The Undecided Love

"THE UNIVERSE DOESN'T LIKE YOU"

Ovie was indeed having lots of fun. How did I know? Well, I never blocked him on social media, especially i********:, and still saw his posts and no matter how much I wanted to ignore them, I still took a peek and saw what he was always up to; movies, pool, amusement parks and hanging out with friends. This started giving me motivation to try and move on, since he did so easily.

Eniola was right, he didn’t care if I was maybe dying from heartbreak.

School was to resume in two weeks and Ovie would be back here and I was definitely not ready. I needed to get over him as quickly as possible, so I took the first step: blocking him on all social media. The more I see whatever he does, the more I’m going to be depressed.

Step two, call my friends so that we’d make the most of the weeks they still had left of their holiday. I dialled Andrew’s number and requested that I, Ife and him hang out later in the day, which he agreed to. They were planning on going to the movies to watch ‘I.T’ and wouldn’t mind if a third person came along.

Since the movie was going to start in two hours, I found my way to the bathroom to take a shower and when I was done, I picked out my outfit and tied my braids up. I definitely looked like I didn’t care about my big shirt and big sweatpants, but I was okay with it. The real couple are going to be having fun anyway and not mind my existence.

“Guys!” I waved at them from the entrance of the building as I saw them from across the road and they waved back, looking sideways to ensure the road was clear before crossing.

“Wow, you definitely didn’t think this through.” Andrew voiced out as he eyed me from head to toe, giving my outfit a rating.

“Does this face look like it cares at this point?” I pointed to my poker face and sipped the smoothie I managed to buy immediately I got there while waiting for them.

“Sometimes I forget the kind of person you are.” He sighed and we headed inside. The movie wasn’t going to start for another one hour, so we decided to get some snacks in a restaurant inside the mall after we bought the tickets. As we sat and conversed as we savoured our ice-cream, my eyes wandered and that’s when it stopped on someone.

Ovie.

I quickly looked away with a hiss on my tongue, and ducked my head. What was he doing here? Who did he go with? Andrew and Ife noticed the change in my sitting position and the grumbles coming out of my mouth and asked what was wrong.

“What’s wrong is that the day I decided to move on, I see the devil five tables away from us.” I whisper-yelled and pointed a finger towards where the so-called devil was seated.

“Wow, the universe doesn’t like you.” Ife chuckled and I groaned.

“I just hope he isn’t here to watch a movie, but just came to eat with friends and get the f**k out of here.”

“Well, he definitely came here to watch a movie and it is definitely 'I.T' he came to watch,” Andrew said, and at that point, I gave up. I raised my head, not caring if he saw me or not. He was definitely going to see me at one point in time, so I just have to deal with it right now.

I was suddenly curious. Did he come here with a girl? “Help me look over at his table Drew, is he with a girl?”

Andrew looked over once again before he answered with the negative. “Nah, they’re just a bunch of dudes.” With that I looked over but that’s when our eyes locked and I felt my heart race and I quickly broke eye contact.

“Oh s**t, he’s heading towards us.” Andrew whispered and I stood up immediately. I heard the staff announce that the movie was about to start, and dashed towards the entrance of the auditorium and waited for Andrew and Ife to join me. I suddenly didn’t feel like being here anymore.

Ife and Andrew caught up with me soon after as we showed the staff our tickets and entered the auditorium. “That was very smooth Dee, you definitely didn’t have eyes on you.” Drew whispered to me and I groaned.

“I don’t want to be here anymore.” I cried silently and sat by Drew’s right. I took in a sharp breath as Ovie entered and I tried not to bolt again as I saw him approaching us.

Luckily for me, or not so lucky for me, he didn’t stop to talk to us but took a seat directly behind me.

Great, f**k my life.

I couldn’t focus on the movie, not with Ovie behind me. I couldn’t breathe, couldn’t move my neck as I was on the edge of the fact that he’d lean forward and touch me or talk to me. I didn’t even eat my popcorn as I was silently praying for the movie to just be over and I'd run back to the comforts of my bed.

I wasn't sure what was going to kill me; the jump-scares of the movie or my heart pounding from anxiety because of Ovie.

“What was the point if I couldn’t even enjoy the movie?” I handed Ife my popcorn as we walked out of the auditorium, silently cursing Ovie in my head and myself for leaving my house.

“You’re the one that wanted to be affected by him.” Drew held hands with his boyfriend. “If I was the one, I wouldn’t show that his absence left a void in me.”

It was quite easy for him to say, people usually have their opinion as outsiders of a situation and won't know how it feels until it happens to them.

“Don’t let me pray that the two of you part ways.” I smiled at him wickedly as they both put their hands up in surrender. Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw Ovie walking behind us and I grabbed their hands, urging them to walk faster so that we could get out of there.

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I pulled a stick from the pack and lit it, placing it between my lips and I drew in a breath and let out a puff of smoke.

“You’re really not meant to be smoking.” Junior voiced out from my bed and reached to look down at me as I scrolled through my gallery and debating on whether to delete our pictures from my comfortable spot on the rug.

“Please let me have this before I lose my mind.” I let out another puff of smoke in his face and he scrunched his nose at me.

Ovie was everywhere I went; the supermarket two streets away, the café, the party I attended two nights ago, even when I said I wouldn’t leave my house again. I was even beginning to think I was hallucinating at one point, until I asked someone who was randomly passing if we were seeing the same person. When he confirmed we were, I spent most of the night trying not to get noticed by him.

“We looked good together, how can I delete these pictures if we looked so good?” I bawled.

“If it makes you slightly better, he didn’t delete your pictures either.” Junior whispered, but my ears caught on.

“What?” I rushed to sit up right, earning a cough to explode in my chest.

“f**k, you weren’t meant to know that.”

He must be joking, because the last message Ovie sent to me after the split was that he was going to delete our pictures so he didn’t feel guilty if he came across them.

“And how did you know that he didn’t delete them?” I inquired Junior and he groaned.

“Don’t tell Eniola I told you but, she is somehow friends with a friend of Ovie and they were talking until the friend spilled that she saw his ex’s pictures on his phone even when he said he was going to delete them.”

I sat in silence. I didn’t know how to process this, but it definitely didn’t make me feel better. I picked up my phone and started deleting every picture I had of him, including videos. I don’t know what came over me to make me do that, but I had made up my mind. Ovie and Grey were going to be back here tomorrow and I needed to get my s**t together.

On the bright side, I have work in three days but I still have to deal with the sight of him.

“Junior, can I spend a night at your place for a while? Until work starts at least?” I pleaded with my best friend.

“Why?” He went back to texting his girlfriend and I shook his hand so that he would pay attention to me.

“Because Ovie is coming tomorrow, and I also have to avoid Grey for a while.”

“What’s with you and Grey again?” he grumbled as he mistakenly included a typo in the message he sent to Eniola, but I wouldn’t let him go until he dropped his phone, which he did and he turned to face me.

“Well, he sort of asked me out.”

“And?”

“And I turned him down.”

“Let me interrupt Andrew and his boyfriend so that he can hear this story.” He stood up and ran outside to call Drew, shouting that something had happened, and I rolled my eyes about how dramatic he was. Love was making him as childish as he can get, but I loved this side of him too.

It wasn’t long after he returned with Drew and they both bounced on my bed, waiting for me to tell them how it all went down, and I did.

I told them of the party and how he cornered me when I came out of the bathroom and made a fuss about me letting a stranger rub my boobs and how I’m still his when he practically had a girl grinding on him. I even told them about the accidental kiss and how I slapped him afterwards.

“So when did he ask you out?” Andrew urged me to go on and I sighed.

“Remember the party two days ago, where you guys got completely wasted and I was the only sane one?”

“Well, that night was rough and so was the day after. We were sick throughout.” Junior winced at the memory and I laughed.

“Well, at that moment you and Drew disappeared and passed out somewhere. I was alone with Grey, thanks to both of you leaving me alone immediately we got there.” I glared at the two of them and they muttered their apologies.

“He didn’t want to leave me alone, so even though I sat throughout and he was trying to get me to dance, I didn’t. Then he got drunk and almost kissed me again, then asked me to be his girlfriend.”

Actually, I felt bad for turning him down like that. Any girl would have loved to kiss him and get over her ex but when my head was telling me to do it, my heart couldn’t. I couldn’t use Grey like that, he was my best friend. Even though he was a big jerk, I wouldn’t hurt him like that just because I wanted to heal myself.

“Then I told him I couldn’t say yes, not when I still loved Ovie.” There, I said it, I was still in love with Ovie, the stupid truth that I was trying to push away, but Grey made me say it when the moment was dire.

“Oh poor you.” I heard Andrew call out to me as I wiped my tears and looked at Junior, silently pleading with him again to just let me stay at his place for two days because I didn’t want Ovie to see me break down like that.

"Fine, but no smoking. Deal?" He rubbed my cheek and I smiled.

"Deal."