I love You, Goodbye

Prologue

Nikki’s POV

“Hey! You're so beautiful today. Where are you going?"

"Secret!" I said softly.

"Sshh, You're just going to meet with your cheating boyfriend."

They have been telling me for a long time that Travis has another woman, because I love him so much I just ignore what others say to him. We haven't seen each other in almost a month. We also rarely text each other because we are both busy at school.

Fortunately, last night I talked to him and we discussed that we will meet today. I texted him a few times but he didn't reply to me. I tried to call him but I couldn't contact him. I just felt nervous like I just wanted to believe what other people were saying.

Travis is my long-time boyfriend. We have been together for almost two years and today is our anniversary. It's already eight o'clock in the evening and I'm still ready to wait for him here in the cafeteria. I've been waiting for an hour but I haven't even seen his shadow.

I just walked while waiting for him. I just thought of going to his condo. I arrived in a few hours. As I stepped closer to the condo, I felt a mixture of nervousness and fear.

Tok Tok Tok! When the door opened, I saw a woman open the door. Beautiful and quite small, she’s wearing nightgowns and small shorts.

"Good evening, is it Travis there?" I asked her and saw her eyebrows raised at me.

"Babe come here, someone is looking for you." I almost hardened myself into what I heard. Does that mean it’s true that Travis has been fooling with me for a long time? I saw Travis's naked body and he was wearing boxer shorts. I almost cried because I didn’t expect to see him in that situation.

"N-Nikki,” he said while stuttering my name. I just turned around and started to step away from my feet. I didn't want to hurt him, I tried to run fast because I could no longer bear the pain but he chased me.

"How long have you been? Tell me the truth Travis please tell me."

"Let me explain Nikki, I'm so sorry, I need to do this. She is my fiance and will get married soon. We can no longer be. I can't see you anymore. I'm sorry."

“You should tell me, so I don't make the effort to come here. Do you know it's our anniversary and then this is all you will give me as a gift? Is she good at kissing? Is she more beautiful than me? Do you know how I feel right now? I hurt Travis,” I said to him while my tears fall down

After I said to him, I tried to kiss him but he just stopped me and I saw a little tear in his eyes.

"Sorry Nikki,” he said as he entered the condo and closed the door.

I was left outside and my world almost collapsed because I found out that Travis was cheating on me. I cried and almost sat down on the floor. I love Travis but how did he do this to me? I came home like my life was miserable. I took the bottle of wine and gulped it down. The pain is too much, I trusted him but he fooled me. I almost threw away the household items and my eyes were crying.

"Daughter, what happened?” Manang asked me.

“ I feel hurt, I hurt so much that Travis cheated on me, I love him so much but why did he do this to me? Did he change me because I'm not good at kissing or because I'm really ugly? Am I not beautiful? Why do I feel so much pain, Manang? " I said to her while crying.

"Daughter, is it okay if we meant for each other? We will be destined for the right time, not now or maybe next year," Manang said while patting my back.

I hugged Manang while I was crying, her shoulder was almost wet from my tears. I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep.

I woke up already in bed. I saw Travis's sad face sitting beside me. I hugged him but he didn’t hug me back.

“We are in a relationship, right?” I ask Travis.

"I'm sorry Nikki, I will never love you again, I'm getting married soon."

He stood up but I stopped him. I almost knelt before him. “Please don't leave me, Travis. I love you so much. Please let's fix this, we can start this relationship again," I said to Travis while I knelt and hugged him.

He removed my hug and then left my room. I just cried in my room.

I was still trying to call him and visit his condo but he was no longer there. Until now I am still hoping that he will come back even if my hair turns white I will willing to wait until the relationship fixes this.

I just went home and lay on my mattress with tears in my eyes. I did not realize that I was drowsy. I woke up when I felt a strong flip on my face.

"Will you still get up ?!" Chloe said.

I sat up in my bed when I heard his voice. "Why are you here?" I asked her.

"You stink, take a bath and we are going somewhere," she said and threw the towel at my face.

I can't help but feel sad because of the necklace. I remember Travis gave me this gift on our first anniversary. Whatever I stopped my tears from dripping we’re still deliberately falling. "I still love him," I whispered to myself.

"Hey! Hurry up,” Chloe shouted.

I hurried to take a bath. I also don't like fixing myself because I feel sad. I just wore jeans and a shirt then combed my hair. When we got to the bar I quickly swallowed the wine in the glass. I noticed the couple at the end so I remembered Travis again. I just went home sad, collapsed to sit on the sofa, and closed my eyes that were still in the path of my face.