A man's will

Chapter 3 : Acceptance

Chapter 3 : Acceptance

Morning came as the melodic melody of the birds came in from the open windows of my working space , located a floor below my bedroom. I blinked heavily as I tried to get to my feet , and for the first time in a very long time I actually succeeded. I had absolutely no idea how the curtains and windows and who opened them and I wouldn't bother trying to find out , even though my inquisitiveness would eat at me after a while.

I was in some tight shorts just as I had been yesterday as I walked back to my room . Looking at the clock on the wall I saw it was 06:30 am. Which wasn't a time I usually woke up at. As soon as I opened my door the yearning of the screws tilting heralded my entrance , I looked at my bed as I passed through the doorway and noticed Lillian sleeping in my bed. My usual character would detest this action and would force her out of bed , but after what yesterday had put me through I didn't even bother let alone care about what was happening around me besides myself. I walked over to the bed and joined her in the covers yet I slept to the side while she was in the middle. There was about only one and a half hours till breakfast so it want gonna be wrong if I got to sneak in some more sleep now would it ?

When a maid knocked on the door she didn't bother to enter the room as I heard her subtle voice announce breakfast was ready. I came to my senses as i woke up and I noticed that Lillian and I had somehow shuffle to the middle. Her arms wrapped around my torso and her head against my chest. Thus was as close as I let anyone get near me and I was baffled by the sudden act of emotions this gave off. Not live but rather comfort it was soothing. But I definitely lived my space and breakfast was now ready.

" Lillian get up breakfast is ready , you don't wanna be late how do you " i said ina light voice while shaking her lightly. Her eyes slowly opened as she realised the close proximity we were in and quickly shuffled to let go of me. I chuckled lightly hoping she would realise what had happened. While letting her figure out what had happened I got up and took a quick shower before getting dressed and headed on down to get some breakfast before any of the food got cold.

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Later during the day I was out on the patio sitting on the chair with a small round table accompanying it. Just watching the sky and and the beautiful lush garden that lied under it. I was at peace but the guilt ,depression and frustration was slowly eating at me. The long silence only evoked very painful memories and even more painful emotions that aren't very frequent in my life. I looked down the patio and saw Lillian lying in the garden specifically the flowered patch eastward from where I was sitting. She seemed happy to be around such beautiful nature and for the first time in merely a week I had actually seen a smile form on her face. It was good to see that she was making peace with the rules and conditions of her new life. The only true and real question was , Am I going to accept this ?

I let out a forfeiting sigh and got up and off of my rear. I walked off the patio and out of my room in search for my father. I needed some time away from this ever busy world in order to pull myself together. I walked by his office since he'd always be there during this hours of the day. I knocked on the mahogany coloured door such as the others in this place and heard a faint muffled voice which was hard to make out , but since he had stated a voice I took that as a signal of approval to enter.

When I opened the door and walked into the room I saw my father looking at all the paperwork he had on his smooth brown desk. I closed the door behind me as I neared the table to sit on the opposite side of him where another chair resided. The cream white walls and the grey tiled floor contrasted in such an elegant manner , accompanied by the rays of light coming in from the two glass doors that led to a small patio of its own much similar to the design of my room and a few others too. When I sat down right by his right hand side he sent me a warm smile likely being his form of greeting as I likewise smiled back at the enigmatic man that sat besides me. His ocean grey eyes and short brown curly hair was whirling restlessly as he tried finishing the little bits of work he had left on his table.

After a short while he sighed in relief to see he was finally done and lied against his black leather cushioned seat. Wearing a black suit with the Evergreen crest on it. I glared at the badge for quite some time before pulling back to my waiting father. I sent him a gingerly smile and opened my mouth not sure if I should ask him or not

" Father , I believe me and Lillian need some time away from life and need to go somewhere remote to loosen up and forget about the world around us please ?" I asked with pleaded eyes and hoped he could read the emotions off of me like he was a mind reader

He pondered at the idea staring up at the ceiling likely taking the possibilities and what will affect this decision. His gaze finally met mine after a bit. He finally opened his mouth after carefully placing his words. " Okay I see that as a very good idea , it might get all the fuss of the wedding over and people forgetting about the recent event , it would also give you two some time alone and see where things can go off from here"

I winced at the mere mention of my so called relationship with my so called wife and I wanted it over and done with. I sighed at the acceptance of my offer and I was really hoping that this trip was going to be worth the time , effort and trouble as I thought it was. I got to my feet and decided to leave my father to his peace but he grabbed my hand and yanked me back onto my seat as he stared at me in sudden fury.

I stared at him with shocked eyes but the sharp and deadly stare his grey eyes shot at me wrapped me in a death ensuing gaze that had me trembling even all the way down to my spine. His lips parted slightly when I he had finally gotten a good grip at my hand " You will live this life wether you like it or not , amd you will be happy and live a long and happy relationship with Lillian !!"

He shouted and his eyes darkened with the realisation that he had lashed out at me for absolutely no reason , well at least I thought so. He let go of me and made a hasty escape and left the room. Leaving me by myself in the chair that was next to his , still I'm some sort of shock as to why what had happened , happened. I look at my wrist which was now burning a great furious red in the shape of my father's grasp. It was painful but yet the feeling was somehow chilling as to the heat that contrasted that feeling on my wrist.

I got up and tried going after my father but heard his sportscars engine break through the silence of the mansion in mere seconds , I ran up to the patio and noticed him driving away at a much to fast speed for a person his age to be doing. I let another sigh of resignation when I noticed he was definitely by the slightest of chance ever gonna be back anytime within the next 4 to 5 hours and I wasn't planning on waiting for him , at least not this time.