“I was nuts. I called 911. I tried CPR, as well as I know it anyhow. I hoped against hope she wasn’t really dead. I desperately prayed that she was still alive somehow.”
“I don’t blame you.”
“The cops and EMTs arrived right away and pronounced her dead. There was a big fuss and they took her away and told me there was nothing else I could do that night. After a while I told everyone that I’d be okay and they could leave me. Then I really started going crazy. I poured myself a couple of stiff drinks. All I could think of was that none of this made any sense.
“First, I felt guilty as hell. She had been nagging me to go up and get that bird’s nest and I was all caught up in stuff at work and told her I’d get to it soon enough. It was my fault that she had gone up there. Then I started thin
