Leaving Yesterday Behind

CHAPTER 1

"Love" he called. Kio's in my condo. We are in a relationship for 1 year. We met when i was in 2nd Year senior high and he's in 2nd year senior high. He's now a first year college Civil Engineering Student. 5'9 I am his 2nd girlfriend. Legal on both sides, our parents allow our relationship.

"hmm?" i slowly walked towards to him

I wrapped my arms around his neck and he encircled his hands around my waist. "I missed you" he said in a low tone. aw puta butterflies naba 'to?

"may ginawa ka siguro!" pinaningkitan ko siya ng mata.

"luh" tumawa lang siya ng malakas. taena talaga, pero nakaramdam ako ng ano roon, hindi ko alam basta't biglang pumasok sa isipan ko yon.

Pumunta nalang ako sa cr at nag hilamos, tahimik. After that i sat in the co tahimik at na nanonood lang. I saw how he watched my actions and put his finger sa sentido ng ulo niya, Getting frustrated.

"ano putcha, overthink nanaman?" he said im so shocked.

He really said that? Does overthinking make him annoyed?

huh, what the f**k?

"You didn't mean that, did you?" I asked.

"tanginang yan" he said, then went to the door and left me there alone.

w-what? Am I dreaming? Did he really do that? Did he leave me here alone because of that thing? seryoso ba 'to...

I cried and cried until I couldn't cry anymore. Why did he suddenly do that? I started thinking if he doesn't love me anymore, if he finds someone else better than me, if he's with another woman kaya he did that..

I fell asleep crying. When I checked the time on my phone, it's already 2:04 am. I didn't eat dinner pala. I opened my phone again to check if kio sent me a message but guess what..

he didn't... "hahaha putang ina" i said sarcastically he didn't. What the f**k is actually going on? I started crying again. I'm so confused this time.

to: lover

ano bang problema mo?

to: lover

come one please, talk to me

to:

mahal naman, please don't do this. I'm so confused

'bt your actions, mahal naman.

to:lover

please, come on talk to me kio

lover missed a call.

lover missed a call.

sunod sunod kong message sakaniya habang umiiyak. I keep calling him but he didn't answer. I'm so confused tangina nakakaiyak sa inis.

I didn't realize that i fell asleep again. I woke up around 10:23am. luckily it's saturday so i can stay in bed whenever i want. I checked my phone to see if he sent me a message na.

From: bb

sorry.

To: lover

mahal bakit?

To: lover

mahal bakit? sumagot ka naman please tangina

It feels so unreal. I want to cry so bad.. Seeing him just being sorry but not doing anything to make up for it.. it hurts so bad..

knowing they just love you but not willing to pursue you in a soft and purest way.. and knowing that they only love you whenever it's convenient for them.

It hurts.. it hurts so bad..

natulog lang ako mag hapon. I don't have any appetite to eat. It's 5:51 pm yet he is still not sending any messages.

to: fokfoks

hoy

I sent a message to my friends. I want to get drunk so bad. I want to forget him for a while. I'm so confused and tired. I want to rest. I want to be happy.

fokfoks

gabi: amoy nag aaya ng alak oh

cas: tangina daming activities eh. Anong oras

gianna: may lalaki?

rael: dami akong ginagawa. g kapag may lalaki

I laughed so hard at their messages hahaha. They are my home. They healed me every time we hung out. I love them so much.

:kadiri alak amp. Tara 9pm pick me up

gianna: pass

gianna:passundo

gabi: tanginang to, feeling maganda ka nanaman

cas: bakit nagtatalo ang mga pangit?

Minsan, hirap na talaga nila intindihin puta, bakit ko ganito tong mga taong to.

I get ready na para hindi ma filipino time. I just wear a navy blue silk backless dress below the knee and blue 7 inch heels. I also wear jewelry.

I drove to the club na waiting for them. I also ordered drinks and food for us.

Rael, Gianna arrived.

Gianna Kylie Ezra transg, 18 years old, 1st year of BSBM, Volleyballplayer. 6'0

"broken ka nanaman sa pangit?"He's Raff Tye Salazar. 22 years old. 2nd Year Bs. Civil Engineering. This guy really!

"lagi namang sa pangit na bobroken yan, di gumaya sakin. Ganda lang" Gianna Fae Garcia. 22 Years old. BS Bussiness Management. 6'0. pota makapal talaga

"kakapal ng mukha niyo ulol" we laughed and keep talking about volleyball while waiting for gabi and cas.

"tanginang to nagmamaganda ang pangit" Gaverielle Dayne Marchessa. 21 Years Old. 1st Year Tourism F. A Student. 5'7

She casually said to gianna

"nanahimik kang puta ka" Cas Kelani Salazar. 21Years old. 2nd Year BSN. 5'7

she casually said too. Gosh these people really! Am I going to relax here or be stressed?!

"manahimik kayo punyeta naman talagang mga tao yo pati buhay putangina punyetang buhay to" And of course.

Kloe Iziolle Celestia. 21 Years Old. 2nd year BSLawDegree. Volleyball player. 5'8

"rael, type ko yon oh, yung malaki katawan" gianna casually said while giggling. I laugh, Lagi naman. Dalawa yan sila ni rael na halos lagi naghahanap ng chupapi kada lugar na mapupuntahan namin. Ang motto raw nila "aanhin ang pagod kung worth it naman ang papagod" amputa kahiya. Hindi ko 'to mga kaibigan.

"gaga, mas masarap at pogi yung umiinom doon oh" rael said. I laugh HAHAHAHAHAHA That's what he is.

"tangina mo rael, hilig mo talaga mangialam ng ibang tao amputa" cas said to rael then rolled her eyes. Really, lagi silang nagtatalo. Sila ang aso at pusa sa aming magkakaibigan

"ganiyan nga yan siya" gabbi said take a shot of margarita.

we're kinda tipsy already so, i pull them all to dance. Napalingon ako sandali wala si gianna? I f*****g saw him kissing the guy he said he liked! Gosh.

I pull gia "no kissing, gia! no nooo"I saw cas too who might fell to the couch any minute to sleep! Oh my god. I take a clance to gabi who f*****g looked like tomato because of the alcohol. She's now taking a nap sa couch HAHAHA.

I found rael casually talking to the guy. He's f*****g tipsy, how? his hands are around at the guys waist! I pull them all out to the club and send them to their home, isa isa.

"puta sabi ko relax, tangina stress na stress ako" I'm already sober because of those bitches.

a, i missed him. "He is still not sending a message pala" I laugh with pain.

to: lover

i muss yii

to: lover

i midd u, bring the old kui plbavk pleade..

to: lover

mahal mudd na mudd na kuta. Nagbagi kama po

to: i kive uou

Nakatulog pala ako dito sa balcony almost 2hours rin. Pag gising ko 3:39 Am na. After a happy moments, after those hours na sinusubukan ko siyang kalimutan. I'm still waiting and thinking him.. I loved him so much. Kanina pa pala ako nag iisip dito ng alala namin magkasama. We used to be in love. Anong nangyare saamin?

I am sober na. "tangina, ang hirap naman"

tumulo na ang luha ko, hindi naman kami ganito dati, anong nangyari samin? anong nangyare sakaniya?

"huh?" I checked the time on my phone because I heard a knock on the door. Is it 3:57 am?