Rayan :- I fist my hand angrily and keep punching it on wall , blood ozoes out from my hand , but I don't felt any pain , why don't I felt any pain , Why I hurt her Everytime , why she always do this , why she always force me to punish her , why....why...why and I keep punching the wall , " I am not satisfied , I have to do something , I have to match up with her pain ....what should I do...? What should I do ? " I see all around but can't find anything which gave me same pain as her , I am currently in my torture room where I feel my enemy's living hell alive , but today I want to feel hell , I don't know what's wrong with me , why I want to punish myself , why I can't forget her pleadings her tears , Every man of mine looking at me with fear in his eyes , I point my finge

