Her Decision

Solo

Aliana

I needed to find Jamar. Maybe if I found him and told the truth about everything then he would forgive me. He always told me I lacked accountability so maybe this would show him how hard I was trying to take a step in the right direction. Mya! You better hope he forgives us or- Or what? I don’t scare easily so watch your tone. Either we’re in this together or we aren’t. Mya snarled at me. You took that chance away from us when you did what you did with Terrance. I was shaking now. Jamar wasn’t gonna take me back no matter what I did. I will bind you and never speak to you again if Jamar leaves me. I thought back to Mya. She faded to the back of my mind, shocked and completely speechless. “Princess?”

Great! Just what I needed! Terrance spun me around! Before I could object, his arms wrapped around me protectively and his lips covered mine. Everything around us went black. Terrance was all I could focus on. I wanted him, but I loved Jamar more. As if he had heard my thoughts, Terrance pulled back from our kiss. “How long do we have to keep pretending?” Pretending? I’m not pretending, I really do love Jamar. “I don’t know Terrance. I feel the mate bond with you, but it’s wrong. I want Jamar and I think I love him.” I said as softly as possible in case anyone was listening. “Well if he wants Amber, then you should let them be together. Everyone wins then. We will all have our mates. Please Aliana. End things with him. I can feel it every time you’re intimate with him. You admitted that you know you and I are mates.”

Terrance was practically begging at this point. I thought he deserved an honest explanation so I was going to tell him how Mya had taken control of me and the situation with him. I opened my mouth to speak and that’s when I heard him. “No need Terrance. Aliana you and I are done. Don’t even think about looking in my direction ever again.” Jamar said. This literally couldn’t be happening right now. No no no no please no. This isn’t real. “Ja—” I didn’t even get to finish my sentence before JD told me to shut the f up. The tears began to slide down my face. Jamar had never spoken to me like that before. He treated me like a Queen even when he was mad at me.

There was no way for me to get out of this. s*x wouldn’t work this time. LOOK WHAT YOU DID! I screamed at Mya internally. Silence. She knew I was furious. I felt Terrance pull me in the opposite direction of where Jamar was heading. I wanted to tell him to let me go. I needed to go to Jamar. I wasn’t supposed to be the one to hurt him like this. I just cried harder and harder. My life as I knew it was ruined. “Shhhh princess. Stop crying. It’s okay.” Terrance tried to reassure me. “I’m not your princess Terrance. It is not okay! I love him!” I spat out at my unwanted mate. “I promise I will love you and treat you how you should be treated.” Terrance said. He looked hurt, but he was still trying to comfort me. Wow.

“Well this is sure a sight for sore eyes, isn’t it?” This day was going from worse to DEFCON 1. I couldn’t take anymore. I just looked up at Amber. I was done. I had nothing left. Terrance slid his arm from around me and got up. Wtf? “Amber — wait. I can explain everything.” he said. What exactly do you need to explain? That you f****d me in the diner and then flirted with her afterwards? I thought to myself. Amber looked like she could fight and I definitely could not. He asked her again if he could explain and reached out for her. Amber managed to sidestep Terrance, but not before he grabbed her arm. They both stopped as if they were in a trance. A few seconds later they both stumbled back. What is going on?

“What did you do to me?!” Terrance asked Amber. “I looked at your memories and saw the truth.” She replied and then turned to me. “Aliana how could you?” She said to me. Then she pointed at Terrance “why would you still pursue me? You knew she was your mate! You told me to call you my man this morning!” Wait what? I was speechless. “Y’all honestly deserve each other.” Why did she look like she was gonna cry? “Aliana your best bet right now would be to get a pregnancy test and stay away from me and JD.” This b***h had to be out of her mind. I stood up and pulled myself together. “If you think for one second, I’m going to stay from my the man that’s my first love, you are dead wrong.”

“b***h what is not clicking for you?! JD said it’s over! If you know what’s good for you, you’ll stand down. I promise you that.” Amber wasn’t playing with me. “She will stand down.” WHAT?! I turned to the voice of the traitor. “Or what?” I said to Terrance. “You’ll reject me. Right here, right now.” He came and stood in front of me. “Tell me to my face so I know it’s real.” NO! Mya roared from the back of my mind.I couldn’t reject Terrance. I knew there was 0 chance of ever getting back with JD. “Here. Let me throw you a bone. Stand down with your mate and I won’t tell Jamar what I saw in Terrance’s memory. Deal?” What did she see? “She saw us at Lola’s diner” Terrance answered my unsaid question. I was done. If I let it go now, I could be with Terrance while I plotted my return to my rightful man.

“Fine. Terrance I accept you as my mate and reject all others.” Wow. I can’t believe I just said that. “Aliana. I accept you as my mate and reject all others.” Terrance said to me. Suddenly I felt a rush of emotions. Adrenaline, fear, anger, desire. What’s going on? I panicked. We can now mind link since we have accepted one another as mates. I heard T in my head. I was scared but felt a deep happiness settle over me. I wasn’t done with Amber. Not by long shot. But I could let it go. For now.