First Heartbreak

Chapter Twenty - Kiss Me

Zen's POV

That was it. I've had it! I needed to take it all out! After I punched the door, I stared at my knuckles. It was shaking, I was shaking. Most probably from anger. I hated being mad, what more if I felt jealous. After seeing the door, I'm not entirely sure how to explain myself if somebody found out about it. I stayed there for awhile, then I heard someone coming my way. For some reason, I did not run away, I just stayed there.

And she was there. Her eyes were wide from shock. She the least person I expect to come here. What the heck is she doing outside of the classroom? She's always inside. Often times she can be found by her her favorite place. Oh s**t! She must have heard me from all the way there.

From her reaction, she isn't quite happy to see me here.

"What happened?" I barely noticed the hole on the door now that she's here. "Holy Cow! Did you did that?" pointing at the door. Her jaw dropped open. Yeap, I'm definitely in trouble now!

I didn't respond to her, I just stayed there; staring at her. She took another step closer to me, she took a look at the damage I've done. I winced at the touch of her hand that accidentally brushed my wounded hand.

"Oh my God!" she gasped. " You punched the door?" she looked angry and not very impressed clearly.

She took my hand but I quickly took it back. "Give it!" I didn't replied. I looked at her with hatred and jealousy "If you don't give me your hand I swear I am going to report you to the Principal's Office and you'll be expelled from this school!" she growled. Sigh. She still looks beautiful even when she's mad.

I looked at her angrily. Hesitating if I should give up and show her my hand.

"Don't test me Zen", it sounded like more of a threat. I finally gave up and handed her my bleeding knuckles.

"Oh my God!" she examined the bleeding. "What the hell did you do that for? Were you just too happy to punch some door out of nowhere or were you just plain stupid??!!" she was now shouting. I'm pretty sure the security guards will find us soon. "What did the door ever do to you?" I could care less about the door, I just rolled my eyes and stared at her some more as she continuously was checking my hand.

She pulled-out her handkerchief from her front pocket and wrapped my hand with it. My hand was still shaking, probably from the impact. Her hand felt warm, I wanted to hold it.

I flinched some more when she unintentionally touched the part where it had so much blood gushing out. "We have to go to the clinic so the nurse could fix you up with some bandage and ice pack." she suggested.

"I'm fine! I'm going to class" I was stomping my way out when she stepped in front of me. Her face looked so beautiful up close. Urgh! Why do you have that effect on me!?? I looked at her furiously, trying to fight my feelings from coming out.

"Don't make it hard for me Zen, please?" she said. "Let me take you to the clinic. If you don't want me there, fine! I'll leave. But as soon as the nurse tends to you first! You can't come to class looking like that!" she looked at my hand.

I kept silent.

"Oh come on! You're still pulling the cold-war on me Zen!? Really?" Yeap! Just cause you have that stupid suitor of your who gave you freakin' flowers!

I stood there like an i***t holding my injured hand. She furrowed her brow.

She sighed again, as if trying to calm herself down. "Let me just take you to the clinic. Once I see that you're all fine, I'll leave." I looked at her. "Please?" I begged.

"Fine" I answered immediately and walked past her. This is ridiculously hard! I don't want to ignore you! I don't! But for some reason after what happened, I feel that I should be ignoring you!

She followed me to the clinic. We passed by the room and saw Vanessa who looked shocked to see Sam and me together. I continued walking and smirked at the thought that she was the one following me now.

As we got to the clinic, the nurse was there. I didn't bothered to knock, I just let myself in right away.

"We're sorry for just barging in, but we have an emergency." Wow! She has time to apologize to the nurse when this is an emergency! I can't believe her!

She took my hand and unwrapped it to show the damage to the nurse.

The nurse gasped. "Heavens! What happened!" she asked. "She tripped and fell and hit her hand with a rock on the way to our classroom."

I looked at her. You are such a nasty liar! She rolled her eyes, as if she read what I was thinking. The nurse immediately took all the things that she needs to fix my hand and examined it carefully.

"Well thankfully there aren't any signs of broken bones or whatnot. Just a couple of broken skin tissues. It should heal up in a couple of days.." I really wasn't listening to what the nurse was saying. All I could her was my heart that's now beating absurdly fast. It's because of her presence. I heard the voice in my head answered.

I looked at the nurse like crazy because she splashed alcohol on my hand! What the fudge!!! My eyes would've bulged out of the socket because of the stinging pain that I felt!

"OOOOOWWWW! AAAAAHHH! OUCH! OUCH! OUCH! THAT FREAKIN' HURTS!" I squealed like a girl.

"Oh please, stop being a baby!" she rolled her beautiful brown eyes. I stared at her. She raised an eyebrow at me as if to ask if I wanted to argue. But I turned my attention back to the nurse.

It took about a good five minutes before she the nurse was done with fixing me up. That five minutes just destroyed my "manliness" from Sam forever! I cried and squirmed like a real girl! Damn it!

"Did you already told your adviser what happened, dear?" the nurse asked her.

"Yes, I dropped by real quick at our classroom and informed her." she replied. "She told me that I could stay her as long as this hard-headed and stubborn of a patient needed me". Sigh. Since when did you became a liar Sam? Since when did you started to lie for me?

"Okay dear. You stay here with your friend while I log the incident in the report book." The nurse left us alone at another room where the hospital beds were for sick students. Today the room was empty.

I was sitting on the bed still holding my hand. She would wince every once in awhile. She sat at the edge of the bed. She really did stayed far away from me. But I don't want her to be away from me.

It was soundless when the nurse left us alone. I didn't bothered to start a conversation with her. I don't even know what to say. I might start asking things that will go out of hand. But my mouth has plans otherwise.

"Is that pretty boy your suitor now?" I did not just asked that out of the blue! I swear I did NOT!

She was startled. "Excuse me?"

"You know who I mean. That French-speaking joli garçon!" Wow! I spoke something in French. I didn't even knew where that came from! She raised her eyebrow.

"That's none of your business!" I barked back.

I had to control the situation, I can't let my anger out on her! I can't! "Stop acting like I don't know! I heard you and Vanessa talking about him earlier!"

"You were in the room?? You're eavesdropping!" she now looked astounded.

"I was there about to take a nap when that friend of yours shrieked so high I couldn't even hear myself clearly anymore! Stop playing with me and answer my question!" Okay, I was losing it.

"What do you want to know!!" She was now screaming at me her answer.

"Is he your suitor now!??" I asked again and gritted my teeth.

"What's it to you anyway!? It's not like I'm your girlfriend or anything!" Wait, what did she said?

"Huh! You couldn't even accept a single rose that I gave you and there you were accepting a bunch of fancy flowers from somebody you barely even know!" Yes, that's right! You go tell her your point!

"Hey! He gave me those roses through the kindergartners! I did not have a choice because I thought it was from you!!" Woah, she thought those were from me? I can't even afford to buy a box of Ferrero Rocher chocolates!

"Oh please!" I breathe through my nose because I couldn't control my anger anymore. "The only reason you accepted those flowers because it's fancy looking and it's expensive! You'd prefer expensive things to be given to you!" i***t! Why did you said that?

She was now staring at me with fury. "HOW DARE YOU!! DO NOT JUDGE ME BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW ME THAT WELL ENOUGH, ZEN!" she looked so frantic. She then stood up from where the edge and started to leave. I held her arm with my right hand.

"Let go..before I damage your OTHER hand" I didn't let go. Instead I tightened my grip and she stared at me hard.

"What do you want Zen!? For Pete's sake! Tell me what do you want!?" she screamed.

I didn't answered but as much as I tried to look very angry and pissed at her, I just couldn't bare to be mad and angry at her any longer!

Then her tears started to fall. She reached for her front pocket but pulled-out her hand. She must have remembered using her handkerchief earlier. She looked down and let her hair fall on her face to cover herself from crying from me. Her tears streamed down the floor. I felt a pang guilt for making her cry.

I released her from the tight grip so she could move. I had to do something to make it up to her. I wanted to tell her how sorry I am for hurting her.

I grabbed her by her waist and drew her closer to me. She didn't fought back. She was sobbing. I moved my head closer to hers and touched her forehead.

"I'm sorry." was all I could say.

She was still sobbing. I held her there for what seems like a long time. I handed her my favorite blue bandanna. "That's clean". She faltered. "That's mine so it's clean" I forced me the bandanna and she refused it again, shaking her head.

I put down the bandanna for a second and set her hair aside so it won't be covering her gorgeous face anymore. I wiped away her tears with my bandanna. Her eyes were still watery but I could see the sadness in them. She stared at me, I held her gaze.

She stopped crying and looked aware of my gaze. God. She's so beautiful. This girl has her effect on me!

"He isn't courting me", she said

I took a deep sigh and gave her a wide smile.

"What are you smiling for" she frowned.

"Nothing. I just felt relieved, that's all!" I feel more than relieved! I feel ALIVE!

She frowned some more. "I hate you!"

I chuckled. "What are you laughing at this time?"

I stopped laughing and smiled again. "I still hate you!"

"Naw, you don't hate me!" I know you don't! I looked at her teasingly.

"And what makes you think that?" she challenged. Hmm. Be careful what you ask for, honey!

"Because if you did, you would've just left me out there letting my hand bleed!" I smiled at her again.

"Wow! I offered my help because I'm Class President! It was my responsibility to look after each and every student in our class! So that would explain why I took you here." Always so defensive, Sam. That's what I like about you!

"Oh really now" I raised an eyebrow.

She raised hers. It's like an eyebrow-raising contest now! I smiled at what's happening.

"Well I still think you don't hate me" I bragged.

"And why's that?" she asked. Does this girl really want to try me? Those damn lips are so sexy!

"Because if you did, I couldn't do this..." I then quickly pulled her closer to me until our lips touched. I could feel that her eyes were wide open and shocked at what was happening.

She tried yanking away from my grip but I was much too strong especially now that I was more than determined to make her realize of her true feelings for me.

I was losing my mind now. Her lips tasted soft and sweet! Softer than Melody's, I might add. Oh God! I could stay like this with her forever. If she smelled like vanilla, she tasted like one too with a hint of citrus and mint. My mind exploded in ecstasy.

I could tell she wanted more from the kiss because she just stood there still puckering her lips right at me. I coughed so she'd notice that I was no longer kissing her.

"I couldn't have done just that" I was now bragging. "If you hated me..." i gave her a huge grin.

She still looked stunned.

"Aww... You're blushing!" I told her. She looks adorable than ever! She touched her cheek. "You're cute when you blush." I added then winked at her.

Then the nurse came in to tell us that the doctor was now in. For some reason she excused herself and ran out of the clinic. She didn't even turned around to look at me. She still must be in a state of shock!

I hope she's okay though. But I will never forget this day! I almost felt sorry for the door but now I don't. I finally had the opportunity to prove to Sam that she really has feelings for me. I couldn't stop smiling even when the doctor was already there to check me. I just answered his questions but my mind was drifting somewhere else. She loves me!