Bad-Boy

when i tried to push him away

[Leon]

I pushed away form the kiss I was in with one of the hotties guys in school and my mom had just interrupted me and i was not very happy about that so I just looked at her before I finally said"Yes mom what do you need" She didn't seem very sure what she wanted at the time but when she did speak it came out a little bit like this "Uh dinners done if you want to come down and eat"I looked at her with a okay look on my face.The say that i had to go back to school and I tried to avoid Devon cause he kissed me not that I hated it but I don't want people to know about us or what I wanted us to be but when I tried to talk to him i got speechless he sat down next to me in class and i put my headphones in my ears and put on Your special by NF and it was what mad me happy when I wanted to talk to him but couldn't do it.Then my ex's walked in the room and that is when I realized that Devon was my Ex's best friend  and that made it more complicated for me to be with him cause he could play me just like my Ex did it made me mad that i got up in the middle of class and walked out Devon came after me to ask me what was wrong I just kept walking cause I did not feel like talking to him I was mad enough and didn't need any more anger to trigger the killer that i have in me when he finally caught up to me and took me wrist and made me face him "Are you okay"He asked me I thought of a lie to tell cause I didn't think he was ready to here the truth about what was going on I finally answered him"My mum texted me to tell me she needed me so I was going to her"I lied hoping he would believe me  and thankfully he did "Okay then you need to go to her"he said as i walked away from him.Then the moment that I was out of his eye sight i went to my secret hid out in the woods where i could be alone,But suddenly I heard a noise from behind me so I looked up to see what or who it was and It was and It was my Ex Jack Nyland I looked at him and sighed"What are you doing here?"I questioned him while he walked over to me.The fact that he didn't answer me made me want to kill him cause this is my spot to go to get away when he finally answered me i wanted to slap him"Im here because you ran out when you saw me and i followed you to see why you ran out"he said and i looked at him"I ran out cause you hurt me when you left me and now your back and your friends with Devon"He sat down next to me and answered me"yea i'm friends with him hes my um"He stopped in the middle of his thought and that really made me mad "hes what?"I questioned him again 'Hes my brother"I stared at him for awhile before talking to him"Hes your brother and I fell for him"He stared at me like i just hurt him "Y-You what"I wanted to repeat myself but i knew I had just hurt him then he came closer to me and kissed me on the lips and it made me feel like i was back to gather again and that's when i realized that he told Devon that we were here and when seen him luckily he didn't see me I pushed Jack away from he and got up to greet Devon he looked like he was going to slap me but didn't"Why did you lie to me about your mom?"He questioned me as he walked over to his brother"I lied to you because I didn't think you would understand what i was going through"He looked at me then ant jack and than back at me"well tell me why or what i would not understand"I looked down at the ground and answered him with a shy voice"It was just that you are friends and or brothers with the guy that hurt me and made me feel like i was not good enough for him or maybe i did something wrong with him"He then looked at me and then slapped his brother and said that he owed me an explanation for why he left me Jack stood up and walked over to me and said"The reason that i left you was because I didn't want to hurt you but i can see that I did that anyways and I was not expecting you to move to my school after all of these years or for you to fall for my brother"He said as he looked down at the ground I wanted to cry but the fact that i didn't cry in front of people was making it hard to not cry cause he had to leave me not to hurt me but he did it anyways"You left me and I moved cause of my mum's job not knowing that Devon was his brother and then I get hurt all over again and now... now i am going to think about what is happening and then i'm going to get back to you about all of this"I said as i walked away from all of this going home to cry on my bed knowing that Jack was back in my life and it was going to hurt more and more every time i see him and knowing hes the brother of the boy that i want to be with. Then my mum came home and saw that i was sad and started to ask questions about it I just looked at her and told her"Mom Im gay and the boy that i want is my Ex's brother"She looked at me like she was going to cry"Honey why did you hide this from me I dont care if your Gay its up to you if thats what you are"I looked at her and smiled before braking down in tears again.