LOVE & DISOBEY

MATE?

Ethan.

" You annoyingly beautiful woman, you get under my skin. Sometimes I wanna kill you but I have to remember that I will be killing myself. I hate you."

I told her in a different language, one she wouldn't understand like the f*****g coward I am.

Yesterday she was treading on thin line with me... these days she has been.It was torture watching her walking around with those tiny shorts that exposed her legs. But where I lost it was when she took off her shirt. I could swear the beast in me purred and almost got out. She might not be aware of how dangerous I might be but it does not excuse her of her actions.

I feel bad everytime I fantasise about her. And no. Not in a way a brother should. In my imagination she's under me. And that came to life when I had her pressed last night. Her feel... fuck... that feel of her skin on mine, felt like heaven on earth. Like posion I could not resist.

I was this close to losing control and it was the last freaking straw. I won't go back there. No one knows of the real reason I distanced myself from her. Rarely to I call her by her name but everyone around me for some reason always seems to do.

" You coming?" Jacob asks through the phone. " Like I'd miss it," every full moon a party is hosted. In the deeper parts of the forest. Far away from her. On a day like this I won't control it. Not today. Not when I know what today means. Does it mean she will find out too?

I don't know I don't want to.

I just want to keep a huge distance between us.

And everywolf knew what today was. The full moon was no joke. It intestified everything. From our primal nature to lust.I won't be able to control it tonight. So am looking for distraction, anything, a quick realese to rid me of her touch. Her forbidden touch.

EVARA.

" You look tense," Annie says. I haven't told her about what I was told. Have been trying to enjoy this day as much as possible with her for two reason. So she doesn’t notices my anxiety. And if the prospect of finding him fails, I know I spent this day to the fullest.

" It's my first party and am nervous about-" " Meeting him," she finishes for me.She caressing my hair. " A mate loves... protects with his life... I hope you find that because you deserve it," I hug her.

" You are gonna ruin the makeup you spent alot of time on," she laughs." It's not my fault you are a crybaby," I roll my eyes nudging my arm.

All I wanted way a mate. At least it could prove that indeed I was a werewolf. Because sometimes I feel human. I run like a human. Eat like one. And my mother glares at me with disappointment every time I look at her.

" Let's run," I nod scrutinising myself in the mirror one more time. I looked unrecognisable in a tight black fancy dress and light lipstick. Grabbing a mask I followed Annie out into the car.

" No sign of Ethan," I frown. " As if he ever shows up when I need him," not after what transpired the last time. I doubt he wants to see me.

My heart beats beneath me with every meters we make away from home. I hope I find him it's only 8 30pm. My parents are still in their business trip. Too busy to warn their daughter about staying out too late. They won't protect me but my hidden saviour will. I think that's why I am not scared. I know he'll protect me. Like always.

I entertain the idea of him being my mate for a minute. Could he?

No? he would know that something bad would happen if he doesn't come to me before midnight.

By the time we arrive our destination it's already nine. I put on my mask as instructed and follow Annie. On entrance three wolves are on each other's faces. Other's are in each other, literally to be specific. I look away embrassed and suprised.

" It's full moon. No has control over themselves. The moon does, we are like puppets to it," I look around and I only get more shock. " I hope you'll be okay own your own," she says looking at somewhere- or is it someone. I follow her gaze and it lands on a grey haired man with a sun mask. He's looking at her.

" You lucky wolf," she blushes. " I'll be fine. Go. Although I have a feeling that I won't see you tonight," she hands me the car keys and goes to him. I sigh. They then play my favourite song and I couldn’t help it. it calls to me.

I let myself loose, knowing no one can recognise me in this mask. My hips move and after some minutes I notice eyes on me.

it only fuels me and I dance like am never gonna dance again.

Someone comes behind me and I allow it. Today am not her. The girl that would allow this behaviour. But before I can grind myself on him he he ripped away from me and am pressed to a body that sends shivers down my spine.

" You have a death wish love. You might not know this but no one touches what is mine," my whole body shivers. " Mate?" I say in a low voice too afraid to ask. His eyes change to mystic grey and I swallow. " Mine," he growls and before I can protest or say further his lips are on mine.

They are rough, punishing, sweet and I can't stop myself. I reciprocate. This means am saved from whatever doom that was to hit me. And all I had to do was dance.

He could be my new addiction. One a doctor can't treat. I let it consume me. " Have waited- I thought she- But you here proves the moon goddess is merciful," he says incoherently kissing my whole face without removing my face.

He takes my hand and leds me to a room. A dark room. My heart thunders. " Don’t be scared. Come on feel this," and I do when he touches my hands. " This is surreal," I say. I tense when he talks off my masks. What if he doesn't like what he- " It's dark mate.I can't see you only feel and sense," my body relaxes at this.

" You are mine forever... and oh I have to punish you for earlier," in a second he has me bent. " No one touches what's mine."