You’ve Got it Bad

Fourteen

Perrie's POV 

For the past few weeks I've spent almost every day and night at Jade's, and I'd say we've gotten a lot closer. I've basically moved in. 

To be honest, I was tired of living with my mom, stepdad, and that asshole Jimmy. I guess this was my way of slowly moving out on my own. Even though I was staying with Jade, I still felt free. I didn't want her to get sick of me, though,  so I thought it was time to find my own place.

We were both laying on opposite couches watching tv together one night. Jade was doing who knows what on her phone, and I was looking online at apartments. This was all very expensive and discouraging for me because I didn't even have a job yet.

I guess Jade must have noticed me frowning. "Hey, what's wrong?" She sat up on her couch with a look of concern.

"Nothing, I'm fine." I lied and continued to scroll.

"Don't lie to me, Pez. I think I've gotten to know you well enough to be able to tell when you're not telling me the truth. Really, what's up?" She asked.

I sighed in defeat. She was right. I wore all of my emotions on my face and damn her for learning to read them. 

"I was just looking around for apartments and it's all very expensive and discouraging." I sighed.

She slipped her phone into her pocket and got up and came over to join me on my couch. My heart beat sped up and I wondered if she could also read the fact that I'm in love with her, since apparently she knows me so well.

"May I ask, why are you looking for apartments?" She looked at me.

I sighed again. "I don't want to stay there with them anymore."

She put her hand on my knee, sending chills up my spine. "Hey. Stop moping, love. I don't know if you've realized it yet, but you haven't stayed there in weeks. I'd say you've already moved out."

Have I moved out already? 

"You're right, but still-"

"Are you uncomfortable here?" She asked sincerely.

"No, not at all. It's just that I don't really live here. We haven't really talked about it." I replied.

She laughed. "So what were you thinking, that this was just some long ass sleepover?"

I giggled a bit. "No, it's just- are you comfortable with me here? I kind of feel like I'm in the way or invading your space."

She was now sitting cross-legged and facing me on the couch. "Perrie, love, no you're not in the way or invading my space. I enjoy having you here. It was always so quiet and lonely before. This can be your space too. It can be our space. There's no one I would rather share it with. You even put up with my random singing, so I'd say if anything that makes you a certified roomie. I'm sorry, I didn't realize we needed to talk about it first." 

I turned and folded my legs to mimic the way she was sitting so that we were face to face.

She's so beautiful. I could look into those eyes all day.

"Are you sure, Jade? I really enjoy being here with you too, but I would hate for you to be uncomfortable." I searched her eyes.

She reached out and tucked some of my hair behind my ear and smiled, and I tried really hard not to lean into her touch. 

"I would be uncomfortable if you left. Stop overthinking it. What's mine is yours, okay? If you feel like you need to get out on your own, that's okay. But you do not have to be in any rush to go. You can stay here as long as you need to." She smiled.

Damn, she's sweet too.

"Thank you, Jade! I really love being here. It's cozy." I smiled.

"Yes, it is." We made eye contact again and she sighed.

"Okay, so my next move is going to be finding a job as soon as possible. If you're going to let me stay here, at least I have to help with the rent." I said.

"Perrie, you don't-"

"Shhhh, Jade." I put my finger to my lips and I watched her eyes follow. "Let me do this."

"Fine." She sighed and I smiled. "But where will you work? And how will you work and go to school?"

"You let me figure that part out." I smiled and poked her in the nose before getting up from the couch. "Tea?" I turned to look back at her and her eyes were already crawling up my body. When they met mine she smiled. 

"Sure." She replied. 

The way she stared at me, and had no shame about it heated me up. Any other time someone was staring at me the way she was, I would feel uncomfortable. But something about her gaze made me feel desired. 

I'm not entirely sure if she meant for it to, though. I blushed and quickly turned around to make the tea. I turned to say something else and almost dropped the mugs when I came face to face with her.

I grabbed at my chest. "s**t, you scared me."

"Sorry." She giggled. "I want to help."

She took the mugs from my hands and set them down on the island. I grabbed the kettle and started to pour the water as she dropped the bags in and began to stir.

"Thanks." I smiled. 

She smiled in return and we both sipped in comfortable silence. My thoughts were on her but I wondered what was on her mind.

"Hey, what's on your mind?" I decided to ask.

She sighed. "Jaden."

My heart sank. I hated the fact that there was an emptiness in her that nothing else could fill. And I hated that she and her son were separated. 

"Can you tell me about him?" I asked. 

I figured it would do her some good to get out of her head, and plus I was dying to meet him.

"Well, he's my only baby if you were wondering." She giggled and then continued. "He's three, he loves superheroes, he told me his favorite color is brown because it's what color his mommy's eyes are, he has long, curly, brown hair, and the most precious smile on earth. And he's the sweetest little kid you'll ever meet." She smiled to herself and it warmed my heart. "He's just beautiful." She beamed.

I smiled at her. "If he's anything like his mother, I know he's sweet and amazing, and beautiful is an understatement." I immediately blushed when the words left my lips. 

Did I just call her beautiful? Out loud?

I don't know what came over me. She looked up from her mug and those big, gorgeous, brown eyes locked on mine. I couldn't look away. 

For a long minute, probably one of the longest minutes of my life, no words were said. Just eye contact. We've made eye contact before, but something about this time made my knees weak and my mind fuzzy. It was as if she was looking much deeper than normal.

We were both standing on opposite sides of the island counter and before I knew it, she had pushed her mug to the side and had made her way over to me, making my whole world come to a stop. I turned to face her, and her eyes were still on mine. She carefully raised her hand to my cheek and this time I instantly closed my eyes and allowed myself to lean into it. 

"Perrie." She whispered, sending goosebumps across my skin. My eyes fluttered open to look at her.

"Y-yes?" I managed to get out, voice barely above a whisper.

My heart was pounding in my ears, and with her standing so close to me my legs were seriously about to give. I took a step back and grabbed the counter behind me for support. I felt the air thicken around us, making it hard to breathe properly.

She stepped closer, closing the gap between us, until I felt her body against mine. My surroundings were fading quickly, and all I could see was her.

She placed her hands on either side of me on the counter behind me. I was trapped. I felt my whole body shaking like a leaf. She was just so damn intoxicating. I closed my eyes again and inhaled her scent. She was overwhelming my senses, and I loved it. I opened my eyes to see her staring at my lips and biting her own. 

I don't think I've ever wanted anything in my life more than I wanted her lips.

My face felt like it was being pulled to hers magnetically, until we were so close I was breathing her air. I exhaled a shaky breath and looked at her lips, specifically the bottom one that she was holding hostage between her teeth. They were so full, and enticing. They looked delicious. I was terrified and trembling. 

She continued to stare at me, as if she were searching for something. An answer to a question I side her head. 

What the hell is happening? Please tell me she's about to close this gap.

I felt her exhale and was surprised that her breath was just as ragged. 

Is she as nervous as I am? 

She smirked, and I couldn't believe it. She was teasing me. Again. I was so angry, but it only made me want her more. To the point that it hurt. 

She pushed herself off the counter and went to walk away, but I couldn't take anymore of the back and forth. Or her games. I was filled to the brim with need and it was threatening to overflow. Something in me told me not to let her get away.

I seriously don't know where the courage came from, that voice in my head must've given me a push too, because before she could fully get away, I grabbed her wrist and spun her around and back into me. She looked surprised, but didn't back away.

"Wow, ocean eyes. If I didn't know any better, I'd say you wanted this." She smirked again and her low voice sent me over the edge. 

"Stop talking for once and kiss me." I blurted out, looking at her lips.

"I thought you'd never ask." She smiled.

Before either of us could say anything else, she grabbed my t-shirt and pulled me into her. Our lips crashed into one another anxiously and clumsily, but they just fit. I felt like a puzzle missing it's last piece, and she just filled it in with her lips. It was heavenly.

I felt an electric-like current rush through my veins. The best way I could describe it was, it just felt right. Nothing ever felt more right. It felt like she'd just opened something. Something special. Like there was a treasure somewhere in me and her lips were the key all along. 

And they were 10x softer than I imagined, and I could taste her strawberry lip gloss. I pulled back from her and looked into her eyes to make sure this was okay with her too. She looked back at me, and I saw a darkness I hadn't seen before in her eyes. 

Is it lust?

I was trying so hard to compose myself, but I was weak. My legs felt as if I were standing on stilts. My knees were wobbly and my grip on the counter was slippery due to my sweaty hands. 

She pressed her body against mine once more and put her lips back on mine as if she hadn't had enough. It was slow this time. So much slower. Not rushed like before. There was no crashing. No clumsiness. Just straight up heaven.

There were no fireworks the first time, just nerves, but this time I swear I could feel and see sparks fly around us.

Her lips moved and soon mine joined in and they moved together in perfect harmony. She started kissing me as if she was trying to suck all of the air from my lungs, and that's exactly what she did. It was slow and gentle and so damn perfect. I was breathless, but there was no way I could stop. I wanted those lips for the rest of my life.

She took my bottom lip between hers and sucked and bit at it a couple of times before running her tongue across it, making me moan. 

I opened my mouth slightly to let her in, and she cautiously slipped her tongue inside. When I let out another moan, she positioned herself in between my legs, wrapped both her arms around my waist and let her hands slide down to my ass. Her mouth never leaving mine. 

God, yes. She so good. She feels so damn good. 

I wanted to wrap my legs around her, but I honestly had no feeling in them at this point. I let her explore my mouth for a while before I did the same. I slipped my tongue into her mouth and we went back and forth. She tasted like a dream. 

She pushed herself further into me, as if she couldn't get close enough. I was still trying my best to hold onto the counter behind me, but my hand slipped and I accidentally knocked one of the teacups down, shattering it.

I tried to look down at it, but her face followed mine, holding onto my lips. I couldn't move. She had me pinned completely. All I could feel was her body. Her lips. Her hands. Her breath. It didn't even feel like my feet were on the ground anymore. 

Clearly she didn't care about the cup. Her focus was on breaking me down and melting me against her in her kitchen with her sweet lips.

When I slipped my hands into her hair, she moaned into my mouth causing me to shiver in her arms but she only grabbed me tighter. I was beginning to realize that hands in her hair was a lot more than just relaxing to her. 

She started to squeeze my ass and pull me into her. I was so turned on I could explode. I'd been aching for this girl for so long and here she was, filling me from the bottom up. 

I moaned again, causing her to smoothly slide her hands down to my thighs and lift me off the floor. And thank god because I wasn't sure how I was even still standing. 

The whole thing was just ridiculously sexy. She was ridiculously sexy.

I wrapped my legs around her waist instantly, and she rested her hands under my ass again. Our lips never parted and our tongues never stopped swirling around. She tasted amazing and once again my senses were overloaded. I had been kissed before, but never like this. Never this good. Never this thoroughly. I've never felt a kiss all over my body before.

And this was only a kiss, it hurt to imagine what she was like in bed.

She sat me on the counter and started running her hands all over my body, slowly. I locked my legs tight around her because I didn't want to let go. Ever. I needed her. I couldn't see myself ever not needing her again. 

I didn't want her to come to her senses and back away, so I held on tight. Still, our lips never separated. I realized I hadn't breathed in what felt like like 30 minutes. I gasped for air and she reluctantly released my mouth.

She smiled dreamily. "Breathe, love." 

I'll never breathe the same again.

Her voice gave me chills. I exhaled the breath that I had been holding only to suck it right back in when I felt her lips go down my jawline to my neck. 

She was driving me insane. I felt her bite my neck and then run her tongue over to soothe it repeatedly until I'm sure there was a mark. It felt so good. Her mouth felt so damn good.

As much as I loved the feeling, I needed her lips on mine again. I waited so long for this. And I had gotten more than enough air. I grabbed the collar of her t-shirt and pulled her close again. I locked my legs tighter around her and went back to kissing her lips, which she soon took over. 

My hands grew a mind of their own as they started to explore her body. Finally. I cupped her perfect ass in my hands and squeezed, damn near trying to pull her through me, because she couldn't physically be any closer. Hearing her moan sent fire coursing through my veins. 

I slid my hand under her shirt and across her tight abs. Her skin felt amazing, and again she moaned deliciously. She wanted this just as much as I did. She did like me. She pulled away, breathing heavily, and I frowned, still needing more.

She caressed my cheek and smiled. "Now is when you tell me if you really want this or not, before we go too far. I don't know how much control of myself I'll have after this moment." She searched my eyes.

For some reason her words made me hotter than I already was. The carefulness, gentleness and sweetness of them made me want her even more. "Yes, I want it. I want you, Jade." I whispered. It felt so good to finally say it.

I want you and only you, for the rest of my life.

She smiled. "Come with me then, love." 

She grabbed my hand to help me down. For a brief moment I had forgotten that my knees were liquified, and as soon as I hopped down they gave in. I was dizzy. She was quick though, and wrapped her arm around my waist. 

"I got you, baby." She said softly and smiled. Goosebumps popped up all over my skin.

Baby? Oh my god.