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AMARIS
At first, I am still hoping that all these is just a dream, that I will soon wake up and everything will go back to normal.
Yes. I've dreamt of being a werewolf, of finding a mate and living like how the books i've read states. But these now, is totally different. I already have a mate which I don't even know how it happened, and he is even the Alpha King, how am I supposed to take it all? How was I as a Luna Queen? Why do I keep seeing people I know from my previous life yet they aren't the same person I used to know?
Am I dead? The thought had me straightening up and started to pace the room.
Did I die and my soul suddenly go to another persons body?
I stared at myself from the mirror.
But I am still the Amaris that I know.
I can't help but think of how things turned-out like this again.
If I am the Luna Queen? Then I am also a werewolf? I also have a wolf? But how come she had not shown herself to me yet?
Hey!
Are you there?
Can you make yourself known if you are?
"Urgggh!! This is crazy!! Now, I am even talking to myself! I lost my sanity already, help me Oh Moon Goddes!" and I can't fight back the tears that's streaming down my face anymore.
If only someone could clear things up. Then maybe, it will not be this hard to accept.
I slumped myself on the floor, not minding how awful I could be. My heart is constricting. I burried my face on my palms as I continue to weep my bewilderment.
Suddenly, the door to the bedroom opened by a strong force that I think it is almost separated from its hinges.
"My Queen," entered the worried Alpha Farrell. He walks towards me and lifts my face with his right hand while his left hand snaked my body to pull me close to him.
"What happened? Are you okay?" he asked, searching for anything wrong at my body.
The concern and care and love in his voice had me more welling up that I was practically sobbing on his chest. There is a calming and soothing sensation from inside me having him this close that's why my arms finds its way to hug him.
He slowly lifted me up from the floor and carried me to the bed. He put me down in it and wiped my tears away with his thumbs. His eyes never leaving mine.
"Everything will be okay My Queen. Do not force yourself to remember anything. It is making you more confused. I will find a way to help you get back to normal, but please, dont be like this. I hate seeing you suffer like this," he pleaded as he kept caressing my cheeks with his thumb before pulling me into a tight embrace.
"I am sorry. I just dont know to handle all that is happening. This is just too much."
"I know, and I am sorry for not being able to protect you,"he said, his voice full of regret.
"No, no, no. Thats not what I mean," I dont like the sudden feeling that crept my heart.
And just then, my stomach growled and I know he heard it too. I blushed beet-red. A smile broke- out of his lips.
"I think your friend is making itself known. That was loud," he said and I smiled before bursting out laughing in a matter of seconds and he laughed too.
"Well, I cant help it. You reek of the food and it smells delicious," I said to him when I composed myself from laughing to much.
His smiling state slowly died down and his eyes turning darker and my eyes widened when I realized what I just said.
"The food smells delicious, I mean," I defended.
"Maybe we could go now so I can judge wether you are a good cook or not," I teased him and he smiled before standing right up and pulling my hands towards the door.
"You loved everything that I cook for you before."
"Hmmmn," I just hummed.
The food is already prepared on the table. He pulled a chair for me before sitting down himself.
I was about to scoop some food for me but he beat me to it.
"Wow! You really cook good huh!," I said as I stuffed food on my mouth. Now, I felt more how famished I am.
"This is delicious," I cant help myself from praising his cooking skills.
When I look at him, he is just staring at me and not eating.
"Hey! Why are you not eating?"
"I feel full just looking at you eating," he said in a low voice.
Its embarrasing how he could easily make me blush from everything he says.
I insisted of cleaning the dishes when we are done eating. He sits on the stool while watching me finish the task. I told him to just wait on the living room but he is persistent not to leave me alone.
We go to the living room when im finished and sit beside each other.
Their is a long moment of silence as no one speaks. My mind is wandering again from how my life changed instantly after lossing my consciousness.
I embraced myself and rub my palms to my arms as goosebumps formed after feeling the cold gush of winds from the still opened window of the living room.
He stood up silently and proceed to close the windows and blinds before sitting back beside me.
"How was I as a mate?" I asked him to broke the stillness of the house.
He just turned to me and stared at my questioning eyes.
"I mean, am I a good mate you? And a good Luna to the pack?" I probed.
"My Luna, you are the best Luna ever. And I could not ask for any other mate if I can, because you are simply amazing and perfect."
"But now everything has changed. I dont know how to start and where to start because I felt like im new to all of these."
"Your mind might have forgotten My Luna, but I know, your heart never changed and forgotten."
"I will try my best, but I cant promise to be like the old me."
"As I've said My Queen, I know, your heart is still the same and in a matter of time, you will remember everything and all will go well as it is before," he continue to reassure me.
" I think we better go to bed so you can rest. Tomorrow, the pack doctor will come to check on you. We dont need to go to the packhouse, so you can relax and wander around."
"Okay," I nodded before standing up to follow him.
"The closet is over there. You can go to prepare your clothes." He pointed at the door of the walk- in closet before going inside the bathroom.
I choose a pair of pajama after some time of looking around the closet. I dont know if he will sleep on the same bed with me.
I took the clothes with me and go out to check if he is finished already. And he is. He has a towel wrapped around his waist and although he has towel dried his hair, there are still droplets of waters falling down to his bare top. I diverted my gaze and walked towards the bathroom without talking.
The feeling of the warm water on my body calmed my still stiff muscles and I stayed under the shower for a little bit longer.
I changed into my pajamas and dried my hair with the hair blower that I found in one of the drawer in the bathroom.
He is already lying on the bed when I go out of the bathroom. I stayed quiet for a bit, wondering if I will go and lie on the other side or not.
"Hey, come on," he tapped the empty side of the bed without even looking at my direction. Im still amazed at how he could easily sense me whenever Im near him.
I walked to around and lie on the bed. It is huge that we might not touch each other during sleep even without putting any barriers in between us.
"Dont worry, im not going to do anything to you unless you ask me too," he said teasingly that had me blushing again. His eyes are closed but there's a smile on his lips.
"Such an ass," I hissed at him and he chuckled. I lie down and turn my back to him.
I dont know if I will be able to sleep knowing that he is so near me. I am not used to sleeping with someone even when I was younger. And he is not just a someone for the record, he is my mate.
I felt him move closer and pulled me towards him. I felt some electric waves from where his skin touched mine and I gasped.
"Sleep My Queen," he said in a sleepy voice near the crook of my neck that had me growing goosebumps all over my body.
I braced myself and tried to relax. His touch is relaxing to be true. But having him this near awakens new sensations in me and that is scaring me. He may be my King but Im not yet ready. Im still the old Amaris, kissed only once by Draven, and thats it, everything is new to me.
Not long and I can hear Alpha Farrell's even breathing. I tried to remove his hand on my waist but he just pulled me even closer.
I let out a sigh and closed my eyes, finally letting sleep took over me.
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There you go!
Sorry for the days of not updating, been sick for the past days but feeling better now.
Thank you for patiently waiting?
Love,
Yzel❤️
- Writer
