In Quiet Alignment

Toxicology.

I was going to call you but we both know you won’t pick up. Look baby neh when you’re truly ready to be in this, I don’t mean halfway. I don’t mean only when it’s convenient.

I mean fully present. Emotionally, mentally, spiritually. When you’re ready to actually show up for this relationship not just wear the title of “boyfriend,” but carry the responsibility and respect that comes with it. When you’re ready to take accountability for your actions instead of flipping things around and making me feel like I’m the problem every time I speak up.

When you’re ready to respect me, not just as your girlfriend,but as a young woman who’s doing the best she can under circumstances you’ve known about from the beginning!When you’re ready to understand that I come from a strict household,and that some things are genuinely not possible for me,and I should not have to feel punished, disrespected, or accused for setting boundaries around that. And when you’re ready to see me clearly!See that I’m shy, but I’m trying, See that I’m not always the loudest or most expressive,but I’ve been stretching myself just to love you in ways that push me out of my comfort zone.And I know you see it,I know you see the effort.

So please, stop making it seem like I’m not trying,

when I’m literally doing everything I can within the limits of who I am and where I come from.

When you’re ready to stop saying things like

“Sometimes I forget I’m in a relationship”

or “I’m tired” and start showing up regardless, because love isn’t based on mood.

It’s based on maturity and choice. When you’re ready to stop entertaining the world,

to stop chasing distractions that mean nothing,

and instead, finally choose to protect what we’ve been trying to build!When you’re ready to stop making this feel one-sided

and actually help me carry this relationship instead of watching me fight for both of us. Then and only then you’ll know your way back home. But until that day comes,

I’m no longer accepting the bare minimum.

I’m not going to plead for respect, presence, or effort anymore. I’m not going to keep setting myself on fire just to keep this relationship warm.

This love could be something real. Something powerful.But it cannot be built by one person alone.

If you’re not ready to be part of it ,truly part of it

then I’ll stop exhausting myself trying to convince you.because love should not feel stagnant,exhausting and draining, It should feel safe, nourishing, peaceful, and freeing. And lately our love has been feeling draining because not a week goes by without us having an argument,I agree that this could be a phase but even in a phase there should still be RESPECT a phase should not feel like punishment. So T baby, if you’re ready to speak im still here.