LOVE & DISOBEY

THE UGLY TRUTH.

EVARA.

He spanked me! He actually did. And I enjoyed it ! Am losing my mind.

" Never forget it," You are a hybrid," I feel him freeze beside me. " How'd -" " Well, I am your mate. I have this weird mark on my back," he sighs like a heavy weight has been lifted. My hands caress his face. " I have carried this all my life. And I can't control it on a full moon," I hug him worriedly. " Should I worry you'll pounce on me," I feel him smirk. " Have controlled myself well since you danced with that jerk. I wanted you there and then, but I held you and realized you are only mine to gaze at. "I am thankful he couldn't see how much I am blushing.

He then grunts, I hold him closer, suddenly feeling overprotective. He laughs, " Mate, it's the full moon it hurts me.Because I am resisting," " What can I do to help?" " Kiss me Babe," and I do.

However a minute later the monster takes over. He pins me on the floor and kisses me everywhere from my mouth to my exposed neck. He shouldn't kiss this good. I don't notice him unzipping my dress, and frankly, I don't care.

Clothes at the moment feel like a barrier. Which I must rid myself of if I must be close to him and I allow him to. This is crazy. But I haven’t lived much. I want to live with this. My mother wouldn't be disappointed anymore. I take his clothes off too and chuckles at my impatience. We were now bare. Skin to skin. I could feel him... all of him. We silently laid on one another. This is fast, but boy, I am not complaining. Am crazy enough to give myself to him as we speak.

So this was how wolves felt on a full moon. It's humanly impossible to stop him. I want him, and he too, given the evidence beneath me. He kisses me slowly. " Have laid with a woman before," for some reason, it hurts. " Two, actually... repeatedly, " " I haven't been touched before only kissed once. And those are our past this is us," he kisses the top of my head. " My name-" " No talking," I tell him overcomed with feeling of lust. And he kisses me , with everything while whispering words I hadn’t heard before. I moan when he cups my breasts and suck on them. He knows what he is doing. I think when one of his two fingers enters me and we both moan simultaneously. " Heaven is not what you feel right now. Nothing can word this," he pumps in and out of me. And in no second I come undone beneath him.

He kisses me like a starved manic and I reciprocate. It's hard not to when someone kisses you like this. In a second he is in me. I cry out and he kisses me again whispering words of reassurance. " Babe- s**t am not suspose to be f*****g you on our first day- f**k. I don't want to stop. I don't have it in me to stop," with my arms in his built back I say in a hoarse voice. " You have the rest of your life to amend this. Plus what the use am no longer a virgin since you kinda broke me," he chuckles, " I'll go easy on you mate," he says and then starts pounding on me.

" f**k-" " Ah," am not of earth. Is that even a planet. Because this man just took me to paradise and I don't want out I can't.

He thrusts a few more times before pulling out and come with him. There something intimate about it. And am not the only one who seems to think the same as he licks my face. But then he stiffens on top of me.

" Are you alright?" I ask concerned, pulling him closer to me. " Have seen those earrings somewhere ," he says. And I couldn’t help but wonder if his regretting this moment with me. " Do you regret this?" I ask in a small voice a bit scared... a bit insecure.

" You don't get it, Evara," it takes me a second to register he used my name. " How do you know me Mate. Am pretty sure that's cheating," I nudge him playfully kissing him on the lips that he doesn’t reciprocate.

" It's me... Ethan," I stiffen. " Evara it's really me," then as if it's only now that I comprehend the similarity, he awfully sounds like him.

Then as if to mock me further. Some wolf enters the room and switch on the lights. I look away as he mutters an apology shutting the door. Slowly I look up. And everything in me shatters.

"What kind of joke is this?" I demand my voice rising and falling. " You know I could swear I asked the same thing," he replies with a sour expression, masking it with a chuckle. I frown, getting up and cover myself. I forcefully have to stop myself from looking at him. At the body I worshipped a while ago. The physical pain intensifies with every reveal. I slept with my brother!

"You did this?" I strongly accuse. " You've done nothing but hurt me... and this.... you made me sleep with you," I watch his face go from guilty to mad. " Does it hurt you?" he says, stepping closer. " Disgust you perhaps? Does it make you wanna puke or gauge your own skin," I break.

"What did I ever do to you!" I hit his bare chest with all my strength but it is not enough to make stumble back. " YOU BECAME MY MATE!" he shouts holding me with both arms tightly with nothing but disgust.

" You've-" " Always known yes... that's why I stayed away. The mere sight of you disgusts me. Why did you have to be born," I flinch at his words. ' Why did you have to be born' have heard them thrice from mom. I just never thought ill ever hear him slap me back with them. Then as if he sees me for the first time. his eyes calm. They are pain filled now.

" Have kept you away since then. Imagine finding out the person you've been waiting for your whole life is your sister," he laughs mocking himself and me in the process. " Then today on your birthday-" am suprised he even knew about it. " I thought I'd keep away. I was leaving today itself but you came here. The one place I knew you'd never come. And when I saw you.... your scent I that mask and dress... I thought the moon goddess had decided to have mercy on me. But no was this you ," am frozen by his words.

" It's my fault ," I say in a quiet voice looking at me. " Have had to carry this for years and now it's your turn. Welcome ... sister or should I say mate? the ugly truth is out," I watch him leave out the door. And I break into a million pieces that will never be mended.