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Chapter 28 – My First Real Butterflies

I never really felt this nervous with Sophie and Sue. My only focus was with her this whole time. It feels like everything is a blur and we’re the only one visible to one another. I almost bumped into her head by the sudden call of my name. I looked left and right and there, I saw Jericho standing by the door. His face looks like he was betrayed by a family and his ready to punch someone. I bolted from my seat and looked at them both. Switching from Patty to Jericho to Jericho and Patty. Pieces began to surface one by one that night I signed a contract with Jericho the night the news broke out that Sue and I broke up. There are a few things I can remember from the long list of condition I should follow for me to be able to focus on my music and just be “Ian Collin Black” and not some lonely boy who wants to get laid by any girls after a break up.

It says that I can’t be seen by any woman but I didn’t follow that one because “Hey, where’s the democracy in this country if I can’t do what I want”. That’s the only thing I can think of after the break up. It wasn’t my first break up but how things ended with Sue is somewhat “not good”. I can’t imagine how low I was at that moment.

Jericho slowly walks towards us. I can’t seem to distinguish if I am looking at a friend or a boss. He didn’t say anything and he just dragged me back to the party. Just meters away from the door back to the main hall of the party, Jericho stopped and fixed my tux and he said “Did you drink?”. He doesn’t sound angry but yet alarming. “No” I replied. He then inhales and let out a big sigh. “Okay, let’s finish this party and go home” he walked first and I don’t know if I should follow him “How about Patty? I can’t just leave her there” I said raising my voice a little bit. He stopped and turned though I can read minds, I don’t know if he’s okay with this or not. He walked faster towards me and he said “We are at a party not hang out, okay?” then he entered the hall. I was left there thinking if I should go back to Patty or not.

Decisions are sometimes dangerous yet we rarely choose what’s best for us. My feet starting walking, the other way around. I went back to the rooftop just to see no one else is there. I went back to the room but she wasn’t there anymore. I went back to the party and stayed silent. I would talk from time to time with the VIP’s but that’s just it. I can’t drink in the public since people are watching but I do drink a lot. The first drinking scandal I was involved was three months after I met Patty. It was a lot of news bomb and I stayed home for about twenty-six days without talking to anyone but since I am the talk of the town, paparazzi are all over my house. Things don’t die down if you don’t face the issue so that kept me on my toes.

After the party, I came home and got wasted. I drank too much that I almost overdosed if Mont didn’t show up. He is my game partner, my housekeeper’s son. He’s very good with games that I can’t seem to beat him though he can’t touch me if it’s board games. Photo Puzzles are the ones we enjoyed the most and if we solved them, I hang them onto the walls. It is refreshing and it’s a game that makes me think. “Hey, bro, you sober now?” he asked me.

It’s already morning and he’s the one who keeps my things under control. I am not very good at keeping things clean in the house. I have a lot in my mind for a 17 years old. “Yep, give me some water. please” I asked trying to sit while dealing with this dizziness. I nearly lost my balance but Mont was there for assist. “Mom told me to tell you that there was a girl looking for you last night” he said handing me the glass of water. “Who?” I asked massaging my temple. “A girl asking you for you last night?” he replied.

Morning seems to be the best to normal people but it was a very boring day for me. If my schedule’s tight then I would wake up at 11:30 am and start working until 6 am in the morning but I rarely have a free time so I would play games all day and starts writing at night or would watch movies that I like that I haven’t watch for weeks. I wouldn’t really say a free schedule because I have to write and think of some inspiration for my songs. They would give me beats and all but I change them if it doesn’t approve my taste though Jericho’s the one finalizing the album for me with my pick songs. I played one of my songs while making coffee. It’s one of my favorite from my first album.

Look me in the eyes, and let me know what you think of us

I wonder what the stars would say, if we shine the brightest

Into the world of darkness, we light up the universe

I wonder what the moon would say, if we take it to the galaxy

We won’t be anyone, we’re just having fun

I don’t know who you are but we clicked too much

I wonder what the fate would say, if we end up together

Sharing love to everyone, heartbreak would be jealous

I wonder if you and I can stay like this forever

We’ll take them down with the passion of our love

Makes me wonder when will this one start to unfold

Like we’re destined together, now I own the universe

I’ll be your king and you will be my queen

We’ll rule this world together, nobody won’t stand a chance

Surely, we don’t know what the future will say

I care too much to not care

Fully, I was on top of the world

This song reminds me last night with Patty. It was one of the moment where I felt alive and secure. “I wonder” is on top one list on all media and song ranks for about three weeks straight. I was awarded with tons of awards from here and there. This one is the last music video that released for my album and it’s just all sold out. I was stopped day dreaming when I heard the intercom ringing. “You have a guest, do you want her in?” asked Mont.