STRANGE,RIGHT?

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Alice's p.o.v.

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Have you ever feel like you don't have any respect for yourself, you hate yourself, you curse your self, you are right but still people prove you wrong and you could not do anything for defending yourself just you judge them that how they feel about you and how much they trust you,they didn't know that their certain misbehave with you make them always apart form you, I don't have any valid reason to live.....??!

Well I don't know why but it's me, totally me, I didn't have any valid reason to live.....I hate myself, I have always have dought on me weither I'm doing right or wrong. I'm an introvert, and that's why I didn't have much friends also...wait!!! Not much.....I didn't have even one single friend. It is my second year of college still I couldn't find a better friend. My mother was the first friend of mine. But now she is also left me alone in this horrible world of people. I can't blame anyone fro that, that was an accident befor three years in which me and my dad were saved by the nearby people but they couldn't reach where my mother was stucked, they couldn't save my mom. I used to share all the things with her, she did her job really well, she never treat me like a s**t.

Well I'm also a studious person...so classmates were came to me for just their advantage. And I always help them whenever they ask me their doughts, their queries and even I give them my notes also. In a hope that someday they will become my friends. But I was too wrong to anticipate this....form that jerks!!!! They only talk to you when they needed and then they denied the fact that even to recognise you. Because I'm not fit in their parameters. They are all stylish and wore a full meakup everyday. They have so called boyfriends and here I didn't have even friends. They are always busy in gossips. In my opinion college is not our party destination where we wore a such a dressess and meakups. It's a education institution and my first priority is to get that education and settle in life.

Besides I'm just simple, who doesn't use single bit of meakup in college. I love hoodies too much, so i wear them with jeans and tied my hair in a bun always because my hair reaches at the last of my back and its very difficult to manage my open hair, i have very silky,smooth, shiny, dark black hair. I have same features like my mother and this hairs are also part of them. My vision is also not clear and that's why i wore spectacles. Which gave me a nerd kind of look.

Yesterday I have a lot of arguments with my so called stepmother. My college has planned a adventurous trip in india for more than fifteen days, I really want to go therr to distract myself from all of this stuff , I want some time to explore world for me, may be I find some peace there as i heard that india is a very lovely country. But she doesn't want me to go, because if i left who make meals for her and her childrens. It hurts me a lot, I am not maid of this house still she behave with me like that and her children also. It hurts....isn't it.???! It damn hurts!!!! My mom never treat me like this s**t!!! I tolerate her presence only because of my dad otherwise I never let her to enter in my family. My dad is not live always with us, he had his job in army so he had to do that and only holidays he came to check over us. I asked my dad about this trip and you know what he gave me a permission. Finally. For some days I want to leave this all s**t and this trip is the only way for distract myself from this mess. Well she can't go against my dad. And it's my good luck. Dad always treat me like his princess and if i tell him about her, they will definitely broken and i cant see my dad broken again. And that is the only reason I tolerate her.