I couldn’t sleep.
My eyes remained glued to the rough cemented walls whereas my mind travelled afar off.
What could they be doing right now? I imagined only one thing after that thought.
Cuddling up against each other as they slept.
I then took my pillow and placed it in between my thighs. Sadly imagining it was him who is entrapped.
My whole body hurt as I selfishly packed the entire pillow against my breasts. My arms crossed over the pillow and bones literally crushed each other as I grasped my elbows.
I didn’t want to let go. I wouldn't let go if I somehow had him to myself, but I'm unable to manifest how I feel in public.
Or even when I had the chance to as it was only the both of us in an enclosed space. No one but my guilt threw that opportunity away.
My face sunk into
