only him

Episode 19

I woke up ready for an adventure. I was smiling more now, and I only noticed that after looking my cheeks pink in the mirror instead of the pale shade they used to have. I really couldn't wait to see where we were going.I heard a knock on my door, and I rushed to open it, only to find a tired and sad Caleb. My heart sank to the floor as he tried to force a smile for me, so I took his hand and pulled him in. "What happened? Are you ok?"He sighed and I led him to my couch, he immediately pulled me with him when he sat and I landed on his lap sideways, as it seemed to be our comfort pose. He didn't want to talk, it should be something terrible, and so I let him take his time while I hugged him, resting my head on his shoulder. He laid his head on top of mine while he took a deep breath, and I felt him slowly relax. After about 10 minutes of silence, he finally kissed my forehead and spoke. "I am sorry, you deserve better..."To hear these words broke my heart, so I lifted my head and captured his in my hands. "Don't say that please, you are scaring me... what happened?""I feel bad for sending Alex away from Cara, but I need more time to be with you... It is true, I really need it... I have been living a miserable life until I found you."My head was spinning, he just confessed me something of enormous importance, he believed he was in love of me? Or with me. I was not sure anymore, and that scared me. I looked at him in the eyes and felt a mix of emotions, I wanted to run, but I couldn't break apart. He stared at me as if he could see my internal conflict and that scared me even more. He closed his eyes again and whispered. "I am messing it up, aren't I...""Caleb, start explaining, please. Let's begin with you sending Alex away from Cara? What happened?"He opened his eyes and nodded. "I... We had a problem with a client's property, vandalism, they had constantly been trying to scare them away, but it has become a large issue when they seem to have some members of the police on their side. I've sent other people but Alex is my best, and it was either send him or go my self. "His job seemed to weigh heavily on him, and I felt helpless. "I am sure he knows the dangers and consequences of the job..." I said, trying to find better words. "And I understand if you have something important and need to go, Caleb," I sighed and bit my lips, I felt those words hurt me even when I knew they were true."Meadow... " He whispered as his hand caressed my face slowly, then he kissed me hard. It was a deep and passionate kiss, filled with need and desperation. I moaned as my arms locked around his neck and he pulled me tightly to him. I felt his pain with each breath, and it made me cry inside. It was almost as if he was saying goodbye and I didn't want him to.What could I do? If only I knew how to help him or how to ease his pain I would without thinking on it twice. He just confessed me how intense were his feelings, and even though I knew it made no sense, I felt the same way about him.Suddenly his phone rang, and it startled me. He growled lowly and took it out of his pocket as he laid his forehead against mine, both of us breathing heavily. "Yes..." He whispered, then tensed."Is he ok? Is he alive?" I gasped, his eyes locked on mine. "Ok, you take over until he regains his consciousness. And I don't care what Demark says," He ordered, I felt my body shiver. He leaned against me and took a deep breath. "Thank you, Alex, I will be there soon." He whispered before he cut the call and I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I couldn't control it, and when I noticed it, he already was drying it with his thumb and leaning closer. "Time is running short, I only have a day, and I am going to risk my life with what I am about to do. Please come with me..." He said, and I nodded. Whatever he wanted me to do, no matter what, I was probably going to do it.The truth hit me with such force as we walked out of my apartment; it had only been a week since we met, but it felt like a lifetime of longing for him to arrive, and my world was slowly shifting and had begun revolving around him.