Loving me

NEW DAY ..........

DHANA POV

As I woke from the best sleep of my life I saw Risandh standing at the edge of my bed with a bright smile on his face and a steaming cup of coffee in his hand. He said good morning and sat on the edge of the bed giving me the cup of coffee. I returned his greeting and took the coffee with a bright smile matching his own. I said thankyou to him and took a sip of the coffee offered to me. Coffee tasted great so I told him so. He gave me a smile said so you like your coffee same as mine as well.

We had a laugh over that and I started taking small sips from the mug as it’s hot. After a few comfortable silent moments later he asked me about my nightmares as he helped me yester night with them. I almost spitted out the sip of coffee I was going to swallow but swallowed it as I didn’t think he will ask me directly like this. I take a look at him, he is sitting there staring at me with curiosity waiting for my reply. I contemplated to say him or not, finally I decided to share it with him.

As you have seen yester night Risandh that I had a nightmare what you don’t know is that I have them almost everyday for past some years. My nightmares doesn’t make any sense to me Risandh. Its always me running away from someone but when that person almost catches me I feel relief but I can’t see the face of the person who is chasing me. Every time the person catches me I woke up screaming and with a lot of confusing emotions.

I stopped saying and look up to Risandh looking thoughtful. As I was looking at him he looks up as well we make eye contact. I can’t take my eyes off him, he looks so intense at that moment, his expression is a mixture of sadness, concerned, rage, helplessness and relief. It’s such an odd combination I just stare at him. Then his expression closes up and becomes almost blank but his eyes show some emotion that I can’t understand.

He says that the breakfast will be ready in an hour will be served at the dining table near the kitchen then he leaves the room. I just stare at his retreating back for a while and slowly exhale the air I have been holding to start my day.

RISANDH POV

As I listen to her I feel like I’m drowning and I wanted take her into my arms and console her confess to her and just hold her but I can’t. So I just stay there and stare at her with so many emotions that I can’t even explain myself. When she stops I look up to see that she is looking back at me. We stare at each other for a while but I can’t seem to take away my eyes from her. Finally I mask my emotions from my face and I inform to her about the breakfast and get out of there to my room and slam my bedroom door shut. I slump against the door and stare unseeingly towards the ceiling. I think about everything I know and come to the decision to share everything with her tomorrow. I wanted to have a joyful evening with her to my memory if it makes me selfish I’m okay with that.

Decision made I went into the bathroom to take a shower.

After having my bath I quickly wear my clothes and make it to the dining table to receive my whole team for breakfast. Within five minutes everyone was there. We share a mixture of breads, omelettes, fruits, salads and curries made by my maid. Everyone enjoyed the meal and we decided to head to our homes and meet up at office at noon. I asked Dhana to come with me as she doesn’t have her own vehicle with her. We all headed towards our vehecles said goodbye and drove away to our destinations.