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Chapter 24 – Sisters

I don’t know what to say, so she started it “Hey!” slowly but surely sweet. She doesn’t really disappoint me with her smile. “Hi, Yannie” I become shy all of a sudden. I don’t know what words should I say to her but she seems fine to me. We look so awkward right now, I feel like she doesn’t really like me to stay but I am here for her sister so it’s allright, right? I wanted to start a conversation but what should I say? Where do I begin? I know I lack some social skills when it comes to awkward situations like this. She stand up from the chair she was sitting on next to the bed where her sister is lying and said “I’ll get some drinks for you. You can sit here.”

Finally, she’s awake but instead of just staying still and resting, she asked me anxiously “What are you doing here?” she told me. I think that she’s afraid that people would recognize me but they surely will do but who cares. Can’t I visit a friend? The answer for my very simple question is “NO, I can’t be seen with any girl friends”. Jericho always says that no matter my friend is; if it’s a girl? It’s a girlfriend in the news. The only time, I can see them is when it’s a proper gathering or some sort. That’s how I lived all these years but no matter who I date or have a special feeling for then it’s my problem not theirs. I live by their expectation too much that I forgot to live my own life to the fullest.

“You’re more concern than I am. You should really rest”I said. She looks at me and said softly “You know my reputation as well as yours. We can’t be seen or I’ll be screwed by your fans. You know that?” she said. I know that she’s concern but can’t I just be there for her for a time like this. “Don’t worry, you’re a friend. I take care of my friends” I said. She scoffed and laugh like I said something absurd. I asked her why is she laughing but she replied something in Thailand that I don’t understand. “You know, we can’t be friends, right?” she said afterwards. It’s my turn to laugh this time “Why? ‘cause I dated your sister? You’re still angry about that?” I laughed until I couldn’t anymore. “What the hell was that about?” I said after feeling the pain she caused on my face. She slapped me.

“Don’t you think it’s a little rude after what you did to her. What we did?” she said feeling guilty about something deeper than being sorry. I know, what I did to her was something ridiculous and she’s supposed to be angry at me but she looks like she didn’t care at all or she’s just good at hiding her true feelings. “I felt like she should be angry at me, don’t your think? She looks like she didn’t care at all” I told her after she recovered a little bit. “Yan is here?” she looks a bit frantic after saying that. “Yeah, she was the one watching you while you’re unconscious. She just left to buy some drinks at the vending machine, I guess” I replied. She told me to go and that Yannie might not like us being in a room all together but I was thinking this isn’t a room but she kept on pushing me but she stopped seeing Yannie standing in front of me now.

“You don’t have to kick him out, sister” Yannie said. I smiled very nervous as we sat down, all three, face to face. Sunny on the bed, Yannie on the right and me on the left. She gave us the drink she bought and drank it first. My phone suddenly rang and they both look at me like “Just answer the damn phone, already”. I quickly got the phone from my pant’s back pocket and answer the call. It was from Eli and she seems to be angrier than usual. “What were you thinking?” she shouted as soon I clicked answer. I can hear her even if I still haven’t put them on my ear. She’s definitely angry and I understand that; who would ditch the after party with all the higher bosses on the site just because someone fainted. This time, Eli, doesn’t know about the sisters because she sure will shred me like a paper.

I haven’t told her about Sunny because I know that I am gonna hear some cursing and all those stuff. She will, literally, be furious about what I did and that is, I dated them both at the same time. I know, it’s sound really bad but that’s not up to anyone to judge me of what I did. I did what I thought was the best decision at that time. I was super lost, super driven on the thought of not really living because of my bad decisions and that took me a long time to be human again.

It wasn’t fair to anyone what I did but I was really rebellious and all I could think of was to do everything backwards to all things that they always thought that was best for me. I would act really cold at the staff and crew, I won’t even show up to a lot of my interviews, I stood them up. I was a scumbag during that long days of just alienating everyone, including my mom. I was involved with a lot of bad guys who do bad things. I was sorry for what I did to Sunny, especially, Yannie. I wouldn't really date them both if I knew they were sisters.