The Unloved Female Alpha

The Big Day

I woke up early today, couldn't sleep, nerves I guess, in a few hours I will be one of the first female Alpha's, first in our pack, first pregnant Alpha. I'm nauseated, I think it's the nerves, but it could be the pup. Keisha told me every Alpha in the country RSVP'd, except the one she didn't invite. I decided to go down to the training field and practice a litte before I am forced into some godforsaken dress my mother has picked for me.

My fist makes contact with the punching bag, and I swear I saw my mates face looking at me. I hit the bag harder and harder, punching and kicking it until the bag is shredded and I hear a small cough behind me.

'You wanna talk about it Princess?" I heard my God Father say. 'What's there to talk about, Just about to become one of a the few females to lead a pack, pregnant and rejected, Not really the best conversation topics Unc' I say, noticing tears building up. I punch the remnants of the bag for good measure. 'Well, how I see it, you were born to be Alpha, noone has taken to training like you, none of our warriors can defeat you, noone knows the job like you, you picked a strong Beta, your father and I will be here to guide you, and as for the pup, well, He will be loved and protected at all costs. If you don't want your mate around, then he won't be. One day though, your pup may want to know him, and you will want him to have that opportunity.' He said, in what felt like a lecture but wasn't. 'Come on, If I don't get you inside soon, your mother will skin me alive' he said grabbing my hand and patting it, letting me know everything would be okay.

By two o'clock I was showered, rested and being forced into a silver dress with the back cut out in the shape of a wolf. Some i***t ordered me silver Louboutin's with a six inch heel, as if walking in heels was my forte'. Some how I managed not to fall flat on my face, even though I felt as wobbly as a newborn baby deer.

At four pm, my father came to see me, 'Baby Girl, it's time to start, I love you, I'm so proud of you and I will see you down stairs' he said, closing the door behind him. I took a deep breath and felt a familiar feeling creeping up, not now, I thought, but it was to late, within seconds I was in pain, He picked the exact moment the ceremony was to start to screw some w***e, part of me wondered if it was intentional, pay back for not being invited. Of course he doesn't know he didn't break the bond properly, but this betrayal, on the day of my Alpha ceremony will not go unpunished I tell myself.

I felt my mother's arms around me, see the tears swarming in her eyes, she knows exactly what I am going through, she sits beside me until the pain goes away. 'I've learned to expect it at night, I can usually keep the pain away, but I wasn't prepared, I'm sorry mom' I whisper. 'You have nothing to apologize for, when you're ready we'll clean you up and head down stairs' she said. I have never loved her more than in this moment.