Burning love

How to....

Ellie pov 

Waking up feeling slight better after the conversation I had with the hot doctor Archer was everything I needed at that moment, he knew what to say and never pushed me but I wasn't completely honest with him as I never told him I was in the fire when he died and I had to leave him behind while I was pulled out, thats a image I cant get out of my mind. Shaking the thoughts out my head I head to the kitchen needing to prepare Logan lunch for school as my son doesn't want the school meals and I totally understand as I never did either, as I'm placing everything in the lunch box my sleepy eyed boy comes walking in with a smile, I love how he wakes up with a smile on his face, over the weeks I have been at my parents Logan has finally came out his shell, he still sleeps in my bed but he talking a lot more and making friends at school, i guess moving back home was what Logan needed and I guess myself. Telling Logan to get ready for school I jump in the shower hoping for a quick one before everyone wakes up, even though I have my own apartment not far from my parents I feel like Logan would be more comfortable at my parents where my brothers come all the time. Having family around is healing both our hearts but theres still an empty spot in my heart where my husband will always have. 

Dropping my son at school I head to work ready for whatever the day brings, since chief of the house told the firefighters off for bring up Tristan they have all dropped the subject about me and go along there own ways. Some of the firefighters try to talk to me and they only get a couple words before I walk off, after losing Tristan I haven't let any firefighters close enough, I don't want to lose anyone else. Parking my car in my usual spot I head into the fire house dropping my stuff into the locker before heading to the kitchen for a cup of coffee, I forgotten to grab myself one this morning with all my attention on my son, he's the light in my dark days. Standing in the kitchen I grab my coffee, theres only a Hand full of men in the room either reading the newspapers or watching tv, there isn't much to do around the fire house unless you want to work out which I never want to do. Smiling to everyone who I walk past I head outside sitting on one of the chairs enjoying the cool air, it isn't too warm but its warm enough to enjoy it in the morning however it doesn't last long. 

"Ambulance sixty one, women in distress" Tipping my coffee away I climb into the passenger side and ready to go, its the first call of the day and i'm kind of hoping it's an easy day. Tapping my fingers on my knees I look at the information we was given before turning up to the address, seeing a man on the side walk wave us down I grab the bag before following him inside with Megan hot on my heels. Seeing the women on the floor the first thing I notice is her belly and Megan nearly walks right into the back of me as she looks at the patient, taking a seat next to her I connect her up to the machine before looking how far gone she is as she looks like she's about to give birth. 

"Alright mother looks like your in labour, I'm afraid your going have to push as I can already see the head" Megan says before telling the baby daddy to grab a couple of towels, Megan delivers the baby while I hold the women hand telling her to push, I know what she's going though so I encourage the women while Megan catches the baby when it comes out, I couldn't go though what this women is going though again, one is definitely enough for me. 

"its a baby girl, congrats" letting go of the baby mother hand I feel like the life of my hand is coming back to me, the women had a tight squeeze on my hand and now I feel the blood flow again. Loading the women and baby up I let Megan climb in the back while I drive, I have no problem with kids but right at this moment I want to drive, putting the ambulance in drive I head to the closest hospital ready for my coffee I never got to finish. Pulling up to the hospital I open the back doors letting Megan jump out first before grabbing the mother and baby, the father is in another car behind us, watching Megan take the women inside I fill the paperwork not wanting to interact with the doctors which Megan does all the time, I guess she loves it when we come here to drop a patient off. 

Walking into the fire house I head back into the kitchen for my coffee I never got to finish, it has already been a long day delivering the baby and then another couple calls before making it back to the fire house but now I can finally have five minutes to myself before hearing though the radio about another call, I just want five minutes. Refilling my cup I grab my pasta salad from the fridge hoping to dig into it without hearing the bell. Taking a seat at the table I dig into it while I exchange texts with my brothers, they are always texting me making sure i'm ok plus one of them is picking Logan up from school for me as I don't get out of here in time which I feel bad as I wish I could spend more time with him after school. Hearing the table fill up I turn my phone off and place it in my pocket before seeing another fork in my pasta salad, turning to my left I spot one of the fire fighters matt taking a bite of my food with a strug, men. Rolling my eyes I let him take a couple more bites before finishing it off, I should be used to my food being eaten because if its not my son, its my brothers who eat it. 

"Fire engine twenty eight, truck two, ambulance sixty one. Fire at west hill primary school" hearing my son school though the radio, i'm quick on my feet and out the kitchen, I don't care what I look like but I'm first one into the drivers seat and waiting for Megan, within a second she climbs into the passenger seat giving me a look but right at the moment all that Is going though my head is my son. Beating both truck and engine out the fire house I lead the way to the school and all that I can think about is my son, I have Megan telling me its clear on the right as I make sure its clear on the left. I can hear our chief telling me to slow down but theres no way, only the chief knows i'm fully trained fire fighter and that I'm a mother. I like to keep everything else to myself from everyone. Pulling up to the scene I search the grounds for my son but I don't see him, I can see the smoke come from the building, I spot Megan in the corner of my eye looking at me, she knows something is up but i'm not about to tell her. I'm surprised the chief hasn't said anything but he must know not to get in the way of a worried mother. 

"Everyone is counted for apart from three students" thats all I need to hear before i'm grabbing a oxygen mask and my coat before running inside, both the chief and one of the lieutenants lewis tries to hold me back but as I make it though the doors I hear chief ordering everyone else around, chief knows I'm capable so he has nothing to wrong about. Calling out for my son I look though all the doors that are open hoping to find him before I find the fire, Its been a while since I entered a fire and the last time was when I lost Tristan, i'm not losing my son to a fire also. Hearing though the radio that two children have been accounted for I carry on looking and as I begin to turn back around I spot my son in the distance, coughing as he tries to walk. Running over to him I spot him before he spots me, looking him over i'm making sure he has no burns to him before looking for a way out, the smoke in the building has turned black, so I know i'm close to the fire, Picking my son up I wrap my coat around him telling him not to breath in the smoke but the fire has spread and is blocking my exit, I don't know how this happened but it happened. 

"Mayday mayday" I call knowing i'm going to run out of oxygen and air before I make it out but without thinking about myself, i'm laying Logan down and laying over him making sure we both wrapped around the coat 

chief pov 

"Mayday mayday" hearing the mayday call though the radio sends a shock wave though me, especially when it comes from Ellie, the only reason why I let her run into the building was that she was trained and knew exactly what she was doing but right now all I can think about is why she calling mayday. Theres no way she be calling mayday if it wasn't serious, I know all about Ellie so I know the only reason she ran inside was for her son which I understand as I would of done the same thing especially as she lost her husband in a fire and had to leave him behind while she was pulled out. I read the action report that day and my stomach turned for her, I just wish this isn't a repeat of that. Strapping up for the first time in a long time I look at the smoke coming from the building, I have a couple of minutes before the roof gives way and collapses. Looking around I see a couple of fire fighters look at me and I know what they are thinking but i'm not losing a paramedic on my watch even if she's trained 

Running into the building I have lewis one of the lieutenant on my left following me in the building, he wasn't taking a no as a answer as I told him to stand down but I guess he's not losing anyone either on his watch, calling Ellie name I hear a slight cry so I follow it hoping its both Ellie and her son. The visibility is low but I see Ellie coat on the floor surrounded by fire, seeing no way around i call for a water line, while I wait I call out to Ellie but i'm getting no response, I see two little legs under Ellie and I know right away she's shielding him, her mother genes have kicked in. Once the water has been spread on the fire I rush over to Ellie turning her over trying to find a pulse but nothing, lewis grabs the children while I lift Ellie up before running behind him. I'm on lewis heels as I exit the building letting the firefighters spray it with the water however my attention hasn't gone from Ellie as I place her down watching Megan rush over.

"Come on Ellie" I hear Megan yell as she preforms CPR on Ellie, watching another fire fighter matt connect the wires to Ellie chest, I look at her son who's getting looked over by another ambulance, I have told lewis not to leave his side because if I did I know Ellie would chew my ear off. I don't want her son seeing this especially after Ellie saw the same thing with her husband. Looking at the monitor i'm begging for a heart beat but nothing comes, taking a knee I watch as Megan still performing chest impressions before stopping after getting a pulse, some time I hate this job. The fire has been put out and as I look around I spot every fire fighter on there knee waiting for anything, all eyes are on Ellie as matt and Megan try to get her heart rate back. 

"Mommy" I hear the boy yell as he comes running past me and straight into Ellie, everyone stop suddenly unaware Ellie is a mother to the young boy she saved by placing her body over her sons, I give lewis a look that tells him 'I told you to stay with him'. Placing Ellie in the back of the ambulance Megan climbs in after with the little boy as he refused to leave her side, I instruct matt to drive while I climb in my truck wanting to clear the path so she gets there faster. I know we got Ellie pulse back but anything can happen from here to the hospital.