Tied By Fate

Chapter 12 I hate him

~Blaine's Pov~

Now I lay here with her in my arms. The only human that was able to stop the fire inside of me and give me comfort. After her birthday I swore to myself to never touch her again but here I am failing my promise. „Have you already talked to the wedding planer?",she asked softly. „No, is there something new?","Yeah she want's us to go to the venue together to check if we like to change anything",she said.

„When?","Tomorrow. 2pm","I'll pick you up",I said before standing up. I cant let her emotionally attached to me. She just has to know that I am always here for her. But I cant spend a future with her. I cant make her a happy wife. We are way to different. „I am going downstairs, see you tomorrow",she said before leaving the room.

I didn't get the chance to respond since she directly closed to door behind her. I sat down on my back running my hands through my face. She is too good for me. I can't allow myself to ruin her life.It feels so wrong lying to her. I wasn't exactly working these last months. I was but in a different kind of way. My dad decided to take over his dads mafia. Yes mafia. It's been two month's but the constant danger and illegal secrets are killing me. From now on I carry guns with me and am in charge for the g*n and d**g trafficking.

This was putting a lot more pressure on me. I needed to take even more care of lana. She is in danger for just being my fiance and soon she will be my wife living in a house with me alone. Thats also one of the reasons I am staying away from her. I need to protect her. I put my pants and butten down off before lying down on my bed wich already soaked her scent.

~Delana's Pov~

Anger filled me up as I walked downstairs. He was f*****g playing with me. I am like a doll to him. One moment he is loving and charming the next he is cold and distant. I am sick of his s**t. I went into the kitchen and found his sister laura there giving lex her food.

„What happened?", she asked when she saw the annoyance in my face. „Nothing. He is just stressed",I said while sitting down on the stool. „That's not what I mean. What happened to you? Doesn't he treat you right?",she asked while I just looked on the table. „No he does, its just- so f*****g complicated.",I complained and ran my hands through my face. „Talk to me.",she demanded and sat down next to me.

I just told her everything. The contract. His constant mood swings. My birthday and what happened upstairs 20 mins ago. „Ouh god",she breathed out trying to process everything. „That is really complicated... He ignored the contract? My brother has some weak self control", she said while laughing. „It's not a secret that he is sexually attracted to you but I think he is also emotionally attached to you",she said and took asip of her tea. The first aspect already gave me chills but the second one got me thinking. „What do you mean?",I asked with narrowed eye brows.

„Until this day no one in our family was able to control his anger. It started when he was a child even then he would not be able to control his anger and as he got older it got worst especially after my dad made him join his business.",she said. „He started breaking things, punching the wall's and not being able to control his breath. We tried everything but nothing helped. But you did.",she said and put her hand on my shoulder. He reminded me so much of my dad. My dad was the most loving husband and dad in this world. But his anger and mood swings sometimes gave us a hard time.

„So you are trying to say that I mean something to him?","100%. It's clear to see that he starts to develope feelings for you but is scared to hurt you. He cares for you. He just doesn't see hisself being in the position of a husband. I know my brother. Before he met you he was a complete mess. Driving like crazy,drinking and partying all weekends long and hooking up with some w****s. Now he is like a complete different person. He want's to protect you so he stays distant to not hurt you.",she carried on and what she said really made sense.

„He is just scared to hurt you.",she said but we got pulled out of our conversation by amber entering the room. „Hey, here you are",she said and leaned on the kitchen counter. „Yeah we were just talking", I said and smiled trying not to show her anything. „What did that asshole do", she asked. She knows me to well. But I didn't tell her. I already told one person even though I wasn't allowed to. I broke the contract just as he did. But I am not doing it a second time.

The next day he picked me up and we drove to the venue together. We didn't talk at all. The car ride was silent and at the venue we just talked to the wedding planer and not really to each other. The venue for the ceremony was huge. Enough for his family and friends to come together and mine.

It was white and gold and looked absolutely stunning. Then we went on to look at the second venue where the party was going to be. It looked like in a Palast garden with dimmed lights, plants and white, gold themed decoration. It was honestly like a dream. I choose most of the decoration and did the designing.

Blaine let me do it myself.

"I-I love it", I shuttered while looking around the venue. I watched blaine who also seemed impressed. „It really is beautiful", he pressed out. Looking over to me. „Good job",he said and winked to me. I just smiled back before sending my gaze to the venue again.

Laura's words didn't leave my head. What if she is right and he really is just scared to hurt me. But why would he be scared of that. He is so careful and gentle with me as if I am way to weak for him. „I don't think that we want to change anything",he said while waiting for my approval. „No its perfect",I said and soon we left and got into the car.

The car ride was silent again as always until he finally decided to say something. „Want to go to dinner together?", he asked while giving me a short glaze to see my reaction. „It's 5 pm isn't it to early for dinner","We'll find a way of passing the time.", he said and changed the road. I chuckled and finally agreed. We drove about an hour to the beach even though we where just 20 minutes from an local one. We got the car and slowly walked on the beach. It was empty and peaceful not like our crowded one back in the town.

I took deep breaths while closing my eyes. It was unbelievably beautiful.

The wind hit my face and took all my anxiety with it. We sat down on the sand, in complete silence enjoying the view infront of us. „I always come here when I am stressed or feel lost.

When life in that metropolitan city gets to busy..this is where you'll find me.",he said not taking his eyes away from the ocean. „It's really beautiful",I said watching him sitting there calm and looking over the ocean. He smiled slowly and nodded. „I found a house for us", he said and finally send his gaze to me.

„Really? Where?","Its a suprise",he said and a smirk appeared on his face. „However you wan't....Is it big?",I asked not being able to controll my curiousity. He laughed „You're really noisy","Noo I was just asking","Don't you trust me?","I do",I said and smiled.

He smiled to me before looking away . It got cold so I hid my hands in my hoodies sleeves and crossing my arms infront of my chest. Blaine looked over to me before taking off his jacket and putting it over my shoulders leaving hisself in just a sweater. „No, now you are cold","Never",he said as he adjusted his jacket on my shoulders. „Thank you","Your welcome",he whispered before looking away again. We just sat there lost in our thoughts and waited for the time to go over.

After an hour we got into the car again driving to get food. „What do you wan't to eat","Nothing fancy please",I whined. „Oh no you are already annoyed of it?", he asked in disbelief as I nodded and chuckled. „What about in&out , there is one on this road.", he asked and earned a happy yes from me. I liked it like this. We weren't to close to each other but also not distant. I hope it will last like this.