Loving me

My emotions

As I lay in the bed I think back to the events of the day and let out a very girly squeal which makes me laugh afterwards as its not normal for the new me thet thought removes the smile from my face. I drift myself to deep slumber thinking about my future as it is bright for me.

DREAM: 'Iam in my birthday party dancing on the floor to the beet as I'm a good dancer. Then my friends gives me a drink I refuse but they insist so I drink it. Then they keep on making me drink. I go to the stage and start dancing again and keep on drinking. One of my friends whose face I couldn't see clearly offers me a drink which I gulp down like the rest.

After a while I feel more drunk than before so I staggered down the stage and try to go to my girl friends but the guy who gave me the last drink intercepts me. I say to him I wanna go to my girls laughing which is weird as there's nothing to laugh about. Seeing that the guy smirks but says a little normally that he will take me there. I try to refuse but I can't as I feel a lot worse than before. Without my conscious thought I close my eyes but I hear a life making a ding sound then everything goes black'.

I was jolted awake from my dream with a scream. I look around myself frantically. I calm down a little as I see that I'm still In my room. I'm covered in sweat so I take a shower.

after my shower I go to my kitchen and gulp down full glass of water. Then I go to the bed and try to sleep.

Try is the operative word as I toss and turn in my bed but I'm unable to sleep as sleep evades me. I sigh in defeat and come to the conclusion that I can't sleep for today. I look at my phone and see that it's 3.am. Without my prior thought my mind drifts to that fateful morning.

FLASHBACK :

I slowly woke up from my slumber I feel I'm on a comfortable and bouncy bed with a fluffy blanket. I sigh and close my eyes then suddenly open them as I realise I don't have bouncy bed and fluffy blanket.

My body is sore as if I ran a marathon so I look down at myself iam covered in a comforter. I look around myself and find myself in a hotel room. Which confuses me a little. I try to move but it makes my body painful so I remove the comforter to see what the problem is. I find myself naked and hand marks around my hips and a little blood on the white bed. Iam shocked and frantically remove myself from the bed. It takes me a few seconds to inspect myself and come to the conclusion about what happened the night before.

Nauseated I run to the washroom which is difficult and flung myself into the toilet to puke my guts out. After puking for a while I slump down beside the toilet seat and think back to the night before but to my frustration I only remember coming to the party with my bestie and nothing else.