k and the readings that I need to do. I took a glance of the books I just bought because its on sale, well I needed this for next semester just being advance. I have a plan to do advance study but still I just can't take it, I am been so pre-occupied with all the things that has been running in my head. I just want to live a life where I was being paid for doing nothing, ugh this pharmy is killing me real hard.
I continued to rant off in front of the mirror and then cried after, looking back at the decisions I have made and then wiped off my tears ready to fight for another fight again, I smiled and then agressively typed on my laptop, I don't care about getting a 2 hours or a 30 minutes sleep. My goal is to pass this semester and be able to have a long vacation after all this sufferings. I hate this!
The next morning I feel so dizzy but I keep my head still up fixed my things. took a bath went down to have a breakfast and then ready to face a new school day again. I smiled thanks to the vitamins it made me feel extra energetic today, I guess I can make it until afternoon.
There are really times that I double think about my decisions, like what the hell, what am I just thinking that time when I just
“My goodness Lev, I don’t want to study anymore, I think this semester will end me before I’ll finish it!” I am so frustrated right now, readings after reading, intern after intern, being a pharma student sucks, I am so tired of understanding and memorizing medicine names. I am so tired!
“We can go clubbing Ivy, if you want to enjoy it,” Lev suggested as if a simple party can fix my problems with my studies.
“Seriously? When I am having a breakdown with my studies, the first thing you will offer is to go for clubbing. You know what I am having doubts about our friendship!” I told her getting too stressed out from too much school works.
“You are stressing too much Ivy, as if you are not the heir of that big pharma all over Asia?” she answered and rolled her eyes, I know and that gives me more pressure. Well, my parents never want me to feel pressured but I just can’t help it, I don’t want to fail. I need to study more, I need to strive more, and the thing is my sister is now successful pharmacist. I should not fail!
“You know what Ivy, I think you need a love life, to lessen your stress over academics, well that’s my suggestion, I am so bright right?”
“Girl, you’re an i***t, have you forgotten what happened? The man you told me to date is a freaking asshole, like as in he doesn’t deserve my time,”
“I agree girl, that man is a trash, oh, he is not even considered as a man, he is a trash that’s all and done!”
“Yeah, he still have the guts to cheat on me, when he is such an i***t? Like ew, how on earth I just dated that type of boy!” I was so frustrated and Lev knows why, that boy she suggested me to date, during our campus foundation actually have a family, like ew, I became mistress! Disgusting!
“Don’t worry Ivy, I will check their background form now on, I will surely match you to a great man, I promise!” Lev promised as if she also sucks in choosing her own man. Like she always end up being so heartbroken.
“Girl, save your words, you also don’t have lucks in choosing the great man, you always end up crying on me, getting frustrated that they left you, like girl love is not for us!”
“You’re so bitter, well you should study now, you have exams, right?” she asked that made me come back to reality. Yes, I need to study!
I studied days and night, I don’t have enough to bond with my best friend and also her she has little time catching up with me. She’s busy starting her career, well she’s been modeling even when she was still young, so it is predicted that she will go in the entertainment industry too. Exam days came and it almost killed me the exam is just so exhausting, like only few of my reviewed lesson showed up. And it makes me frustrated, our prof is really killing us! I hate them!
After our exam, it was announced that we all passed and I was happy for that so it’s now time to get wasted! I called Lev and she definitely agreed, I also invited some of my classmates and co-departments, some of my friends from others school. Even Lev invited her friends too.
We saw each other in the club, the others were actually starting to get wasted and some is still starting, things that my best friend could do is to freaking introduce me with her friends. Like my gosh.
“Hi, Kath this is my friend Ivy,” Lev introduced me to Kath, she was the famous model now, f**k how can I face her I am a bit shy but I still keep my head up.
“Hi Kath, nice meeting you,” I greeted her and smiled at me, I was also introduced to the other girls and boys, like all of Lev’s friends were all seen in the television.
I went to the bar counter when finally left me, I was so tired shaking hands and talking with the ladies, and gentleman, like they are all expensive, I was so drained talking to them.
"Tequila please," I ordered drinks and straight drink it. It was not my first time drinking but yeah something's wrong with the drink but I still drink it.
I am so happy that I passed my exam, soon just a little more step I will be done with my degree! I ordered again and drink it straight, over and over again. Until a hand stopped me.
“Drink responsibly,” he stated that made me laugh. What, is he advertising something?
“Are you filming for an advertisement?” I asked him, laughing, I am starting to get out of my mind.
“Just giving you some reminders,” he answered and I laughed at him, I ordered again, but this time he drink it! He is an asshole he stole my alcohol!
“Dude, that was my shot! You stole it buy me new one!” I told him and punched his chest, hmm, in fairness he has a broad chest.
“You’re tipsy,” he said but I still want to drink.
“No, I can still stand, I am here to celebrate!” I shouted at him but I just heard his laugh, damn that laugh was sexy.
“Come on, buy me, buy me, buy me, I want to drink, I want to drink!” looks like I am asking my mom to feed me.
“Okay princess, here comes the airplane,” he said and I opened my mouth, what the heck it was a pizza.
“Hot! Hot! Hot!”
“Sorry, okay, here drink this,” he said and I drink the water he gives.
“I hate you ruined my moment, I am celebrating here!” I said and felt on his hands.
“I am having my moment here,” he said and I passed out.
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