Fighting Temptations

Chapter 7. "What's the hold up?"

I'm still in the ladies room and I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I want to call my sister and ask her where she's at but knowing her to be a chatter box, she is still talking to Cyp.

I come out of the ladies room and make my way up the broad corridors and I spot a boot that I've been eyeing for so long. I go into the shop and fit it on. It's beautiful and I want it, but don't have enough for it now seeing as we bought so much stuff just minutes ago.

My phone rings and I see it's my sister. "What's up?" I ask her to which she exclaims "Where are you? We have been waiting for you for about twenty minutes now. We thought you were kidnapped. What's the hold up?" she giggles..

I walk back to where I left them and am surprised to see Cyp waiting. "Can I buy you ladies lunch?" he asks. I quickly say "No Need." but my sister rudely interrupted and said "Yes please." "We can go to any restaurant of your choice just lead the way and I will be sure to follow. I felt like c*****g at her but needed to keep my composure.

We walked to the food court and there was an Italian restaurant i wanted to try out. He was starting at me so unconsciously that he walked into a pillar. His senses returned and I felt so bad. Not knowing what to do I just offered him an I'm sorry. He looked at me and said "I'm a man." Somehow i do not like that phrase, because it makes no sense. We are all human and we hurt. Many men suffer inside and cannot express themselves because of the phrase " I'm a man.".

Anyhow we move along and he ask what I would like. I point in the direction of the Italian restaurant and he nods. We go inside and we are greeted by a friendly waitress. She takes us to a table and brings us the menu's.

The food looks and sounds exquisite so we place an order for starters. Convo is sparked by sister dearest and I'm silent at first. He orders a bottle of wine and we each have a goblet in which he then pours the wine. We sip this tasteful luxurious wine and I feel my muscles relaxing one glass after the other.

Having finished our lunch we get up and leave. Cyp had gone to the cashier to pay the bill so my sister and I followed suit. Just then my husband enters and my body flushes as I feel cold and guilty.. He sees us and makes his way up to us. He pulls me in and gives me a kiss to which I catch Cyp staring from the counter and so made his way out. No emotion could describe the way I'm feeling now. I'm torn, ripped, in pieces. "When did I start living a double life?" I question myself..

"We were just on our way out.," I tell him and sissy looks at him and nods. She waved him bye as did he. I kiss him on the cheek and tell him "See you at home.".

We leave from the entrance close to the restaurant and just as we about to stop a taxi Cyp pulls up so we immediately get in, trying to avoid prying eyes. His face is glacial and I know the reason. We drive and he is just silent so my sister asks us to drop her off at her boyfriends house and so we do. As she gets out she says "Cyprian it was nice meeting you and thanks for lunch and the drive in your fancy car, she chuckled. Sis thanks for the clothes and the catching up, love you muchness" Cyp gave her a warm smile and I replied " love you too babe, take care and I'll call you later."

"That hurt" he started. "I know he is your husband, but babe I'm your man too, just try not do that infront of me next time, please."

I felt like I was at a loss for words.

The guy is my husband and if he wants to display a little affection in public I dare not stop him cause the tension will be unbearable back home- I thought to myself.

"I will try be more considerate about your feelings next time. I just feel we moving a bit too fast. Can we take it slow and see where the road leads us. ,"Hopefully to one less traveled. I've been with many women, I don't want to lie, but not one of them made me feel the way you do.

Not one has satisfied my desires as you have. Believe me when I say my love for you is true.". he says and it makes me think hard about my situation at home including him.

I'm taken by his words and I lean forward and start kissing him. This man's kisses got the sparks flying in this car.

I fight the urge to get naked again and ask him to drop me off at home.. We arrive in the driveway and I get out. My heart feels like it wants to sink into the ocean cause I desperately want to go with this man. I bite my lower lip and close the door.. I turn around and walk up the driveway into the house. When I get inside I lock the front door and immediately go upstairs and take a shower.

I open the water and let it run down my body then sat under the running head. Various emotions swept through my chest and I felt like I was pushed into a corner where I can't come out. I hear the words escaping my lips "If this is how love is supposed to be, I don't want it.". I take the body wash and start scrubbing myself from head to toe. I get out and put on my bathrobe to which I tossed myself on the bed.

I starred up at the ceiling and felt my heart sank and rejoiced at the same time if that's even possible.

I feel like taking a nap so I do just that seeing as I'm alone at home.

I need this rest seeing as I need to get myself sorted and back at work..

I lay on the bed reminiscing about the days events and in a way I feel a bit lighter than I did this whole week that I had been at home. I feel my eyes slowly closing as I drift off into a peaceful sleep.. I'm at peace.