Bound by love

Chapter 5

Alexander

I was standing outside the room Maya and my son were in. I placed my hand lightly on the door and leaned my head on it. Suddenly I was nervous out of my mind. I was scared of facing her after so many years. I know this is not going to be easy for any of us but especially for her. She hates me and it's all justified.

I took in a deep breath but still, I could not open the door. " Aah, man this is getting ridiculous!" I mumbled to myself. I heard a low chuckle by the end of the hall. When I glanced my eyes over I saw Anthony laughing his ass off. I clicked my tongue at his stupidity. How could he laugh at a time like this? He walked towards me and shook his head in amusement. My plight was obviously funny to him.

" What are you doing here Tonio!" I whispered yelled at him in agitation and dragged him back further from the door so they could not hear us." I'm just as surprised as you are." he shrugged his arms with the corner of his upper lip turned into a sly smirk. " I'm surprised to see my fearless boss actually afraid of something or rather shall I say a petite someone," he showed emphasis on petite by lowering his hand. I gave him an incredulous look.

" What are you talking about? I'm not afraid of anyone," I say trying to play it cool with him but his knowing look assured me he knew I was lying. " Oh! Are you not scared?" I nodded my head firmly. " Well alright then. Then tell me why have you been standing outside this door for the last 5 minutes? Are you getting cold feet?" I averted my eyes from him, annoyed at his obvious attempt to annoy me.

" Alright Tonio, you caught me!" I raised my hands in surrender. " Are you happy now?"

He suddenly became serious and I pinched the bridge of my nose feeling the migraine coming on. I always knew that this time would eventually come but I never prepared for it. I'm not sure how one even prepares for a moment like this. Seeing the love of your life and the child you abandoned.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and I raised my eyes to look at Tonio. I know I probably looked pathetic but this was no time to act all prideful. Yes, I present a cold hard exterior that cannot be brought down by anything but I do have feelings.

And all these years I have been living in pain and regret. It was excruciating but I had to be strong and live with it. I can't say there was nothing I could do because we always have choices. But the ultimatum choice was to be selfish and stay with my love and risk an outbreak of a war between the De Luca and Aguilar organization. I knew that Maya was not going to come out unscathed from it. She was going to be badly affected by the outcome and I was not about to let that happen. Sacrificing our happiness seemed like the sensible and right choice to make.

" Is it that bad?" he asked feeling sorry for me. I could see the pity gleaming in his eyes. A small smile broke out from my face. " How do you suddenly show up in front of the love of your life the one you chose to abandon with child?" I could see that the question made him uncomfortable. I waved off my question. " Never mind it's all done now and there's absolutely nothing I can do to turn back things." I stood up straight and went towards the door again. This time not wait around and ponder but face the truth and my reality.

I turned back to him." Oh, and could you do me a favor and stand out here? It can turn a bit... ugly," I trailed off with a smile on my face. I turned the doorknob and it clicked. " Here goes nothing," I mumbled to myself and entered the room. When I raised my eyes I saw two figures sitting on the bed cuddled up together. For a moment the was a pin-drop silence as I locked contact with Maya's beautiful eyes.

She gasped and her mouth hung open in shock. I guess I'm a very unexpected guest. I moved my eyes to the boy who just held his mother tighter. This moment felt so surreal. I was standing right in front of the two most important people in my life and I was speechless. I suppose hello would be useless in this high-tension situation. I placed my hands in my pockets and walked to the middle of the room.

" Maya," I breathed out with deep resonance. She did not say a word other than look at me as if I was a ghost. " I-It... can't be," she whispered to herself. Well, that was an unpleasant reaction. It is inconceivable to her that I'm right here. Did she think I was dead or something? She suddenly broke out of her dazed trance and picked up the boy swiftly backing up to a corner.

She was scared and the terror shined in her eyes. Her reaction was like a knife to the heart. I mean sure I did not anticipate a hug but this is more than I can take. She is scared of me?

" Please don't do that," I said to her with all seriousness and I saw her terror change quickly. Anger and hatred laced her features. " Get out of here," she said with gritted teeth. I tried to approach her but she freaked out. " Stay away from me!" she tucked the frightened boy's face in the crook of her neck. Tears well up on the brink of her eyes.

" I am not here to hurt you, Maya. It's me, Alex," I say softly trying to get her to calm down. The hot tears welled up in her eyes and spilled out profusely and her lips trembled. Seeing as there was no way out she slid on the floor and a sob broke out.

I heard the boy whimper as his mother broke down completely. Her sobs broke my heart into a million pieces. I stopped advancing towards them and stood still not knowing what to do. Xander followed and started crying. The situation was out of control and I didn't know what to do since she won't allow me to get closer to them.

Upon hearing our son cry, Maya immediately stopped and started cooing to him. " No no no.. please don't cry, Xander. Mommy is right here okay," she said with a tearful smile reassuringly. It was such a sight to see her motherly instinct kicking in. She wiped his tears as he hiccupped and started to can't down. I sighed inwardly but this was not over until I got the chance to explain myself to her. I only hoped she would give me a chance and listen to reason.

Her head snapped towards me and she gave me a cold glare. I faced her bravely. I did not want to shy away from the consequences of my actions. I will take every word or insult she will throw at me because that is what an honorable does. He eventually accounts for his mistakes.

" Please calm down Maya. I just want to talk," I stated calmly. " Well I don't want to talk!" she snapped at me standing up with Xander in her arms. I wanted to take him in my arms and hug him. I wanted to tell him that I was his father and assure him that he need not be scared and I would protect him.

" We will have to talk one way or another. There is no use in being stubborn Maya," I tried to reason with her but she was not having it, not for a second. She shook her head. " All I want to do is to leave with my son. If you have even a once of remorse then you will let me go," she declared. If the circumstances were different then I would have not kidnapped her in the first place. I would have talked things out with her in a different manner.

It was my turn to shake my head denying her request. " Unfortunately I can't let you go. Trust me, if I had any other option than this I would take the alternative." She scoffed with a mocking laugh. " Trust you?!" she shot back. " My mistake was trusting you in the first place. I was a fool for trusting a despicable being like you and you are telling me to trust you!" she huffed," Unbelievable!" spat out harshly. Well, there is a lot of love lost here and it's going to take a substantial amount of time time to restore trust and recover lost love.