FATED TO LOVE THE HOT BILLIONAIRE(SSPG)

VI-ALONE AND DRUNK

JOANNA'S POV

They said in order to forget your problems, all you need is to be drunked with alcoholic drinks. But I never tried dinking and going to the bar for my entire life. Jea would pushed and invited me to the bar before, but I had always refused to go with her and some of her friends. I find it not good or not suitable for girls hanging out with that kind of place.

Even though I am already at my legal age, I just wanted to be pleasing to the eyes of Papa so I just stayed home after school instead. I don't know what's that they usually call "night life", this is the first time that I am going out of my own.

I don't care anymore if Papa will get mad at me.To hell with his manipulation, this will be the start of my rebellion. From this moment on, I will say goodbye to my old self, the good daughter, obedient and honest.

Instead of heading home, I turn the engine towards other direction not minding the bad weather.I don't even know a single name of a bar or any club.So, I just parked at the nearest convenient store to buy some soda and beer drinks for myself.

I bought one dozen beer in cans and some chips. I payed in cash to the counter.I had kept some paper bills in my wallet. I am a thrifty person so I had an abundant savings.

Although my father was a billionaire, I don't put that on my head and spend extravagantly.I still believe in the saying that frugality saves a person in times of need.

I drove the car away from the store and headed to my fave spot, where I can be in solitude. It's still early for bar hopping as what Jea usually mentioned when she invited me to go with her and I will just said that I can join her at six in the evening only.

When I reached my secret place, I off the engine and stopped the car, I looked outside to see the bursting and outpouring rain. I can't go out and view the setting of the sun. Anyway, Mr.Sun hid himself from me now.Only Mr. Rain sympathized of how I felt right now.

I am on the top view of the whole city. I discovered this vacant lot with an uphill view, overlooking the grandiose city when I was still sixteen years old when I missed to locate the exact address of Jea.Out of nowhere I just found myself being here.

It was also my first time to ride a motorbike that was a gift from Papa at my sixteen birthday.And that started how I love this place to visit from time to time; to breath and to relax. I felt a feeling of homage and tranquility in here than our huge mansion.

I wondered why this vacant lot has not been cultivated and being put up with buildings or even developed by the owner. Usually, at my free time, I brought my sketch pad here and draw my heart and mind out.

I breathe out a deep sigh and opened a can of beer.I drunk it all the way and throw out the empty can at the back of my car. I turned on my playlist at my built-in music player on my car.

I hummed my favorite sentimental music while tears kept falling on my face. I am a sad person ever since I was just a kid. Maybe, the loneliness I had inside me will never go away for the rest of my life. It's so difficult to be happy.Why does fate made me this way?

I munched some chips while drinking beer. I was not able to count how many cans did I consumed when I looked at the cans beside me there were three cans left. I just made a fake smile to myself. Yes, I did it. This was my first time to drink but it looked as though I was expert already.

I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to save me

This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy

I need somebody to heal

Somebody to know

Somebody to have

Somebody to hold

It's easy to say

But it's never the same

I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain

Now the day bleeds

Into nightfall

And you're not here

To get me through it all

I let my guard down

And then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to turn to

This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you

Now, I need somebody to know

Somebody to heal

Somebody to have

Just to know how it feels

It's easy to say but it's never the same

I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape

Now the day bleeds

Into nightfall

And you're not here

To get me through it all

I let my guard down

And then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

And I tend to close my eyes when it hurts sometimes

I fall into your arms

I'll be safe in your sound 'til I come back around

For now the day bleeds

Into nightfall

And you're not here

To get me through it all

I let my guard down

And then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

But now the day bleeds

Into nightfall

And you're not here

To get me through it all

I let my guard down

And then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

I let my guard down

And then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

I am lost of finding somebody to love. Someone who will reciprocate my love unconditionally.Someone who will love me not for a price value but for who I am. A love that will not dictate me on what to do but a love that will support me for all the things that I love to do.

I felt dizzy already with all the beer I drunk but still I can manage to drive. I looked at my wristwatch, it was already eight in the evening. I have been here already for two hours. Time passes by fastly. I turned on the engine and headed to the city.The rain stopped and there were few stars in the dark night sky.

I found a bar nearby so I hurriedly parked my car and get out of the car and headed inside the bar. Smokes, loud noises from party goers and dancing lights that illuminated the dark inside of the bar caught my attention as I entered inside.

I went straight to the bar counter and ordered myself a hard drink. I want this night to be remembered by me as a night of my freedom, my wild sweet escapade from being a good girl.This is a new version of myself, hard and fierce Joanna.

Just as I sipped my drinks while sitting in the tall chair in the bar counter, a tall dark man just came near the counter and ordered his drinks. I did not looked up to the man beside me, I focused my attention to the glass wine in my hand. I felt that the man who ordered drinks did not left but instead seated near me.

I did not bothered to look up at the man.I just heard a baritone voice whispered something in my ear that sent shivers down my spine.

"Hey, alone?can I be your partner tonight young lady?," he sexily said.

"Excuse me, can you please mister mind your business, I want to be alone!" I hissed to him without even looking up.

I felt that the man was not moved by my harsh words so I looked up to him only to see a gorgeous man smiling seductively at me. Our eyes met and were locked up for how many minutes. I was captivated by his blue eyes staring intently at me.

I was lost for words, too speechless to utter words. I don't know what to say to the man who was for the first time captured my attention.