Forever his girl

Chapter 2

Faith's pvo

After the burial we came home for some refreshments and I thought I was finally rid of those people, but no... They had to come here too. To my mama's house. A place we all once called home... It was just me and mama's home now. After seeing to my guest I walked over to them and asked if they want refreshments. They all declined except Hope who asked if she could help with anything. I just rolled my eyes and said no. Than I heard my daddy say " You have to learn to let go of all that anger inside of you Faith. You have to learn to forgive. All that anger is going to eat you alive pumpkin".

Pumpkin..

I turn around while clapping my hands I say "Well well well he still remembers he has a daughter that he used to call pumpkin. Ha! Cut the bullshit dad! I am not interested in this shitty little family reunion of yours so don't even try. As for my anger.... I will never let it go cause it fuels me, keeps me going. Has kept me going when you were nowhere to be seen. When my mother was dying of a broken heart because she lost her daughter and husband at once.. So no!!! I will never learn to forgive because none of you deserve it. You are Hippocratic! What did you hope to gain by coming here today? You thought I would crawl back to you with my tail between my legs? Well NEVER! My mother raised me by her god damned self and she taught me to be a strong women and to take care of myself. So I don't need any of you, much less your fake sympathy. So you and your perfect little family can twiddle along and get the hell out of here, you were never welcome in the first place.

My father gasps.

"What's wrong daddy?" I ask sarcastically. "Are you shocked that your sweet little pumpkin has changed so much...?

Well deal with it! This is me! This is who you caused me to turn into!" I shout.

"Pumpkin I'm sorry I didn't come here to cause you anguish..." Dad says in a soft voice.

"Then why the f**k did you come!" I shout.

He sighs and in a small voice says " we cared about her to Hope, we are hurting as well, and besides we didn't want you to go through this alone".

" Bullshit! " I scream, and the whole room goes silent. "You never gave a s**t about mamma Michael. To you all she ever was is a toy to use until you got tired of her". I shout.

Everyone gaspes.

"Enough Faith!" My father shouts. "You will not disrespect me like that. I am your father regardless of what happened between your mamma and I. Besides you do not now the whole story". He says in a frustrated tone......

He sighs and drops His head.

His voices goes soft again. "If only you'd give me a chance to explain sweetheart. You will see things differently when I hear the truth and open your heart up to accept it". He says.

"No! I shout. I don't need and neither do I want your explanations, and besides you are five years too late". I say.

My dad begins to sob softly

. "Please pumpkin forgive me, we need each other now more then ever".

I laugh sarcastically. "You are one f*****g delusional person aren't you? I don't need you! I don't need your money! All I ever wanted was for you to give a f**k, which by the way you never did. Now you waltz in here and expect me to play happy-go family. Hell no! Go live your perfect life and leave me to lived my screwed up one. My life my not be as glamorous as yours, and even though I am alone at least there are no fake people and hippocrates in mine" I utter with a lopsided smirk.

Hope seems to finally have recovered and gained her witt.

" Faith please. "Don't speak to daddy like that. He loves you... We both love you and we have missed you. Please I need my sister back". She mumbles softly.

I turn and look her dead in the eyes and say "Finally the perfect daughter speaks. I don't even know how it is possible that you and I can share the same DNA, let along be twins. I am nothing like you. Do you hear me? You are weak and pathetic Faith. You left mamma and chose him so now I am choosing myself and MY mother's memory. So read my lips "princess"... I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU! So leave! You are not welcome here. I shout .

My dad speaks again. "Well that's too bad Faith... We are not going anywhere because if I remember correctly this I still my house". He stubbornly says.I

I stare at him speechless for what feels like hours but is barely more that 3 minutes.

"Fine then. I will leave as soon as I clean up here. Then you can have your perfect house with my mothers memories". I sigh. You know mamma was so wrong for believing there was still good left inside you. You are pure evil and I hate you! I wonder how you sleep at night knowing you f****d up your own daughter life?" I asked calmly.

My dad looks at me with eyes full of sadness. " I still love you Faith. With every beat of my heart. You are still my little girl and no matter what you will always be mine. He states simply.

"Too bad I am not a little girl anymore. I had one parent and I buried her today. You on the other hand are dead to me. Do you hear me! Dead! Now if you'd please excuse me I have guest to attend to". I mutter and with the wave of a hand I walk off.

As I walk away I can hear Hope sobbing uncontrollably and even thought I don't want to care, I can't help but feel a small pinge in my heart. Hope's cry always had the ability to pierce anyone's soul. But not with me anymore I remind myself sternly. She hurt me too much, and I want her to suffer knowing that I am so close and also do far.

Darn it. We were so close. She was my best friend. She was kind, shy, smart a hell of a lot witty at times. She had an angelic laugh that was so contagious.. You couldn't help but laugh with her. She was a very sickly child whilst we were growing up so all of us used to fuss over her a lot. She loved the attention thou. Actually I'm all honesty she thrived on the attention and no of us cared one bit, in fact we actually spoiled her a little to much of I have to admit. I could still remember the first time she got sick in the middle of the night. We had to rush to the hospital with her. She was just so still that I thought she was dead, and as I watched her lying so still in that hospital bed it felt as if my heart was breaking into a million pieces. I didn't want to lose her, she was the other half of me... My twin.. We were inseparable after that. We did everything together, we were even both planning on studying medicine together at the same university after high school... We had our future perfectly planned out... But... U can never plan your own future around someone else as you can wake up one day and find that their plans changed while you are still stuck in the same spot waiting for them to divert their plans back to you again.. And that is exactly what happens to me when Michael cheated on mamma and decided to leave her and marry another women. My whole word fell apart. My perfect parents. The marriage I had idolized since I was a toddler was all one big lie. It was all a farce. I begged Michael to stay, but he said he couldn't live a lie anymore. He said he was dying a little more everyday. I told him that his been with her for 18 years and he still look fine to me.. "Just try a little harder please daddy... Do it for your pu..." I had begged him. I later realised nothing I said would make him stay. He was set on his ways and his mind was made up. He asked me to come and stay with him but I said no. Hope and I would be behind staying with mamma, but she had other plans... She decided to go with him. She chose Michael.

She however begged me to come along, and said and argued that we could visit our mother as often as possible. She clearly didn't know Me as well as I thought she did. Me... leave my mamma all alone? Never! I just couldn't. Not after dad cheated on her.

The day they left I lost both my daddy, my sister and my best friends. The two people who I loved the most in this world and whom I thought felt the same about me. Guess I was wrong. I felt like the wind was knocked out of my sails. Heartbroken could not begin to describe how I felt. My whole world was suddenly turned upside down. I was so empty and hurt. Later I just felt hatred because they left without even so much as a second glance.p.I

Mamma gave me letters every week, sent by them. I just tore them up without opening any. I ignored their phone calls and when they came over i either locked myself in my room or made sure I wasn't at home, because they had betrayed us. My mamma tried to talk to me but I told her I didn't want to hear it, otherwise I'd leave and none of them would ever see me again. As time went by they became a fading memory of just two people I used to know.

Now here they are in our home. The home they abandoned, and Michael is claiming rights as if he wasn't the one who decided to leave this house first.

While tending to my guest who were all locals that Hope and I grew up with, I stole a side glance at Hope. It is amazing how much we look alike. No wonder people sometimes confused the two of us.

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