ARIA
When I make it home, I lose my will to bake.
I just feel so depressed.
I throw myself on the bed and stare at the ceiling until my eyes start to burn. I can't stop replaying that scene over and over again in my mind until it feels like I'm literally going crazy. The worst part is that every time the memory of Ryder hugging that girl crosses my mind, I feel a stab of pain right in my chest.
It's pathetic because I know we could never work so this possessiveness and jealousy have no place inside of me, and I blame him for my feeling this way because he's the one stalling the rejection.
But I feel this way regardless and there's not much to be done. I'm having wildly dangerous thoughts in my mind, and the only thing that reassures me and makes me feel a little better is when I i
