Broken

Chapter Nine What's Going On?

His hips thrust forwards making his hard member push inside me. I grit my teeth together to stop from screaming in pain. Why does this hurt so much? All of my friends talk about how great it feels and how no amount of happiness can compare to the pleasure of this. I can tell you right now my happiness is way better than THIS... 

He thrusts inside me as he guides my hips with his hands. After a couple of minutes, he gets off and moves me off him. 

"That was great, baby. Do you enjoy it?" Mikey asks as he zips his pants back up. 

"Yeah. You were great," I lie as I smile back at him. Just then the bell rings for us to go back to class.

"Well you better go. Don't want my baby to miss any class now do we?" Mikey leans over me to open my door for me. 

"No, I guess we don't want that," I say back as I climb out of the truck.

"Same time tomorrow? I'd love to spend more time with you."

"Yeah, I guess so," I close the door and walk back into the building without looking back. I think about the events that have happened for the rest of the day. Did that really just happen? Am I going to meet him again? I mean he does love me and he wants to marry me. He really wants us to be together so why wouldn't I? Maybe I love him too. 

For the rest of the year, we meet every weekday at lunch to spend some time together and end up doing it shortly after. Even on my seventeenth birthday, we hung out. He's bought me new dresses to wear along with new undergarments. He says he wants me to look my best and I agree. I want to look good for him too. I've fixed my hair and done my makeup every day for school because I know I'll get to see him. We don't talk at school or text when I'm home though. He said it will bring too much attention to us. I guess I agree with that too, considering Danny will flip if he finds out Mikey is my boyfriend. I wouldn't want to do anything to jeopardize this relationship. After all, we are in love. We say we love each other every time we meet on our lunch break. After we do it I have to leave to go to class so we don't really get to talk much after that. I miss him when he's not around. 

I have a month until summer break. Mikey says we will hang out over the summer, that I can sneak out late at night and walk to the corner of the street and he'll pick me up. He said we can just go around the block so I can get back before anyone notices I'm gone. He's sweet like that. He doesn't want me to get in trouble. I fall for him more and more every time I see him. He puts a smile on my face. 

After a long weekend, it's Monday morning and I'm so excited to see Mikey today. I have a feeling today is going to be a great day. He said on Friday he's going to have a huge surprise for me on Monday. Mikey said I'll never be able to guess what he's got in store for me. I'm so excited! He's never surprised with anything so this will be a first for us. I can't wait to see him again. After I shower and get ready I put on one of the dresses Mikey got just for me. He told me to wear it today.  It's a beautiful white dress with half sleeves that hugs my body tightly with a mid-thigh length. Mikey said he wants me to wear a lot of makeup so I really stand out. I always go for a natural look but I think today will be a big day for Mikey and I so why not go all out. 

I can't sit still the whole drive to school. It wasn't far but the anticipation was killing me. I need to see my boo as soon as possible. As soon as the car stops, I throw the door open and jump out. 

"Lana," My mother scolds. 

I turn around to see a knowing look from my mother. 

"Sorry, mom. I love you," I say as I lean into the SUV to give her a hug. 

"I love you too baby girl. Have a good day at school," Mom squeezes me tightly as the whispers in my ear. 

"I pull away from her as I say, "I will. Have a good day at work. Or at least try to," I smirk at her knowing she has a lot of work to do today. Mom rolls her eyes as I close the door. I walk towards the school entrance. I see everyone laughing and whispering to their friends as they stare at me. Seems like a normal day with everyone talking about me. I'm not the most popular person in the world so I'm used to everyone talking about me like I'm trash. I don't care though. I have Mikey and that's all that matters. 

When I get to the cafeteria I see all of my friends Sandra and Rachelle in line for breakfast. And of course, Ashley is there. We don't really speak to each other but we have the same friends so It's kind of hard to avoid her.  I scan the room to see if I can spot Mikey anywhere while I walk towards the line. He's nowhere in sight. That's odd for him. Normally he goes to the cafeteria every morning to meet up with his football buddies. I see all of them here but not Mikey. As I reach the girls they stop talking when they spot me. 

"Hey, guys," I turn to Rachelle, "How was your weekend?" 

"Probably more boring than yours," Rachelle looks me up and down and then turns back to the girls as they start laughing. 

"What's that supposed to mean?" I question, my brows furrowed in confusion. 

"Oh, nothing. Just thought maybe you had some fun. That's all," Rachelle, Sandra, and Ashley all laugh in sync. 

"I don't get what is so funny," I say as I cross my arms over my chest. 

Ashley steps forwards, "Look, Lana... Everyone knows you've been hooking up with Mikey. You even made a video for everyone to see how nasty you are." 

"I don't know what your talking..."

Ashley cuts me off, "Oh shut up Lana. You act like your so innocent. You think you're better than all of us because we're open about what we do when you're doing the same thing.  You're such a hypocrite!" By the time Ashley finishes, she's standing in my face. 

Sandra steps up to be at Ashley's side, "She's not worth it Ashley. Let's just go. I don't want to be near this w***e any longer." Rachelle, Sandra, and Ashley walk away from me. I watch as they sit down at the popular table beside the football players. 

Just then, Mikey walks into the cafeteria. My mood automatically goes up. He looks so cute in his orange hoodie. He starts bro hugging the boys and glances my way. I give him a smile but he looks away from me. What's wrong with him today? Even though we don't talk at school we still share flirty glances, wink, and smile at each other. But today, he just looked at me and went back to talking to his friends. I turn away from him to face the front of the line. Maybe Danny is around and he doesn't want him to see us staring at each other. That's the only logical thing I can think of. 

After taking my seat at one of the tables, I look over to see Mikey taking a seat beside Ashley. It's the only seat left at the table so I know he's not doing it on purpose. I casually look up at him when I take a bite of my pancakes. I know some people would say I'm being a stalker but I'm not. He's my boyfriend. I'm allowed to stare at him. I watch as he slides his hand under the table. Ashley jumps for a second before she turns to look at Mikey. He smirks at her before she leans back into her chair. 

I push my plate to the side and lay my head on my arms. Now I can see underneath the table. Mikey has his hand on Ashleys' thigh as he moves his hand towards her private area. I watch as he starts rubbing her area through her pants. How could he!? He's my boyfriend! He knows how I feel about him. I love him. How could he do this to me? I can feel the tears building up in my eyes. I can't hold myself back any longer. I stand up as quickly as I can, sending my chair sliding into the person behind me. 

"Watch what you're doing slut," He yells at me as I walk towards Mikeys' table. 

"What the hell are you doing Mikey?" I yell at him. The cafeteria goes silent as people turn to watch the drama unfold. 

"I don't know what you're talking about," Mikey says all nonchalantly. 

"You're touching her while I'm sitting right there. How could you cheat on me like that?"

"Cheat on you? Lana, we're not together. We never were," Mikey acts like he's really confused but I know he's full of it.

"You're lying! You told me we were going to get married. You said we'd be together forever!" I scream as tears start flowing down my face. 

"Okay that's enough, Lana," Mikey stands up to face me, "We were never together. Yeah, we f****d like crazy but that doesn't make us a couple."

"But you said..." 

"I said a lot of things to keep you around sweetheart. Honestly, I thought you were smart enough to catch onto my bullshit but I guess not." The other boys start laughing and cheering on Mikey.

"How can you say those things and not mean them?" I'm so taken aback by his words. I start replaying everything in my head over and over. I can't think of when he started lying to me.

"I wanted an easy lay. All I had to do to you was tell you you're pretty and you'd give it to me just like that," He chuckles and shakes his head, "I mean you weren't the best lay I've ever had but that p***y of yours sure is tight." 

"I hate you!" I scream as my tear begin to fall. I run out of the cafeteria and straight into one of the bathroom stalls. I lean up against the bathroom wall. As the tears flow harder I slide to the floor. I hug my knees tightly to my chest as I rock back and forth. I hear a couple of girls laughing as they enter the bathroom.

"She's so pathetic," One of them laughs out. 

"Yeah I know right. I can't believe she f***s someone just to get a couple of compliments," One of the other girls says. 

"Oh, did you see the video?" The third one says.

"No. Oh my gosh, there's a video?" She laughs out.

"Yes! Here check it out," I hear her sit her purse on the counter while she looks through her purse, "Ahhh here it is. I hear the video play and recognize the voice that belongs to Mikey. I clasp my hand over my mouth to keep the sobbing sound from alerting the girls on the other side of the stall. After several nasty comments later, the girls leave the bathroom.  

The video is out... EVERYONE has seen THAT video... Just breathe. Everything is going to be okay. Just get through the day and then everything will be in the past. Someone will do something even crazier than I did and then my video will be in the past. 

I spent the rest of the day keeping my head down. I ignored all the comments made in my direction, all of the snickering, all of the gropings some of the guys did to me. When the final bell rings I let out a sigh of relief. I feel like this day would never end. I decide to walk home instead of taking the bus. I don't want to be around anyone right now.  I pack up my book and gather loose papers and stick them in one of my notebooks. I wait until the classroom is empty before I leave the room. When I get to the hallway, there are only a couple of students walking out of the front door. 

I feel relief wash over me again. That relief was quickly washed away when I see Mikey leaning against my locker. 

"Why are you here? Came to humiliate me some more," I say as I push Mikey to the side and open my locker door. I start putting my book in my locker as Mikey start 'explaining' himself.

"Lana I had to do that. Danny was catching on to us. Now that he thinks it's all over we can continue where we left off," His hands fall on my hips as he turns me around to face him. 

"You really hurt my feeling Mikey," I pout as I cross my arms over my chest. 

"Then let me make it up to you," He starts kissing my jawline, all the way down to my neck. I giggle when he hits my tickle spot, "Come on baby. Let's go somewhere a little more private. He grabs my hand to lead me to the gym. We head back to the boys' locker room. He leans against one of the tables as he pulls me into his body by my waist. 

"I missed you so much," He whispers in my ear as he nips at my earlobe. 

I wrap my arms around his neck, our lips touch just as the door opens to the locker room. I try to pull away but Mikeys' grip tightens on my waist. 

"Well well... Look what we've got here," Vincent smirks as he walks over. The other boys walk over with him. 

"Step aside Vincent. I'm first by the book rules," Kyle comes into view. 

I look back to Mikey, "What's going on?" 

"They just want to see what you are like. That's all," Mikey turns me around so my back is pressed against his chest. He still holds only my waist as Kyle and the others approach me. 

"You're scaring me," I try to pry Mikey's hands off of me but I couldn't. 

"Why would you be scared of me when you've been in love with me for years," Kyle grabs my thigh but I slap his hand away. 

Kyle draws back and slaps me across the face as hard as he can, "Now why would you stop me now. I know you've thought about me touching you, going down on you, f*****g you. Now all of your fantasies are going to come true. Hold her."