You’ve Got it Bad

Four

Perrie's POV 

I shut the shower off and stepped out, closing the door behind me. Once I dried off and dried my hair, I threw on a pair of leggings and a large sweater. I was super excited to spend the evening with Jade, no matter what we ended up doing. 

I know I shouldn't be exposing myself to so much hurt, knowing I didn't stand a chance in hell with this woman. Still, the heart wants what it wants. And my heart wanted more of Jade, in any way I could get her. So I would just have to settle for being friends.

I pulled my hair into a messy bun and left my bedroom. When I got to the top of the stairs I could hear Jade muttering things to herself about the Netflix selection. I giggled to myself at how adorable she was. 

The further I got down the stairs the more her delicious scent filled my senses and I loved it. I noticed her signature was either vanilla or strawberry. This time it was strawberry. But whichever one she chose, she always smelled like cake and it made my mouth water.

"Hey, Pez." She looked away from the TV and smiled at me once I reached the bottom of the stairs. 

She was lounging on the couch with both legs up. She also wore leggings and a crop top, exposing her flat stomach and her sexy abs. She sat upright and motioned for me to join her.

Damn, she's hot.

"Hey, Jade. What are you gonna watch?" I asked grabbing my book and sitting down next to her. Keeping a safe distance for my own sake.

"I don't know." She replied, chewing on her bottom lip. I tried so hard not to stare. They were just so plump, and they looked so soft. "I was thinking of watching something scary." She continued, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Oh, you like scary movies?" I raised my brow.

"Oh no. I despise them." She replied instantly. "I feel like it would be easier to stomach though with someone here with me. Plus, something tells me you like scary movies." She smiled at me and I melted.

I returned her smile. "I actually do. I love them. I can just watch it with you in that case."

She looked excited. "Are you sure, Pez? I don't want to interfere with your reading."

I couldn't care less about a book right now. Jade was in my living room and I had the opportunity to spend the day with her. "Oh please, I'd love to watch a scary movie!"

"Yay!" She squealed. She was sitting on one side of the loveseat and I was on the other side, terrified to be any closer. She clicked on the movie Halloween H2O and instantly hit pause. 

"We need movie snacks. Popcorn, sodas, and blankets. Have any of those lying around?"

I thought for a second. "Um, I have blankets up in my room and I think there are sodas and popcorn in the kitchen."

She jumped up off the couch. "Cool, I'll get snacks, you get the blankets?"

"Okay, I'll be right back." I replied.

I watched her skip off to the kitchen and my heart warmed. I smiled to myself. How could anyone not fall head over heels in love with her? I didn't even have a choice. 

I turned and headed for my bedroom. The realization suddenly hit me that Jade's body was about to be wrapped up in one of my blankets and I blushed, purposely designating my favorite blanket as hers.

I came back downstairs to the smell of popcorn and singing coming from the kitchen. I smiled and sat back in my place on the sofa waiting for Jade. 

Soon, she came dancing into the living room with a bowl of popcorn and two sodas in hand. She danced right in front of me as she sat the snacks down own the coffee table. I'm pretty sure my mouth was wide open and I was drooling as I watched her every move and eyed her from head to toe.

"Okay, let's do this!" I handed her the blanket and covered up in my own, and she pulled the coffee table closer so we could reach the snacks.

I purposely kept the curtains closed so the living room was pretty dark, even though it was just afternoon. As soon as she pressed play on the movie, she laid down on her side on the couch, curling up in the blanket and putting her head on my lap. I nearly died as I looked down at her. 

Suddenly I forgot how to breathe. She used my right thigh as her pillow and placed the popcorn bowl right in the space in front of her on the couch. Meanwhile, I was dying inside because she just set everything on fire by touching me.

She had the blanket covering her body from the hip down and I couldn't help but stare at the delicious curve. I rested my head on my left hand, on the arm of the couch, but had no idea what to do with my right hand. I'm awkward like that. I was afraid to touch her, so I put it on the back of the couch.

About 30 minutes into the movie, Jade had screamed a few times. I laughed because I didn't find the movie scary at all, but she was adorable. I reached over to grab some popcorn and realized that I had to touch her body to get to it. 

My cheeks heated up and my whole body tingled with excitement and desire as my hand brushed her bare stomach. Her skin was warm and so smooth. I grabbed some popcorn and quickly drew my hand back.

"Hey, Perrie, can I ask you for a favor? It's really silly." She spoke up right after we finished the popcorn. 

"Sure, what's up?" I asked.

She rolled over on her back looking up into my eyes and my god it was the sexiest thing I'd ever seen. My chest burned and it was in this moment that everything I thought was confirmed. I wasn't falling, I had fallen. Full speed, head over heels in love with this girl.

There was nothing I could do to stop it. I could see my future in her milk chocolate eyes, and I knew I'd do anything to keep them in my life. I got so lost in this perfect angel, her eyes, and my thoughts that I forgot she asked me a question.

She startled me when she spoke up. "Do you think you could put your hand in my hair? It's just that I see you can't seem to figure out where to rest it, and I find that very soothing." She laughed.

Ahh great she noticed my awkwardness. Still, I would put my hands anywhere she asked me to. 

"Oh, s-sure." I let out a nervous giggle. 

I was weakened by my confession to myself. I was in love with her and here she was with her head in my lap, asking me to play in her soft looking hair. I would be a fool not to.

She turned back to her side and I slid my hand into her curls. They were so soft, I almost asked her what kind of conditioner she used. She let out a breathy sigh that gave me goosebumps all over and I mentally sighed as well. Her hair was literally so soft and curly, and it smelled amazing.

Every time something scared her in the movie, she would nearly jump off the couch and I would massage my hand through her curls and she would relax. This really did soothe her, and I thought it was really cute. It soothed my nerves as well to be honest.

I didn't jump one time for the duration of the movie, but Jade would often get so scared that she'd bury her face in my lap. It made me weak because I could feel her warm breath on my inner thigh every time she asked if it was okay to look.

Soon the credits came on and she sat upright. I sighed at the loss of her warmth and the fact that we were no longer touching, and I think she heard me. 

Oops. 

She turned around to look at me. "Wanna make it a marathon?"

If I didn't know any better I'd say she was enjoying the contact as well.

"Only if you promise not to have a heart attack." I laughed.

She shoved my shoulder playfully. "I can't believe you didn't jump one time. That was terrifying."

"Did you even see any of the movie? You were either hiding your face or had your eyes closed." I teased.

We both laughed. 

"I promise not to have a heart attack." She rolled her eyes playfully as she raised her right hand.

"Ok good, this time I get to pick though." I found myself getting more and more comfortable with her closeness and now I craved it. I needed to hurry and find a movie so I could have her back close to me.

I went to The Conjuring, and Jade covered up and got even closer to me. Her entire upper half was on my lap now as she cuddled up across me and rested her head on the armrest my arm was previously on. Being bold, I took this opportunity to now run my left hand through her hair and rest my right hand on her bare shoulder. Her skin was so hot and soft under my hand. I think I even felt goosebumps on her arms.

Once again she sighed and we started watching the movie. I noticed that she didn't jump during any of the scary parts so far and I thought maybe she'd gotten a bit braver.

"This one not scary enough?" I asked her and got no response. "Jade?"

She rolled over onto her back and turned her face into my chest with her eyes closed. I could feel her warm breath on me and it gave me butterflies.

Oh my god she fell asleep. In my lap. With my hands in her hair. And now she has her beautiful face buried in my chest. 

I wondered if she could hear the erratic beating of my heart, or the butterflies dancing around in my stomach. I was weakened by her beauty and I couldn't move even if I wanted to. 

Even doing something as simple as sleeping, she was breathtaking. She looked like an angel, and this answered three of the questions I had floating in my head. 

No, she doesn't snore. Yes, she likes to cuddle. And she seems like she likes to be the little spoon.

I looked down at her angelic face as she started to stir. I slid my hand back into her hair and she relaxed again. That same sigh escaping her lips. I used my other hand to cover her up and rested my arm across her chest. I felt her heart beat against my arm and I could swear it matched mine. Just as fast. 

The movie continued playing in the background but I was too busy watching Jade sleep to pay any attention to it.

At that moment, Jimmy came to mind. Bile rose up in my throat as I realized that he could hold her close like this all of the time. He didn't have to steal glances at her, or be afraid to touch her. He gets to hold her close every night all night. The thought alone made me want to cry. 

I also felt angry because here she was, delicate and precious as ever, just wanting to be touched and held and he was nowhere to be found. She had to settle for me, not the one she loves. What a dumbass. He doesn't deserve her.

I quickly shook the thought out of my head and looked down at her. I swept a handful of curls that made their way to her face away. She looked so peaceful, and I still couldn't believe she was laying in my lap right now. I looked at her lips and wanted so desperately to kiss them. I didn't know I was even capable of loving someone this much so quickly. She was quite the charmer, and as I said, I fell real hard real fast.

"One day I'm going to kiss those lips, and you're going to ask me to do it again." I whispered underneath my breath.

I looked up at the tv screen and noticed the movie was still playing. I watched it with her still in my arms and a few more until they watched me. I really wished this were my reality instead of just a stolen moment.

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"Perrie?" I heard someone whisper, I didn't open my eyes. "Perrie?" The voice said again and I realized it was Jade's. My eyes fluttered open and her beautiful face came into view.

I sat up and looked around. She was still laying across my lap looking up at me. "I'm sorry, I didn't want to scare you. It looks like we both fell asleep."

She yawned and it made me yawn too. "What time is it?"

She pulled out her phone. "11:37".

Holy s**t, we've been out for a while. I could've slept under her for days honestly.

"Damn it's late." I said, stretching.

"I know, we gotta get you to bed and I should be getting home." She sat upright and the thought of her leaving made me sad.

Also, we? Please put me to bed.

"It's late, are you sure?" I was desperate for her not to leave. It was my turn to not want to be alone. 

She sighed. 

Did she not want to go? 

"Yeah, I should go. Jimmy called. He's not coming home tonight."

She sounded so sad when she said those words and my heart broke for her. He's not paying her any attention. If only she knew how much attention I was willing to give her. I swore to myself to punch him in the throat the next time I saw him.

"Are you okay to drive? I don't want you to get hurt." I frowned, still trying to keep her here.

She smiled. "Thanks, Pez. I'll be fine though." I saw her shiver as she pulled her shoes on.

"Do you have a jacket? Here take my sweater." I quickly took my sweater off and handed it to her, before I realized how weird that could have appeared to be. 

She looked at me for a moment before I realized I was only wearing a cami underneath. I could swear she was staring at my chest and I blushed.

She giggled, before pulling it over her head. It was a little too big for her but she looked cute. "Thank you, ocean eyes. You're too good to me."

It's because I love you, I wanted to say. Instead I just smiled.

She stood up to clean up the snacks we had all over the living room.

"No, Jade. I'll take care of that. It's already late. If you're gonna go, the earlier the better." It physically hurt to say those words because I desperately wanted her to stay. My body missed her body already.

She smiled again. "Okay, I'll text you when I make it?"

"Please do." I replied walking her to the door.

Once we reached the door she turned around and wrapped me in a really tight hug. One where I could feel all of her. I melted into it and it took everything in me not to collapse from my weakened knees. I hugged her back, probably more desperately than I would have liked to. 

I inhaled her scent once more and let her go. And letting her go was probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I wanted to run after her and confess my love. Tell her I would treat her so much better than he ever could. Instead, I watched her get into her car and drive away.

I closed the door and slid down to the floor. Tears welled in my eyes and my heart burned. 

She would probably never love me the way I love her and it hurt worse than any pain I'd ever felt. Tonight had been a dream, but only for one of us.

I picked myself up, finished cleaning up and went upstairs to my bedroom. I made sure to grab my favorite blanket that jade had covered up in and wrapped myself in it. I sighed once I noticed it still smelled like her.

*PING*

I reached for my phone so quickly I nearly dropped it on the floor. I looked at the text.

Jade: Made it home! 

Me: Good! Thank for letting me know! Have a good night. 

Jade: Of course! Thanks for keeping me company. You're a great cuddle buddy

I blushed.

Me: Hahaha thanks. Plenty of cushion here. And thank you for keeping me company as well. Even though you had your eyes closed 75% of the time

Jade: Lol! Good cuddles and head massages do that to me

Me: Good to know. If you ever get too rowdy, I'll just squeeze you and put my hands in your hair.

Jade: Hahaha you crack me up. Goodnight, ocean eyes. Sleep well.

I tried my best not to read too much into the kiss emoji she used. I just sent one back instead.

Me: Goodnight Jade

I put my phone down and smiled up at the ceiling. My heart swelled thinking of Jade, until the sleep took over and I passed out.