Chapter 23Rey
The first time I pulled out my card at the bookstore, I barely managed to make it to the car before the panic attack took over.
I thought I was dying. I felt dizzy and had images from the past filter through my brain like a f****d-up film reel.
I almost called Jack.
River was with me, so he calmed me down pretty fast, but he’d seen the card, so I knew there’d be a conversation when we got home.
Madden and Mona were at Toby’s, so I didn’t even have my cuddle buddy with me.
For a while, I wondered if I should just message Jack about what I’d done, but I wasn’t ready yet.
Then I used my card again while Theo took me to get groceries at the closest store to home.
“Are you sure about this?” he asked, guessing what I was going to do.
It struck me then that I needed to know
