Forever his girl

Chapter 5

Faiths pvo

I am fuming right about now. How dare he make a suggestion like that? Who does he think he is? The nerve. He thinks he can throw his money around, well I've got news for him. I am not for sale. Even if I am down in the dumps I still have dignity.

After packing I head downstairs with my luggage. When I am about to reach the door Hope stops me.

"Faith please reconsider. We need you. I need you and I love you. Please forgive and forget the past mistakes. Don't walk out of my life please I can't bear to loose you" she pleads.

I look her dead in the eyes and say "5 years ago I needed you and you still choose to walk away. You are so Hippocratic. Asking for something you refused to give. You were my everything Hope. My whole existence revolved solely around you for god sakes. We made a pact to always be by each others side, but I guess wealth mattered more to you and dad. Well I am not like that, I was never able to turn my back on the ones I love, but trust me I learned a hell of a lot on my journey to where I am now. I don't need you anymore. You taught me to be able to live without you,you see. I taught myself to be on my own, to fight my own battles and I'll be damned if I ever allow myself to need people as much as I did you and Michael. No if you'll please excuse me I have to go". I say.

I see a movement behind her and I turn to see the whole family standing there.

My dad has a heartbroken look in his eyes when he says " Faith please reconsider. This is your home. We are your family and family stick together. We forgive and we love each other despite everything else. I know you are hurting, I know I disappointed you, but I promise to spend every waking second trying to make it up to you. Just please stay. I can't change the past, but I promise to do better in the future. " he softly says.

I have to smile at his pathetic speech. I stop my bags and clap my hands in a slow torturing way. " Nice speech about family and all Michael but I am not interested. For so long all I ever wanted was for you to choose me for a while, for you to come back and hold me. Even if just for a while. I can only laugh now when I remember how pathetic and naive I was back then. You see daddy I stopped waiting for you to come back for me along time ago. I only wished you'd at least came back and seen what you'd done to my poor mamma. In a way I am actually glad you left you know. It taught me to deal with s**t and move on, it also taught me that peoples presence in you life is only temporary. I shouldn't hold and get my hopes up. Either people walk away from my life or die. That is the story of my life. Either way life taught me not to get attached cause I'm the end its all one big fat lie.

I see Radley reaching for my bag while smiling. " Come on crazy girl. That was quite a nice sermon, but it has lasted way too long. I'll give you a ride on my way to campus". He says.

"I don't need your charity thank you. I can handle it. I'll cope.I will grab a cab". I say.

He suddenly throws his head back and laughs, but than he goes all serious suddenly. " Don't worry crazy girl I know you are not a charity case. But you need a ride in order to get away from this environment which is clearly upsetting you. I am also driving now so you might as well hop in with me. Besides driving alone is not nice and you are all the entertainment I could ever need. There is never a dull moment with you. So Miss beautiful Faith please do me the honer of sharing my ride with me. I promise I don't bite crazy pants." He said still laughing and clutches his stomach.

"Fine. I will accept just cause I am in a hurry to get out of here, and because it's on your way. So come let's go". He ushers him out the door.

"Ai yai captain crazy pants. Let's go... See you guys later". He says to the others, and we are out the door.

He loads my luggage and we get in his red convertible. When we get in I can't help the smirk that form on my lips. I should've know he would have a convertible. They are all such show offs.I

I wait for him to get in and start the car. When we drive i turn to him and sarcastically say " nice car".

" Why thank you very much Miss crazy pants. I pride myself in my taste for fine things. Sooooo... Should I call you sister now or what. Since technically you are my sister right". He says with a playful grin on his face.

I ignore his question and look at him puzzled. " You do know that the stats of surviving and accident in a convertible are staggeringly low right? I ask.

He looks at me for a long ti!e clearly surprised. "So which textbook did you swallow? mmm sassy, funny,witty bold and smart to top it all off. My kind of girl. Are you sure you are gay though. I know of a few things is love to do with that smart mouth of yours". He playfully says.

I look at him dumbstruck " I didn't swallow any textbook. That is just common knowledge really, but the fact that you seem to think that me knowing that is astonishing makes me wonder if you are ever mentally for to be driving this deathtrap of a car. Maybe I should rather get out and call a cab from here" I say.

He looks at me and the next minute throws his head back and laughs loudly. In that moment he looks so carefree and almost like a normal person his age

O can't help but notice that he is hot as hell and when he smiles, even more so with those dimples. I look at him and think of how different he is from Bradley. Maybe in another life we could've even been friends, but this is what it is. And he is still a Lopez. That can never change and I should always remember.

"You do realize that you have no sense of humour what do ever. I was joking. You dear crazy girl are definitely an enigma, like a breath of fresh air". He silently laughs , than sighs.

"That is in no way funny. By the way my name is F.A.I.T.H. And I resent the fact that you find my humour dry by the way. Now please drive me to the nearest motel please. My day classes start tomorrow and since the dorms on campus are full I still need to find a place to stay and a job. So I don't need you to waste the only day I have at my disposal". I mumble.

" Your honesty is refreshing crazy girl, but there is no need to always have bring the claws out. Not everybody is out to hurt you. I promise I just want to help. You got dealt a shitty hand and people seem to forget that you are the way you are for a reason. You may ruffle up a few people, but I wouldn't change one hair on your pretty head. By the way I am sorry for your lose Faith. My condolences. I know how you feel, but hand in there beautiful. You are strong and you will make it. I have now doubt that you'll be just fine cause you are strong".

There is silence in the car for a few minutes before I say " You sure you wouldn't change anything? Even my horrid sense of fashion as your brother put it". I softly ask.

He sighs softy " Look Faith you are different, but there is nothing wrong with that. As long as you embrace who you are or fine. f**k what anyone says. Nobody asked for their opinion anyway. My brother has issues. Just ignore him... Look.

There's the motel". He murmurs. He drives to the motel and drops me off infront.

So I guess I'll see you around then then crazy girl. Remember if you ever need anything I'm only a phone call away. Doesn't matter what time it is or what I'm doing I'll always try to help. Hope the job and place search goes well" he says.

I mumble a short thanks and start walking.

" Take care crazy girl. See you on campus. ". he waves as he drives off.

I stare at him shocked. He really is very different from his idiotic brother. At least I could be civil towards him, even though he is a Lopez.

" Thank you for the ride Bradley. I doubt I will see you around, but thanks anyway." I say and leave with my bags in my hand.

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The rest of my day after booking in is spent looking for a job. It is now 5 in the evening and nothing. Not a single job opening anywhere.. Not even a freaken waitressing job. All of them were willing to hire until they heard or saw my last name. The first two times I had let it go with a shrug. Now it was becoming ridiculous. Why in the hell did they not want to hire me for goodness sakes.

Deep in my brain something that Bradley said registers to me. He said I WILL stay with him. I know he has power and I know he has the guts to block all my ways. It would just take him one phone call. That is how it works in the world with people who have money and power. Well to hell with him. I won't crumble that easily. I still have a few savings left to go by on.

You will not win that easily douchbag Lopez. I will not be defeated that easily.

I will find a job even if I have to go door to door after class everyday looking for one.

The next day I head to campus and sort out my tuition and take my new timetable for my classes and make sure everything is in order.

Wow!. This is really my first day attending college at the normal time other students do. I never thought I would really do this but here I am. It is packed. There are students almost everywhere. I can finally admit to myself that I am excited and happy to be here.

I suddenly feel panicked. What if I fail at this study and work thing? What if I don't find a job? What if I can't find accommodation? I can't stay at that motel forever. I have to find a way to survive. I don't want to become a drop out. I mama why did you have to put that stipulation in your will? But I will show you all that i will make it. I just have to.

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Two darn weeks and nothing. I simply cannot not find a job anywhere. I have however settled nicely into my classes and I have even made a few new friends. Though it was hard on the beginning it was irritating coz a lot of random people greeted me in the hallway. I was so confused and wondered why the were being so friendly toward a total stranger. I soon realized that they were not actually being friendly toward me per say. They thought it was Hope that they were greeting actually. Yip! My twin sister is Miss Popularity around here. People adore her for God knows what reason and thus they apparently automatically liked me as well. I have however managed to avoid the elite Lopez brothers and Hope. I felt pretty good, but O knew it would only be a matter of time. One can't be that lucky forever. I wish I could say that I am totally happy and settled, but the painful truth is I'm becoming worried. I am about to go broke and I'm jobless plus I haven't found a place to stay yet so I still have to keep on paying to stay in the Motel..

Just when I'm about to simply scream and throw in the towel I spot Bradley freaken Lopez. The i***t who I am sure is the one responsible for me not to finding a job that wants to employ me after hearing my last name.

I thought I'd just ignore him and be the bigger person, but no, this douchbag has gone to far. Toying with my future is not something I'll just let slide that easily. He will have to hear me today. Nobody messes with me just for the fun of it. I turn and head towards him ready for a fight. He will retract whatever he say about me. I am not his pawn to maneuver as he sees fit.

I pull him hard on his arm and He frantically spins around glaring at me.

"I hope you are pleased with yourself Lopez! So money does make the world go around doesn't it! I am not and neither will I ever be your f*****g puppet Bradley. Now undo what you did to make people refuse to hire me or so help me God I will rain hell on your life. I shout.