Chapter Four
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Chapter Four
I stood in front of the fresh grave and just looked down. My eyes never once left the mountain of dirt. There was no head stone yet, obviously, so the only way any knew she was there was by being here today.
The thought upset me.
'Good bye grandma, I love you so much'. My voice broke and I let out a loud sob. Chad put his arm over my shoulder. 'I'll think about you every day and bring you flowers every week. Your favourites'.
The lump in my throat came back, making it hard for me to breath. I tried to swallow it away, but it was too big and too painful. I just broke down and Chad pulled me in to his arms. I cried in to his chest, soaking his already wet shirt.
He shushed me and rubbed my back, comforting me.
'I M-miss her so much!'. I cried. I felt his hold on me tighten.
'I know you do, but she's not truly gone, She will always be with you and She's looking down on you, you gotta know that'.
'I do'. I told him, but it came out more as another muffled sob. He carried on rubbing my back until I managed to calm down. I turned back around to look down at my grandma's grave and bent down Placing the bunch of flowers that Chad had grabbed from his car on the walk here.
'I love you'. I whispered again before standing up again. 'I'm ready to leave'.
'You sure?' I nodded.
'Yeah, If I stay here much longer, I'll just break down again'.
'Ok, Come on'. We walked back towards the car. I wanted to turn around and look at her, but I just couldn't. I couldn't stomach it. 'Do you want a ride home?'
'Yeah please, Are you coming? That's where the wake is'.
'Of course'.
As we got in to the car, he asked if I would mind if we stopped at the hotel he and Ava were staying at. I said I didn't, it was on the way any way, and he needed to pick Ava up and take her back to the house for the wake. It wasn't a problem at all..
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'Baby, I'm back!'. Chad called out as we walked in to the room, but there was no answer. 'Ava, baby?' Still nothing. 'I guess she went straight to your house then'.
'I guess so, Do you want me to wait outside?' I asked pointing at the door, but he shook his head.
'Nah, it's ok. Come sit, I'll be a minute, I just want to change in to some thing dry and warm'. I nodded. Understandable. He was soaked, partly due to the rain, partly due to the fact he was a gentleman and gave me his jacket, So, a few minutes for him to change wasn't an issue.
Chad grabbed a few things from his suitcase and headed to the bath room. I looked around the room aimlessly, not being nosy, just passing the time. I walked over to the window and looked out.
Wow, they had a beautiful view.. To be fair, Im sure it would be more beautiful if the weather was better..
'It's nice, right?' I jumped and screamed when Chad suddenly spoke. 'Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you'. We both shared a laugh and I couldn't help but notice how beautiful his smile was. I shook my head, not wanting to have those sorts of thoughts. 'Matilda?'
'Huh, What?'
'You went quiet on me there, are you ok?' I nodded a bit to quickily.
'Yeah, yeah sorry, Um.. what was the question?' He just raised an eye brow at me, 'Sorry, I have a brain like a sieve today'.
'It's fine, don't worry about it. I said it was a nice view'.
'Oh, Yeah, it is.' I watched as he walked over to the wall where they had a few pieces of clothes hanging and he grabbed his jacket, slipping it on over his shoulders.
'I guess we should get you home. You need to get out of those wet clothes'. This time, I raised my eye brow and he laughed awkwardly. 'God, that sounded wrong, huh?'
'Just a tad'. He smirked. 'But yeah, I need to go and change'.
We headed back out of the hotel room and down to the car park. My house wasn't far from the hotel, but after the awkward comments in the hotel room, Chad didn't speak a word to me again for the rest of the trip.
Awkward...
When we got back to the house, every one was already having their comfort drinks and eating the food. Some one had put on grandma's old record player, so as soon as we walked in, we were greeted by the sounds of her favourite songs.
I said my thank you'd to him. I really did appreciate all he had done for me today, he had really been there for me when even my sister wasn't. He told me it wasn't a problem and that I didn't need to thank him, but I did any way before I headed up stairs to get out of my wet clothes and have a very quick shower.
I'm sure no one would miss me any way. I grabbed some warm, cosy but still very presentable clothes from my draws and headed to the bath room.
I looked at myself in the mirror.
'Christ! I look awful!'. I told myself out loud. I really did. My make up was smudged down my face, my hair looked scraggy and gross... to put it plainly.. I looked like a drowned rat. Sexy. Wow. And I had been spending time with Chad looking like this? f**k sake.
Shaking my head, I took a wipe and cleaned my face before getting undressed and hopping in the shower. As soon as the hot water hit my skin, I felt my whole body just relax and I leaned my head back and closed my eyes.
It felt so good. Maybe my quick shower could stretch out to a 10 minute shower instead.
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